Let them know you realize

[katmarfo]

I've let this journal become more about being read than being written. Every time I think about writing something, I write it as if people are going to be reading it. Which they are. And that's not what the problem is. The problem is that I've started to conceptualize entries for an audience. I've started to exist for an audience. That's why I

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[drag_her_down]

I find the writing for an audience thing to be more helpful. I think.

Well...it sounds like you're beginning to achieve that level of awareness you want to reach.

I had no idea you got dumped by your entire clique. But I think I came into reading your journal while you were dating Brandon.

[becomearockstar]

I have definitely had that thought before, about how when I write, I write knowing who will read it, and that really changes how I write, so it's like I don't even have my own voice, just an everchanging one that molds to whomever I'm talking to. Or with, since it definitely applies to my real life, too. Seeing it all written out by someone else though...I don't know.

I realize that we both have been writing these diaries for an audience for, like, six or seven years, and I wonder what (if any) effect that has had on our social interaction.

Anyway, you seem to be going through a very healthy self-actualization stage of life. I don't think I'm ready to be that introspective.

[themaebauerhour]

wow kitty, that is intense, looks like you have one great thing going on in this entry and that is self realization, that is a great start!

[queenelle]

I mostly have nothing to say that other people haven't already said. Honestly, there are tons of entries in my journal that are locked so only people I don't really know in real life can read it. For some reason, it's easier.

Honestly, I think you're on the right track to correcting things within yourself that you need to fix, and that's great.