I'm always viewing my life as "what could have been" or "what could be".  I rarely view my life as "what I have now", and I wonder why that is ( Read more... )

I wonder why I am so impatient. I always want things to change, and HATE waiting for it to happen ( Read more... )

Taking the red and green box out of the basement is a ritual I do each year.  Blowing the dust off the top, I slowly remove the cover and glance inside.  The box is packed to near overflowing, every item inside with a different story to tell.  Ornaments and decorations I've collected throughout the year have been placed in this box, with the hopes ( Read more... )

If you knew you had an opportunity to make love with someone you truly cared for, but knew in doing so would complicate things more, would you ( Read more... )

Today is Saturday, October 29.  I just got home from class - a literature class with one of my favorite teachers.  It was the last class of the series, and I am not sure how I feel about that.  Starting out I figured it was just going to be another 3 credit class to fulfill my electives courses.  It ended up being a kind of life-changing class, ( Read more... )

I think I'm figuring it out.  I need a place.  It doesn't matter if it's an apartment or a house of my own.  I just need a place that I know is mine.  I want to be able to decorate how I like it, put up pictures/artwork that I like, unpack the things that are mine from the boxes they've been in for 5 years ( Read more... )

I don't know what happened to my last post... maybe an omen that it doesn't matter ( Read more... )

I think I'm ready for a breakdown.  I've been holding it in for so long, I don't want to burden anyone with the problems, but yet they keep piling up waiting for me to break.  There are so many things that I want from life, but feel trapped.  I can't get a new job because my boss keeps sabotaging my opportunities.  I'm getting burned out from ( Read more... )

I feel like I have something to say. Do I know WHAT I want to say? Nope ( Read more... )

When is it my turn ( Read more... )