My enemies are all too familiar. They're the ones who used to call me friend.

[kate_spencer]

I have a to do list. Both in my head and on paper.

I think of the lists while I sit in bed and watch Bravo. Or while I obsessively put together a jigsaw puzzle all weekend.

Some of the items would be easy. Put in a load of laundry. Take out recycling. Some are more difficult. Put your IRB data together for thesis approval. Set the alarm to go to

Comments

[static_abyss]

I'm sorry that this is where you find yourself. I hope that you find a good mddle ground. All the best ♡

[sweeny_todd]

I too get into self loathing spirals with to do list. I have also discovered (and continually discover) that the amount of time I allocate to things is just... not reasonable...

[kittenboo]

I’m so sorry you find yourself in this difficult place. It can be so hard to be vulnerable, and to find safe places and people to be vulnerable with.

[nikkiii_brown]

I am sorry you feel this way, but you are not alone. ♥

[adoptedwriter]

Lots of insight here! Hugs...I wish you well...