Life is just one fucked up ride, and as hard as you try to hang on, you always feel like you're slipping out of the harness. Your emotions are much what my emotions have been lately- this whole marriage thing is quite the job. And all my friend's are getting divorced after only a year or two of marriage. So in many ways it makes me want to be different, to really make my marraige last. And in many other ways it makes me think, hmm, well, if this doesn't work out, it's not the end of the world. Strange days these are. I think, though, that America is on the verge of chaos,be it controlled chaos. And the one thing that might get us through is having people we love there to go through the messed up stuff with us, to make it more bearable. Don't know what the point of all what I'm saying except to say that no matter how shitty you feel (excuse all the cussing) you should still get it out, write it down, sing about it, whatever, cause we're all in the same boat.
Don't worry, you've known what marriage was going to be, now you just get to find out how much better and harder whatever it is is...
And Luke and I had another divorce discussion last week, very friendly and open, he's still pining over a non-romance, and we've decided that if we ever find both of us with the perfect person at the same time and want to be with them when we're still happy, we'll re-negotiate. I realized I just want him to look at me "that way" still. And that I only like people who are somewhat like him. ARRG
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I'll read it, I promise:)
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going to be, now you just get to find out
how much better and harder whatever it is
is...
And Luke and I had another divorce discussion
last week, very friendly and open, he's still
pining over a non-romance, and we've decided
that if we ever find both of us with the
perfect person at the same time and want to
be with them when we're still happy, we'll
re-negotiate. I realized I just want him to
look at me "that way" still. And that I only
like people who are somewhat like him. ARRG
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