What is WRONG with you???

[karmasoup]

LEGACY

I don’t suppose I’ve achieved enough success in my life yet to consider mine a rags to riches story, but I can certainly say I’ve come a long way from having been a child ward of the state.  Those days were an almost forgotten other world from here, way back around that bygone era when DCFS destroyed the only family I’d ever known by then

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[lindahoyland]

This is powerful and moving, I'm sorry you had to endure such horrors.

[karmasoup]

Thank you for dropping in. Enduring these horrors has established my values in this life, which I treasure, and I'm not sure I would have otherwise gotten there on my own the traditional way, since religion didn't really stick to me too well. So, in some respects, I have to be grateful for the rough road that brought me here.

[dadi]

You are truly a wonderful person, even more so if you have managed to overcome all these experiences with a positive and resilient outlook in the end. You turned the hate, abbandon and unhappines around and are giving your son the best possible start into his future, to be an element of change!

[karmasoup]

I think any of us have it in us to choose the best of what we experience, and discard the rest. In my case, I had to choose the opposite of the values I was shown, but that is what has defined my character. I certainly hope my son has an easier road to defining himself than I did.

And thank you, btw. I'm sorry, I sometimes suck at taking compliments, and I just realized I totally failed to acknowledge my gratitude for your gracious kindness. I do appreciate you stopping by, as always... didn't mean for that to be overlooked. :-)

[viagra]

Wow, this was just great.

It's not surprising to me in the least that much of this still feels raw, even decades later. The things that created the person you are will always be sharp and clear memories, I think; they'll always be raw and emotional. Maybe not for everyone, but I think many of us still feel like our younger selves in many ways, never mind the fact that looking back at situations you didn't fully understand at the time through your current eyes has a way to force realizations that you had never had before.

"If you wonder to yourself, “Why am I so ugly,” your subliminal self will decipher this puzzle for you, presuming, according to your inner guidance, that you are indeed ugly, it will give you an answer, showing you all the reasons why you are so ugly - just as you presented - to satisfy your inquiry." This line was especially great to me, and something I think that I personally needed to hear, as well as something that I think my husband needs to hear, so I will of course be sharing it with him. It's tough to think

[karmasoup]

Thank you very much, and I'm also very pleased that some of this resonated with you, but particularly that part... for me, learning about how we so often so very naturally and so easily sabotage ourselves just with the way we speak to our own inner subconscious had such a powerful impact on my life

[lyssa027]

*hugs* I had a lot of love that hurt too and I think it made me a stronger person

[karmasoup]

Everything we can walk away from makes us stronger! ;-)

[xlovebecomesher]

*hugs* I'm sorry you had to go through all of that :(

[karmasoup]

Thank you for saying so. I appreciate the thought, though I don't always know what to do with such sympathies... I do my best in life to try not to feel sorry for myself, so I'm at a loss how to respond to it expressed on my behalf from others... I feel like the best I can do is to figure out how to learn and grow from each experience, in order to heal and move on. Sometimes it hurts more than others, and takes longer than others... those are the times when sympathies are welcome, but after the fact, this is all just part of what has made me who I am today, so as long as I'm okay with where I landed, then the best I can hope for is to be able to be grateful for the road that brought me to this place, however rough it may have been.