Hey everyone...Um, no worries this time, I promise I'm not going to vent. lol I'm gunna' have to make this a kinda' short poast -- it's almost dinner time and I need to sleep well tonight. Anyway, I just got back from Seattle. I had a pretty good time, although I didn't get to see my cousins -- my only two cousins on my dad's side of the family, ( Read more... )

Well, I hope I didn't totally piss anyone off with that last update. I'm just angry at all the crap that's gone on in the past year. It's so frickin' stupid! I mean, c'mon, my friends are still bringing to my attention rumors from this past year -- that are still going around now, after school's out! How stupid! Get over it, already, or at least ( Read more... )

Okay, I'm going to say this as nicely as I possibly can ( Read more... )

Well, I'm just gunna' freak out a little bit, just to warn you, so if you don't like hearing me totally flip out, stop reading ( Read more... )

Hi there! Ah, what a terribly hectic couple of weeks I've been having! You all know about last week, at least up to my vacation ( Read more... )

All right, I'll update, I guess. It's been a while. There's not really much -- emotionally, anyway -- that's going on with me right now. This week sure is busy, though. Yesterday (Monday), I went with the rest of band to the elementary school to try to persuade the little people to join band in middle school and high school. Later, after school, I ( Read more... )

Okay, so I had a bit of a scare yesterday. Yeah, I got home to see my mom lying on the couch, crying in sheer pain. Yup, not a good thing to come home to. My mom cries, but never without a reason, and she HATES crying in front of my brother. Geeze, I felt so...helpless. I just wanted to help her...take her pain away, but there was nothing I could ( Read more... )

Blah blah blah blah blah...I'm talking to people, trying to tell them what's wrong...how I feel, but I don't see how they could possibly understand, because the only words I hear coming out of my own mouth are blah blah blah...You know the rest. I feel like I'm living in a dream -- or rather, a nightmare. Everything -- every emotion -- is in utter ( Read more... )

Ah, yes utter rejection. Needless to say I'm in a bit of emotional pain right now. The thing is, I can't show him. I mean, even if I have to keep my feelings for him on a friend-to-friend, sister-to-brother basis, I do care about the guy. I love him, just as I love all of my other friends.

Well...hm. I'm in a weird mood. I'm happy because I got my feelings out about homosexuality -- yeah, I guess my stance may surprise a few people. Anyway, at the same time, I'm confused and nervous. All right, if y'all don't want to hear me go totally girly for a couple of minutes, I strongly suggest you stop reading ( Read more... )