So this weekend was pretty slick, actually the whole week wasn't too bad. Work was pretty dull and what not, and I didn't get much homework done, so I'm kinda down about that...BUT... I got a new job (yay souvenir shop with Pete and Katie, should be some fun shit), I'm going to try and juggle both jobs for the summer focusing on the souvenir shop ( Read more... )

So my last entry seems to be a lie, and I've been feeling pretty down these past few days since. I just don't know how to be anymore. I really don't know where to start. How to be happy, what to do. You make me very angry and give me horrible stress, and yet I still think about you, I don't know why. I hate being alone, even sometimes when I with ( Read more... )

So this week looks pretty intense, I wish I didn't have to work, but oh well. It'll pay off in the end. And Tuesday/Thursday/Saturday look like they'll be fun. And hopefully skating on the canal will work out this week! We took the German skate shopping the other day and it was cute how frustrated he got. And then Pete came and found the perfect ( Read more... )

I hate being such a night hawk. That should be like my new years resolution, to sleep at a decent hour everynight. I know that won't happen for everynight, but hopefully for the nights that I need to wake up at 6 the next morning...shit. Haha, I finished a really crappy essay, I wish I had done a better job on it, but I wasn't entirely sure of ( Read more... )

So I'm really angry and happy, all because of a few people, you can probably figure out which category you go under, since there's only one under the angry. I can't understand my anger, I just wish it would go away, because lying awake everynight, not being able to sleep...is getting pretty old ( Read more... )

Happy February everyone, wait does that make sense? Oh well, it's a new month and 9 months until m 20 birthday, creepy on a few levels. One of which is because I'm entirely afraid of turning 20 and for some weird reason I've been freaking over this since I turned 19, what a moron. Can you say idiot? Maybe it's just because I'm afraid of growing up ( Read more... )

I still feel anxiety and it won't seem to go away. I just keep thinking about things and stuff and whether it was the right choice, and what not. Because I still miss him so fucking much, I cried myself to sleep in between my little seizures on Saturday from when I was drinking. I just don't know. I'm so confused, yea...But I don't think he'd want ( Read more... )

Whoa, I think I just got an anxiety attack, although I seem to be getting them more often lately, it's so hard to breath, shut up you emotions, sometimes it's like I just made the wrong choice...did the wrong things, but I guess I need to learn to live with my choices and respect them even if they were the bad ones ( Read more... )

Whoa, do I feel like concentrated shit. I don't know why either, maybe it was just from reading Nick's post, although I'm glad he's doing better. Yea I don't have a computer anymore, well I do, but I can't hook it up to the internet because the people over at Sony are a bunch of fags and you have to buy a special ethernet cable...so I think I may ( Read more... )

I'm quite depressed ( Read more... )