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[karldark]

So, i have question for you out there... Do you think i push everyone away from me? if so why? I know i used to push people away from back when i left kutztown for varying reasons, but lately i feel like i'm not close to anybody. I'm probably just being an emo douchebag

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[luna_fett]

I think you do push people away, to some extent, though I can only speculate as to why. If I had to venture a guess, I'd say that you feel inadequate, somehow, and would rather push people away than have them decide later on that you aren't good enough, for some reason.

Interesting timing, to ask this, though, because lately, I've felt like you and I have become closer than we've ever been, in the three plus years we've known each other.

[karldark]

I've been feeling rather lonely lately. I need people i honestly care about to be around me more than once a week for about 4 hours.

[luna_fett]

There is only one solution to this, hon. You need to decide who it is that you honestly care about and want to be in your life more, and tell them directly. Just a simple "Once a week for several hours is not enough. I'm lonely and I need more of your time and company".

You have to remember that no one can read your mind to determine how you're feeling or what you need. You have to tell them, most of the time, or they won't get it.

Being lonely sucks, and wanting someone else to take the first steps is normal, but only serves to make you feel worse, when you're stuck waiting for them, and they don't even know it.

Hope you can talk to them and that it gets better for you. *hugs*