How am I supposed to quell this storm inside my head? The feelings inside me never abate, never get better. If anything, the bleakness, the loneliness I feel every day only gets worse as time passes. I think about her with every waking moment. I think about my future, what I'm supposed to do without her. I think about whether or not it'd even be ( Read more... )

Today I had a bit of an epiphany. Several factors clicked into place and I began to see a bit more of what I need to do, what I need to accomplish. It occurred to me that, despite your wish not to be in a relationship with me, such a thing is pretty much an impossiblity. Every human being who ever interacted with another was in a relationship of ( Read more... )

Yesterday my school flooded, and it was the camel/straw/back thing. I broke. The fuck. Down. Every bit of stoicism or optimism or acceptance I'd come to have about my life situation just showed itself for the thin facade that it all was. Every single day I miss the love of my life, and every single day the one thing I have to fall back on (working ( Read more... )

Hello there, LiveJournal. It's been a while. Sorry I've let you collect so much dust. I was happy, and I never turn to you when that's the case. I have a story to tell you, but it's going to take a while, so I want you to sit down, get comfortable, maybe grab a cup of tea ( Read more... )

My old IBM Intellistation was pronounced dead today at 8:00pm Central Time. After 8+ years of near-constant operation, it finally gave up the ghost as its hard drive suffered total failure. I'll miss you, old friend. You weren't good for much of anything past playing MP3s in your last days, but by gawd you did it. Rest well.

http://www.livescience.com/strangenews/your-astronomical-sign.html

I'm hardly an astrology nut, but I know a lot of you out there are. Check that article for some thought-provoking facts.

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I just had to share this with everyone.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0W1ym3yggR4&feature=related

I hauled ass at work, until the sweat poured from my skin like a river ( Read more... )