well, life is shit sometimes....
And that seems to be now. I really need to make more frequent updates to this thing... Maybe weekly, been thinking about it. But, I dunno if I'd be able to keep at it. =/ Any thoughts? Probably try to do it tues/wends.
Well, as it stands, I'm not ever going to get anywhere in school. I can't get myself there on a good enough basis unless I take night classes, and I can't take half the shit I want to then. So I sign up for online, and so far that's a disaster! I don't know what the hell I'm going to do! I should just drop out of the one I'm still in, but I know that I couldn't tell my mom, she'd crucify me! I don't know, It's already about half way through the quarter, and I haven't done jack shit. Part of it was a mishap with registering and then my computer breaking. Yes, again! Well, I have a new one now, it's a very shiny acer, and I love it so far!
Anyway, the main reason I'm in a manic mood atm, is because of shit with my work. I have one of the coolest jobs right now! I get to watch kids in the middle of a department store, and watch Disney movies, and if I don't have any kids, which is more often than not, I get to sit there and read or draw or something.
It's freaking awesome!!!
Why? I love kids; we have Monsters Inc, Cars, Chicken Little, and other good kids movies; and I get to sit on my ass and read most the time. What could be easier or more fun???
The shitty part is, I can't get more than fucking sixteen hours a week!!! SIXTEEN HOURS!!!! That adds up to no more than $500 a month. That's fine for some people, but you can't get a fuckin' studio for $500 a month around here! I know what you're saying, get another job. Well, I would, if I could. But, atm, no one would freakin' hire me. 'Cause for four weeks in December to early January, I well be out of the country, in India. Yeah, really. Who's going to take someone for a month, then lose them for a month. It's not happening. I would simply transfer in my current job, but my manager won't let me transfer until FUCKING FEBRUARY!!!! This is going to fuck over my two coworkers, 'cause there's only three people in the whole store that do my job, and that counts me. I was gone for fourteen days, and they had to work alot more hours, I really am going to hate having to do this to them. I almost want to say "Fuckit!" and not go, but I've been looking forward to this trip since last January. And, I ain't getting another chance like this!
The other thing that royally sucks is my work week. I get sixteen hours, set in 4 four-hour shifts, starting on friday, and ending on monday. Not only that, but I work 3-7 on fri/sat and 11-3 on sun/mon. No worse work week was ever set upon a girl whose friends all work mon-fri jobs. Or, one who has to do shit atleast one weekend a month. Like, con meetings. I don't even get to fucking do anything on the weekends, because all the stuff is in the middle of the freaking day, when I'm stuck freakin' WORKING!!! It wouldn't be so bad, if it wasn't EVERY GODDAMN WEEKEND!!!!
I mean, yeah, whatever, I don't need a fucking social life, I just need to earn my $500 a month in an easy job, and live at home the rest of my life. There's no shame in that, plenty of people do it.
Well, I have bigger plans than that!
I really want out of my house, because seriously, I'm fucking stuck when I'm at home. I can't get me to do much of anything! I'm getting a little better, but most the time, lately, all I wanna do is sleep and watch 'Hocus Pocus'. I need a better, cleaner, environment than I have atm. But, seeing as I don't even have anyone to move out with, what's the point.
I know, why do you need a roommate to move out? 'Cause, frankly, I don't want to live alone. I have a hard enough time spending one night alone, I don't want to think about what would happen if I didn't have a roommate.
Anyone wanna move in the Renton area? My timeline is to move out by the first of March.
Which brings us full circle to why I'm pissed about work. I can't save money for moving out, and have money for India, if I can't get full-time by February. That's if I even can get full-time. When I was hired, they didn't like my hours of availability, that's why I'm in the predicament I'm in. I can't help if I happen to live on the most retarded busline in the county, I don't like it either! That's why I want to move into downtown Renton, so I can get better availability! But, in order for me to do that, I have to get more money... Anyone see the retarded cycle here?? Yeah, seriously.
Now the non-emo-ness
ART: Been working on some random stuff, alittle bit of fanart and stuff. But, in more exciting news, got two GW FanArt boisecks commissions from the oh-so-awesome kebzero. I've sketched one, and have the idea for the other, I just wish I had a light-box...
ANIME: I recently acquired the movie "They Were Eleven", which I hope is as awesome as someone said it was. (I'm pretty sure they were talking about the manga, so...) I also bought the boxset of Princess Tutu. Which comes with recommendations from a friend of mine, but I'm not sure if I'll keep it. I was at the store to try and pick up a copy of Gundam Wing, but they didn't freakin' have it!!! They've had it almost ever other time I've been there.... *grrrr* Of course they don't have it the time I go to buy it specifically. I'm going to look online, and if I can find it for about what I paid for Tutu, I'll get it and return Tutu. Unless someone can give me a really good reason to keep tutu. Also, they had Escaflowne, and it was $5 less than what I got it for, but ohwell. I also got it in the land of no tax, so it works out to only about a $2 difference... (("land of no tax" = Oregon))
MANGA: I've recently been hooked onto D.Gray Man... DX and I've been trying to keep up with Nana, but last I saw, I'm atleast two volumes behind. I got a good deal of manga for a dollar each at Half-Price Books a little while ago, most of it mature! The reason? They keep their mature manga behind the counter, and you have to ask for it. So... I'm happy to have it! though I think I'm going to sell back a few of them. they definitely aren't keepers. They don't make sense from volume to volume, or within the volume, for starts! I don't get it, and the art isn't that good. Though, I got to learn that my local library has some mature manga! as in, yaoi with sex~!! They just only seen to have yaoi in mature.... I want yuri, too, plz! ;.;
BOOKS: So, a friend of mine was kind enough to buy me the first two books in the Nightrunner Series by Lynn Flewelling, and ZOMG!!!! I'm hooked!!! I freaking love these books now! I'm about half-ish~ way through the second, and I need to figure out where to get the next two~!!!!! I just hope that what I heard about her not allowing fanfics is untrue. Though, with my luck, it isn't! *sulks* 'cause, seriously? I want hot fic of all the various characters doing eachother!!! I really would love to see totally meaningless, heavy PWP between Seregil and Thero. Yeah, don't ask why, I don't know. And Thero would TOTALLY TOP! LAWL!!! XDDD
COMP: Like I mentioned in the rant, I now have a new computer. It's a shiny Acer with 4gigs of ram and 250gigs of HD. SERIOUSLY!!! I can't wait to get photoshop on this thing!! Anyone know what kind of cable I need to get to transfer my stuff over from my old comp??? If your wondering what happened to the old one, the screen is broken. I am really not happy about it, but I guess since I get to steal the new laptop, it isn't all bad.
LIFE: I haven't really had much of one lately, but I'm done ranting for tonight, so I'll leave it at that. Anyone want to hang out??? I'd really love to do something.
Also, if anyone knows of some odd-jobs, or something short-term I could maybe do until before I leave to earn alittle extra? I'd be very grateful!
<3 & <#
~kasa
Well, as it stands, I'm not ever going to get anywhere in school. I can't get myself there on a good enough basis unless I take night classes, and I can't take half the shit I want to then. So I sign up for online, and so far that's a disaster! I don't know what the hell I'm going to do! I should just drop out of the one I'm still in, but I know that I couldn't tell my mom, she'd crucify me! I don't know, It's already about half way through the quarter, and I haven't done jack shit. Part of it was a mishap with registering and then my computer breaking. Yes, again! Well, I have a new one now, it's a very shiny acer, and I love it so far!
Anyway, the main reason I'm in a manic mood atm, is because of shit with my work. I have one of the coolest jobs right now! I get to watch kids in the middle of a department store, and watch Disney movies, and if I don't have any kids, which is more often than not, I get to sit there and read or draw or something.
It's freaking awesome!!!
Why? I love kids; we have Monsters Inc, Cars, Chicken Little, and other good kids movies; and I get to sit on my ass and read most the time. What could be easier or more fun???
The shitty part is, I can't get more than fucking sixteen hours a week!!! SIXTEEN HOURS!!!! That adds up to no more than $500 a month. That's fine for some people, but you can't get a fuckin' studio for $500 a month around here! I know what you're saying, get another job. Well, I would, if I could. But, atm, no one would freakin' hire me. 'Cause for four weeks in December to early January, I well be out of the country, in India. Yeah, really. Who's going to take someone for a month, then lose them for a month. It's not happening. I would simply transfer in my current job, but my manager won't let me transfer until FUCKING FEBRUARY!!!! This is going to fuck over my two coworkers, 'cause there's only three people in the whole store that do my job, and that counts me. I was gone for fourteen days, and they had to work alot more hours, I really am going to hate having to do this to them. I almost want to say "Fuckit!" and not go, but I've been looking forward to this trip since last January. And, I ain't getting another chance like this!
The other thing that royally sucks is my work week. I get sixteen hours, set in 4 four-hour shifts, starting on friday, and ending on monday. Not only that, but I work 3-7 on fri/sat and 11-3 on sun/mon. No worse work week was ever set upon a girl whose friends all work mon-fri jobs. Or, one who has to do shit atleast one weekend a month. Like, con meetings. I don't even get to fucking do anything on the weekends, because all the stuff is in the middle of the freaking day, when I'm stuck freakin' WORKING!!! It wouldn't be so bad, if it wasn't EVERY GODDAMN WEEKEND!!!!
I mean, yeah, whatever, I don't need a fucking social life, I just need to earn my $500 a month in an easy job, and live at home the rest of my life. There's no shame in that, plenty of people do it.
Well, I have bigger plans than that!
I really want out of my house, because seriously, I'm fucking stuck when I'm at home. I can't get me to do much of anything! I'm getting a little better, but most the time, lately, all I wanna do is sleep and watch 'Hocus Pocus'. I need a better, cleaner, environment than I have atm. But, seeing as I don't even have anyone to move out with, what's the point.
I know, why do you need a roommate to move out? 'Cause, frankly, I don't want to live alone. I have a hard enough time spending one night alone, I don't want to think about what would happen if I didn't have a roommate.
Anyone wanna move in the Renton area? My timeline is to move out by the first of March.
Which brings us full circle to why I'm pissed about work. I can't save money for moving out, and have money for India, if I can't get full-time by February. That's if I even can get full-time. When I was hired, they didn't like my hours of availability, that's why I'm in the predicament I'm in. I can't help if I happen to live on the most retarded busline in the county, I don't like it either! That's why I want to move into downtown Renton, so I can get better availability! But, in order for me to do that, I have to get more money... Anyone see the retarded cycle here?? Yeah, seriously.
Now the non-emo-ness
ART: Been working on some random stuff, alittle bit of fanart and stuff. But, in more exciting news, got two GW FanArt boisecks commissions from the oh-so-awesome kebzero. I've sketched one, and have the idea for the other, I just wish I had a light-box...
ANIME: I recently acquired the movie "They Were Eleven", which I hope is as awesome as someone said it was. (I'm pretty sure they were talking about the manga, so...) I also bought the boxset of Princess Tutu. Which comes with recommendations from a friend of mine, but I'm not sure if I'll keep it. I was at the store to try and pick up a copy of Gundam Wing, but they didn't freakin' have it!!! They've had it almost ever other time I've been there.... *grrrr* Of course they don't have it the time I go to buy it specifically. I'm going to look online, and if I can find it for about what I paid for Tutu, I'll get it and return Tutu. Unless someone can give me a really good reason to keep tutu. Also, they had Escaflowne, and it was $5 less than what I got it for, but ohwell. I also got it in the land of no tax, so it works out to only about a $2 difference... (("land of no tax" = Oregon))
MANGA: I've recently been hooked onto D.Gray Man... DX and I've been trying to keep up with Nana, but last I saw, I'm atleast two volumes behind. I got a good deal of manga for a dollar each at Half-Price Books a little while ago, most of it mature! The reason? They keep their mature manga behind the counter, and you have to ask for it. So... I'm happy to have it! though I think I'm going to sell back a few of them. they definitely aren't keepers. They don't make sense from volume to volume, or within the volume, for starts! I don't get it, and the art isn't that good. Though, I got to learn that my local library has some mature manga! as in, yaoi with sex~!! They just only seen to have yaoi in mature.... I want yuri, too, plz! ;.;
BOOKS: So, a friend of mine was kind enough to buy me the first two books in the Nightrunner Series by Lynn Flewelling, and ZOMG!!!! I'm hooked!!! I freaking love these books now! I'm about half-ish~ way through the second, and I need to figure out where to get the next two~!!!!! I just hope that what I heard about her not allowing fanfics is untrue. Though, with my luck, it isn't! *sulks* 'cause, seriously? I want hot fic of all the various characters doing eachother!!! I really would love to see totally meaningless, heavy PWP between Seregil and Thero. Yeah, don't ask why, I don't know. And Thero would TOTALLY TOP! LAWL!!! XDDD
COMP: Like I mentioned in the rant, I now have a new computer. It's a shiny Acer with 4gigs of ram and 250gigs of HD. SERIOUSLY!!! I can't wait to get photoshop on this thing!! Anyone know what kind of cable I need to get to transfer my stuff over from my old comp??? If your wondering what happened to the old one, the screen is broken. I am really not happy about it, but I guess since I get to steal the new laptop, it isn't all bad.
LIFE: I haven't really had much of one lately, but I'm done ranting for tonight, so I'll leave it at that. Anyone want to hang out??? I'd really love to do something.
Also, if anyone knows of some odd-jobs, or something short-term I could maybe do until before I leave to earn alittle extra? I'd be very grateful!
<3 & <#
~kasa