I was having this funky dream. Isiah was there. Some girl, I can't remember at the moment but Danny was in my dream as well. Let's just say it ended with me waking myself up with that "omg I'm already late for work" feeling even tho I'm off. It was disturbing.

I don't wanna dream about Niel. I don't wanna go thru that process again. So while I try ( Read more... )

So Niel effectively friendzoned me. I might talk about it in length during another post but today is the 2nd day of properly recovering- and putting those feelings, the rejection, shit that I shouldn't be worried about, shit that frustrates, aggravates and drives me crazy concerning any of that situation-and stuffing all that into my "I don't care ( Read more... )

Although I like Young Niel a lot, I doubt if he'll ever fall in love with me. He cherishes me as a friend so methinks this is gonna lead into a platonic friendship where I'm just teaching him the ropes of girlhood for when he's ready to go out in his life to find a mate. I just wish he wouldn't beat himself up over it. He's also giving more thought ( Read more... )

I consummated my fling with Niel last night. I had to take control but he was beyond willing and it turned me on so bad that I couldn't wait anymore.

Carpe diem

I'm not really here today. My mind is tryna formulate the correct string of words I need to be able to express when the time comes.

I know what I want from this. He doesn't. He's still waiting for her. He's just hung up. I don't know if I can really compete with his affections being wasted when I'm willing to take all of it. That's all.

I don't ( Read more... )

It hurt so much, that little pang of jealousy..I don't think Daniel is gonna be worth it. Not talking or seeing him since Monday stung like a mofo especially if I know if he wanted to contact Breezy, he had no problem doing it. Saying since his phone broke, he didn't wanna just "show up at my house" when it's been dead plenty times before and he ( Read more... )

Also, I think he's an ass man. That is all

A lot has happened in a year when I last clicked this app's icon.

I graduated. I passed my test. I have a car.

My black ass still at lame ass Dunkin tho.

Tokyo has a semi-grown up job now.

So does my fake highschool boyfriend.

Wait, WAIT...

What??

Me and Tokyo decided to do this open relationship thing (details which I'm going to engrave onto the ( Read more... )

..isn't awkward, just a bit depressing.

I'm a horrible girlfriend. Tryna keep Tokyo all to myself during his birthday weekend.

Betrayed by the fact that his twin is what Jorge is to me. Getting a tattoo but can't smoke a bit of pot.

That's his choice and I respect it. I just don't like this lonely feeling. If I wanted space, everybody would want to ( Read more... )

It really REALLY bothers me when people say me and my boyfriend look alike. The only thing we have physically in common is our complexion, that is all.

Particularly when it's said by one of my bestfriends.

I was wrongfully accused of incest before so I really find it uncomfortable. Very uncomfortable. So uncomfortable that I may explode next time ( Read more... )