i guess im feeling better but i cant help this disgusting feeling of loneliness. i dont know what is going on. i just feel scared. i dont know why. all i know is i dont want to be alone.

i am so mad. i dont understand people. i dont see why they do the things they do. why are we stuck in this motion of lying and scheming. dont you see how your actions portray you? do you not see what i see? why am i the only one who sees this? why do i feel like the only one who cares? you are so redundant. all of your actions are so typical of you ( Read more... )

Friendship is a very taxing and arduous form of leisure activity.
Mortimer J. Adler

ok ok ok. i feel like in stuck in this weird, i dont know what to call it. place? i guess? i feel like im lost. or stupid, im not sure. i want to be in two places at once. i want to be in two diff. times at once. i want to go to work/school/be a tutor/work in jr high/have a serious relationship/etc. but a part of me just wants to do what everyone ( Read more... )

i hate you

january 20th
moms first chemo.
grandpa died.

her surgery is at 9am.

we found out two days ago that my mom has breast cancer.

Your Birthdate: February 18
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sometimes i have tantrums. sometimes its when i dont get what i want ( Read more... )