If you can't get it right the first time, try try again
Suicide doesn't stop the hurt, it just passes it on to others.
Ok, you may be asking yourself.. WHY THE FUCK is she posting this to public?
Well I'll tell you.
Because I'm tired of dumb people doing dumb things and making OTHER people, responsible people.. PAY for it.
My brother in law is dead. Hanged himself. Its the second time he's hanged himself, and I guess this time he got it right.
He was an alcoholic, and would get pretty verbally abusive to my sister (his wife) while drinking.. which was all the time. She's left him over 20 times.. each time him promising to go to AA meetings, to work on things.. to make a future for them and their newborn baby. Their daughter is now around 2.. and will never remember her dad. And I don't think anyone will have much good to tell her about him either.
My sister left him, 'for the last time' last Saturday. Now today.. a week from then, he commits suicide again.
The first time he tried hanging himself, his dad found him.. and they BOTH ended up in the hospital because his dad started having a heart attack when finding his son like that.
Well, my sister and my dad found him this time. My sister, being a nurse, immediately started CPR.. but Dad knew he was already gone.
The brother in law's brother came over and immediately started blaming my sister for his death. Though now that I've called one of our other sisters who has now arrived for an update, she says pretty much everyone that is coming over is blaming themselves.
I don't blame my sister, or anyone in their family... I blame his dumb ass! His selfishness, his one side 'poor me' thinking. Apparently he didn't care how his attempt the first time effected anyone. He didn't care apparently, how he put his own father in the hospital. Apparently, he doesn't give a rat's ass that his daughter will never know him.
That part, gets me the most. Because when I became disabled, I struggled so much .. having lost everything.. even being able to take care of my own children. I got up, and went to the gun cabinet.. and picked up the keys to unlock it. But you know... I decided that a living disabled mother who can only kiss and hug them from afar and tell her she loves them over the phone.. is better than a dead mother. I live, and have been living for my kids.. for over 10 years now.
FUCK his selfish ass.
Now his whole family is in pain, blaming themselves... now my sister will have this guilt on top of the trauma of having to leave him even though she still loved him because he just wouldn't stop his alcoholism. Now a daughter will grow up without a father. My sister is 34, which is awfully young to be a widow.
His body is still laying where it fell. The friends and family keep arriving, crying. The police and fire department are standing around doing paperwork.
A man, a father, a husband, a son...lies dead.
Suicide doesn't stop the hurt, it just passes it on to others. Pass it on, make them believe.
Ok, you may be asking yourself.. WHY THE FUCK is she posting this to public?
Well I'll tell you.
Because I'm tired of dumb people doing dumb things and making OTHER people, responsible people.. PAY for it.
My brother in law is dead. Hanged himself. Its the second time he's hanged himself, and I guess this time he got it right.
He was an alcoholic, and would get pretty verbally abusive to my sister (his wife) while drinking.. which was all the time. She's left him over 20 times.. each time him promising to go to AA meetings, to work on things.. to make a future for them and their newborn baby. Their daughter is now around 2.. and will never remember her dad. And I don't think anyone will have much good to tell her about him either.
My sister left him, 'for the last time' last Saturday. Now today.. a week from then, he commits suicide again.
The first time he tried hanging himself, his dad found him.. and they BOTH ended up in the hospital because his dad started having a heart attack when finding his son like that.
Well, my sister and my dad found him this time. My sister, being a nurse, immediately started CPR.. but Dad knew he was already gone.
The brother in law's brother came over and immediately started blaming my sister for his death. Though now that I've called one of our other sisters who has now arrived for an update, she says pretty much everyone that is coming over is blaming themselves.
I don't blame my sister, or anyone in their family... I blame his dumb ass! His selfishness, his one side 'poor me' thinking. Apparently he didn't care how his attempt the first time effected anyone. He didn't care apparently, how he put his own father in the hospital. Apparently, he doesn't give a rat's ass that his daughter will never know him.
That part, gets me the most. Because when I became disabled, I struggled so much .. having lost everything.. even being able to take care of my own children. I got up, and went to the gun cabinet.. and picked up the keys to unlock it. But you know... I decided that a living disabled mother who can only kiss and hug them from afar and tell her she loves them over the phone.. is better than a dead mother. I live, and have been living for my kids.. for over 10 years now.
FUCK his selfish ass.
Now his whole family is in pain, blaming themselves... now my sister will have this guilt on top of the trauma of having to leave him even though she still loved him because he just wouldn't stop his alcoholism. Now a daughter will grow up without a father. My sister is 34, which is awfully young to be a widow.
His body is still laying where it fell. The friends and family keep arriving, crying. The police and fire department are standing around doing paperwork.
A man, a father, a husband, a son...lies dead.
Suicide doesn't stop the hurt, it just passes it on to others. Pass it on, make them believe.