benzo induced sleep coming on ( Read more... )

goit drunk at a place in concord last night with mandi
couldnt get home. had to stay there. felt an ache in my chest, even though the first half of the night was wonderful. i fell alseep holding a cell phone that was signed into aim messenger.
woke up cold and alone and feeling lost in some other girls clothes
i cant take this anymore

i needed a new journal. the old journal contained too many old chapters of my life. new beginnings are scary and foreign, but sometimes necessary. often times they are forced upon me as i am so reluctant to change. i've always been very set in my ways.

what a way to start a new journal. i overdosed a few days ago. i guess you could say i've gone a ( Read more... )