you're so tough, and I just wanted to be your weakness.

every fucking time this happens I realize how happy I am that I didn't do more.
that I didn't invest more, that it could be worse.
and the worst part is knowing they are truly all the same. all the fucking same. I mean their names are even the fucking same.
god I feel like shit.

"You say too late to start with your heart in a headlock,
You know you're better than this."

"Most relationships seem so transitory
They're all good but not the permanent one"

it's an annual event

Have you ___________ this summer 2005 2006 2007? SURVEY

-had a party? I will never again throw a party

-gone to a party? mmhmm

-spent the night with someone? yes, usually lisa, but every once in a while I was lucky enough to be with a special boy

-laughed until your stomach hurt? til I cried

-laughed until you almost peed your pants ( Read more... )

I want a girl, girl that won't talk back ( Read more... )

at least some of it's in print ( Read more... )

GET ME THE FUCK OUT OF HERE.

I'm so done. so so SO done.

a time, a space, a different place
how perfect we might be

it's the guy I thought I still loved's birthday. 6 hours away, I can hear him laughing, I can see the fake act, for everyone but the 5 people he does want to see. I couldn't make it, thank God. and maybe I do still carry those old feelings but it's only because I haven't had anything stable enough for me to get over it. I expect the drunk phone ( Read more... )