[FIC] A Family.
Title: A Family
Genre: AU, Angst, Fluff
Chapters: One-shot
Characters: ReitaxRuki
Author: Moi (kasumikinss)
Rating: PG-13
Warnings: Mentions of rape, M-preg
Disclaimer: I own no one.
Comments: I think this fic is still dedicated to rei_cookie. xD; It's been so long. Enjoy anyway~ Ruki's PoV.
I was grateful for him. He took me in when he found me on the streets. And up until now, he gave me food, water, a bath, entertainment, and shelter. He was like... an older brother. We were close to each other and everything, we even argued every now and then. But over time I started to realize how much I liked him. And I still do.
I'd went to the grocery store one evening to pick up some ingredients, wanting to make Reita something really special. But when I returned that night beaten, bleeding, and sore, he ended up taking me to the hospital. And he never looked at me the same again when the doctors discovered something.
I was going to be pregnant.
~~~
Nine months later I was clutching onto my swollen womb, wanting the sudden jolts of pure pain to just go away. All of a sudden, I wasn't ready for this baby anymore. After Reita had gotten off the phone with the doctor, I watched him with teary eyes. "Reita... please don't leave me..." I could tell that was exactly what he wanted to do; he was freaking out, but who wouldn't if they saw a guy about to give birth?
I pleaded with my eyes and eventually he was beside me, gently caressing my hand while I cringed and cried from the contractions. The doctor showed up about half an hour later and the pains had gotten worse by then. Reita suddenly pulled away and headed for the door.
"Reita, wait..." I called weakly, but he was already gone. And for the first time in months, I cried. I wanted to keep telling myself he just had to get used to all this, but in the end he really did hate me. Why didn't he just rid of me where he found me...
~~~
The next day, I awoke to a light pressure upon my chest. When I managed enough energy to open my eyes, they immediately teared at the small being in my arms. He was absolutely gorgeous. Tears escaped my eyes as they closed once more, joining my newborn baby into a deep slumber.
~~~
Six months had passed and Reita still wasn't showing any positive signs, neither to me or the baby. But he did go out and buy things I would need for little Reiki. Did that mean he cared? He was so difficult to figure out.
After I bathed both Reiki and myself, I merely put on an oversized shirt and dressed him in his usual one-piece nightie. I brushed his beautiful, silky strands before lifting him up in my arms and heading out of my room. It was around 9:00pm so Reita was still up, watching television on the couch. It had been a while since we talked, though moreso engaged in an actual conversation. I missed it. But I wouldn't admit it to him.
On my way to the fridge, Reiki started to attempt speaking. His gibberish made me laugh and the fact he looked like he really wanted to tell me something only made it cuter. He reached out suddenly, small hands gripping at the air in Reita's direction. I changed course and headed for the couch instead, standing in front of a zoned out Reita.
Reiki was struggling now to get out of my arms and into a pair of new ones. I set him down on a bewildered Reita's lap, watching him crawl closer and, apparently, put too much pressure on his crotch. Reiki giggled at the uncomfortable expression on his face.
Reita quickly lifted the small body, his small hands reaching out to touch the two toned hair while he continued to speak his own little language. It was difficult to read Reita's expression, what exactly he was thinking right then and there. He didn't show any liking toward the baby, that was for sure, and Reiki was smart enough to notice. He started to whimper and tears filled his big brown eyes, causing Reita to suddenly look confused.
"He knows you don't like him..." I murmured sadly before reaching out to lift the now crying baby into my arms. He probably wasn't very hungry anymore but I fed him anyway. And we went to bed.
~~~
It was 2:00 in the morning when I woke to a crying Reiki. It was so sudden, he was always a quiet baby. I changed his diaper but he still cried, I tried to feed him again but he refused and still cried, I offered him his milk bottle but he wouldn't drink, I even tried to breastfeed him but that worked for about two seconds, surprisingly. The only thing I could do now was rock him back to sleep, but that wasn't working either.
It took five minutes for an angry Reita to bust through the door. "It's two in the fucking morning, Ruki. I got work tomorrow. Shut him up."
Almost immediately after Reita barged in, Reiki's crying ceased. He stared over at the figure in the doorway with teary eyes, reaching out to Reita again. But the angry man just rolled his eyes and slammed the door behind him. Reiki started to sob again. Tears were stinging my own eyes.
"Reita, you're such an asshole! Why can't you just hold him for two minutes?" I shouted over the baby's crying, and it wasn't long until Reita was back in my room. We glared at one another, but I was slowly breaking on the inside. And it showed. "He didn't do anything to you, Reita. I know you still think I'm some sort of freak for getting pregnant-hell, I think I'm one, too-but that's why you should hate me, not the baby."
He still looked angry, but I could tell he was thinking over my words.
I gently laid Reiki down on the bed after I stood; he was calm now. "If you wanted us out of here, you should've said so a long time ago..." I started pulling open drawers, taking out clothes and tossing them aside. A hand grabbing my wrist stopped me and I attempted to pull free, but he held on tighter. I finally turned to face him and my angered expression dropped, seeing how sad his eyes were.
"Ruki, the last time I was with a baby I nearly killed it... She was my own niece. I was so stupid and I wasn't paying any attention, and..." his voice trailed off with a frustrated sigh. "They're just so helpless and vulnerable, and I can't always save them as much as I'd like to.."
"...You saved me," I pointed out.
"But you were sixteen-"
"That's not the point..." I gave him a small smile. "I know you're uncomfortable with children after what happened, but no one's perfect and we all make mistakes. I know you've heard that countless times before but you have to actually believe it. Your niece is fine now, isn't she?"
He nodded, "Only because I made it in time to save her..."
My smile widened. "You still saved her, even if you blame yourself for it happening in the first place." My hands gently held one of Reita's. "And even though she's alright, you chose to push Reiki away in fear of hurting him as well. But neglecting him is the worst thing you could ever do..."
We both glanced over to the bed. Reiki was still lying on his side where I left him, watching us silently as if he knew something important was being discussed. He pulled himself up onto his knees and reached out again for Reita, speaking incomprehensively in a sad tone.
I watched Reita hesitantly make his way toward the bed, reaching out to him, lifting the small boy in his arms. I'd never seen Reiki look as happy as he did just then, hugging tightly onto Reita and chirping contently.
"Rei?" He turned around to face me. "I don't know how long Reiki can last without you..." I told him with a frown, taking a few steps closer to them. Already the small boy was curled up in Reita's arms, nearly asleep.
"Then... I'll be here for him as long as I can..." he stated quietly, wearing an uncertain expression.
I reached up and planted a soft kiss to his cheek, blushing as he smiled an embarrassed smile. "Thank you."
It was one word, but it said everything.
Genre: AU, Angst, Fluff
Chapters: One-shot
Characters: ReitaxRuki
Author: Moi (kasumikinss)
Rating: PG-13
Warnings: Mentions of rape, M-preg
Disclaimer: I own no one.
Comments: I think this fic is still dedicated to rei_cookie. xD; It's been so long. Enjoy anyway~ Ruki's PoV.
I was grateful for him. He took me in when he found me on the streets. And up until now, he gave me food, water, a bath, entertainment, and shelter. He was like... an older brother. We were close to each other and everything, we even argued every now and then. But over time I started to realize how much I liked him. And I still do.
I'd went to the grocery store one evening to pick up some ingredients, wanting to make Reita something really special. But when I returned that night beaten, bleeding, and sore, he ended up taking me to the hospital. And he never looked at me the same again when the doctors discovered something.
I was going to be pregnant.
~~~
Nine months later I was clutching onto my swollen womb, wanting the sudden jolts of pure pain to just go away. All of a sudden, I wasn't ready for this baby anymore. After Reita had gotten off the phone with the doctor, I watched him with teary eyes. "Reita... please don't leave me..." I could tell that was exactly what he wanted to do; he was freaking out, but who wouldn't if they saw a guy about to give birth?
I pleaded with my eyes and eventually he was beside me, gently caressing my hand while I cringed and cried from the contractions. The doctor showed up about half an hour later and the pains had gotten worse by then. Reita suddenly pulled away and headed for the door.
"Reita, wait..." I called weakly, but he was already gone. And for the first time in months, I cried. I wanted to keep telling myself he just had to get used to all this, but in the end he really did hate me. Why didn't he just rid of me where he found me...
~~~
The next day, I awoke to a light pressure upon my chest. When I managed enough energy to open my eyes, they immediately teared at the small being in my arms. He was absolutely gorgeous. Tears escaped my eyes as they closed once more, joining my newborn baby into a deep slumber.
~~~
Six months had passed and Reita still wasn't showing any positive signs, neither to me or the baby. But he did go out and buy things I would need for little Reiki. Did that mean he cared? He was so difficult to figure out.
After I bathed both Reiki and myself, I merely put on an oversized shirt and dressed him in his usual one-piece nightie. I brushed his beautiful, silky strands before lifting him up in my arms and heading out of my room. It was around 9:00pm so Reita was still up, watching television on the couch. It had been a while since we talked, though moreso engaged in an actual conversation. I missed it. But I wouldn't admit it to him.
On my way to the fridge, Reiki started to attempt speaking. His gibberish made me laugh and the fact he looked like he really wanted to tell me something only made it cuter. He reached out suddenly, small hands gripping at the air in Reita's direction. I changed course and headed for the couch instead, standing in front of a zoned out Reita.
Reiki was struggling now to get out of my arms and into a pair of new ones. I set him down on a bewildered Reita's lap, watching him crawl closer and, apparently, put too much pressure on his crotch. Reiki giggled at the uncomfortable expression on his face.
Reita quickly lifted the small body, his small hands reaching out to touch the two toned hair while he continued to speak his own little language. It was difficult to read Reita's expression, what exactly he was thinking right then and there. He didn't show any liking toward the baby, that was for sure, and Reiki was smart enough to notice. He started to whimper and tears filled his big brown eyes, causing Reita to suddenly look confused.
"He knows you don't like him..." I murmured sadly before reaching out to lift the now crying baby into my arms. He probably wasn't very hungry anymore but I fed him anyway. And we went to bed.
~~~
It was 2:00 in the morning when I woke to a crying Reiki. It was so sudden, he was always a quiet baby. I changed his diaper but he still cried, I tried to feed him again but he refused and still cried, I offered him his milk bottle but he wouldn't drink, I even tried to breastfeed him but that worked for about two seconds, surprisingly. The only thing I could do now was rock him back to sleep, but that wasn't working either.
It took five minutes for an angry Reita to bust through the door. "It's two in the fucking morning, Ruki. I got work tomorrow. Shut him up."
Almost immediately after Reita barged in, Reiki's crying ceased. He stared over at the figure in the doorway with teary eyes, reaching out to Reita again. But the angry man just rolled his eyes and slammed the door behind him. Reiki started to sob again. Tears were stinging my own eyes.
"Reita, you're such an asshole! Why can't you just hold him for two minutes?" I shouted over the baby's crying, and it wasn't long until Reita was back in my room. We glared at one another, but I was slowly breaking on the inside. And it showed. "He didn't do anything to you, Reita. I know you still think I'm some sort of freak for getting pregnant-hell, I think I'm one, too-but that's why you should hate me, not the baby."
He still looked angry, but I could tell he was thinking over my words.
I gently laid Reiki down on the bed after I stood; he was calm now. "If you wanted us out of here, you should've said so a long time ago..." I started pulling open drawers, taking out clothes and tossing them aside. A hand grabbing my wrist stopped me and I attempted to pull free, but he held on tighter. I finally turned to face him and my angered expression dropped, seeing how sad his eyes were.
"Ruki, the last time I was with a baby I nearly killed it... She was my own niece. I was so stupid and I wasn't paying any attention, and..." his voice trailed off with a frustrated sigh. "They're just so helpless and vulnerable, and I can't always save them as much as I'd like to.."
"...You saved me," I pointed out.
"But you were sixteen-"
"That's not the point..." I gave him a small smile. "I know you're uncomfortable with children after what happened, but no one's perfect and we all make mistakes. I know you've heard that countless times before but you have to actually believe it. Your niece is fine now, isn't she?"
He nodded, "Only because I made it in time to save her..."
My smile widened. "You still saved her, even if you blame yourself for it happening in the first place." My hands gently held one of Reita's. "And even though she's alright, you chose to push Reiki away in fear of hurting him as well. But neglecting him is the worst thing you could ever do..."
We both glanced over to the bed. Reiki was still lying on his side where I left him, watching us silently as if he knew something important was being discussed. He pulled himself up onto his knees and reached out again for Reita, speaking incomprehensively in a sad tone.
I watched Reita hesitantly make his way toward the bed, reaching out to him, lifting the small boy in his arms. I'd never seen Reiki look as happy as he did just then, hugging tightly onto Reita and chirping contently.
"Rei?" He turned around to face me. "I don't know how long Reiki can last without you..." I told him with a frown, taking a few steps closer to them. Already the small boy was curled up in Reita's arms, nearly asleep.
"Then... I'll be here for him as long as I can..." he stated quietly, wearing an uncertain expression.
I reached up and planted a soft kiss to his cheek, blushing as he smiled an embarrassed smile. "Thank you."
It was one word, but it said everything.