so it's been oh, two months since I've updated. It's amazing how much things change in two months. People, the way I feel, everything. Maybe this is growing up. Maybe this is acceptance. Who knows ( Read more... )

latest comment from the mysterious commenter:

do you have any friends?? i cant see how people would be able to stand listening to your exaggerated problems.. everyone has issues, but we dont all broadcast them like you

apparently, you enjoy listening/reading my problems if you keep reading my live journal.

so I got an mysterious comment today to my last post ( Read more... )

I'm so tired. and sick again. the end of exams cannot come fast enough ( Read more... )

I'm fighting a battle within myself. frantically trying to deny something that I feel. I can't feel that way. I can't. I mustn't. I do.

should I fight? or succumb?

I told myself no after I made my decision to leave Lansing. and now? of course....

study study study.

I think I'm crossing the line. SHIT. I guess it's harder when you actually enjoy hanging out with the person.

The last two weeks have been very sociable. Bar trips. hang outs. good times. My parents came down last weekend and we saw 'the lion king' play at wharton, which was amazing. Went up to Ferris to see Amber. Took a random road trip to Kzoo to try to take care of things at WMU. Apparently, the political science department will not waive the two year ( Read more... )

I have a new life plan in motion. I am most likely this summer taking the GRE/working in Lansing. Then for the Fall '06 semester, I will be moving to Kzoo, and living with my Shona who just got into PA school there, to finish up my political science degree in international and comparative politics. I don't have much more to do on it, so it should ( Read more... )

hypocrite. it's the reverse of what apparently was said before. The sad part is, the scary part is, I'm actually upset....... but at least she's happy.

it's been an interesting week. from realizing that after hoping the past was behind me, it was still there to rear it's ugly head. A random new friendship that has been giving me many reasons to smile. The realization that two people that I love immensely apparently no longer feel the same. The history of everything that has happened between myself ( Read more... )