i'm about as close to making sense as i am ever going to get.
i read two novels, several short stories, and some literary criticism. i studied for my german exam make up as well as my english one. i worked on the lettered olive. i worked on the hunger banquet. i wrote important emails. i went to the movies.
and now, i've got a paper due tomorrow [plus 400 pages of anna karenina] and i can't make myself do anything but update my livejournal.
also, things happened that would have usually made me feel really upset and burnt out. but i'm just chill, not letting it get to me and just realizing that they aren't that big of a deal, when you really think about it. and i like this about my new self.
i think it's because the air is getting cold and the leaves are starting to turn and it makes me feel content like i haven't felt for a long time. which is certainly for the best, because the election was starting to get to my head and i thought i might go bezerk before december came around.
speaking of december, i'm almost 21! which is somewhat exciting but more sad. i'm afraid i won't have anyone to go out with and drink in public. more than that, i'm afraid i'll make all new friends and be sad that i have to leave them and that i've already left my current friends when i go away next year. i'm afraid i'll spend all of next year missing my friends instead of making new ones.
i miss people so much. i wish i didn't neglect difficult friendships.
i wish my friendships weren't so difficult.
and now, i've got a paper due tomorrow [plus 400 pages of anna karenina] and i can't make myself do anything but update my livejournal.
also, things happened that would have usually made me feel really upset and burnt out. but i'm just chill, not letting it get to me and just realizing that they aren't that big of a deal, when you really think about it. and i like this about my new self.
i think it's because the air is getting cold and the leaves are starting to turn and it makes me feel content like i haven't felt for a long time. which is certainly for the best, because the election was starting to get to my head and i thought i might go bezerk before december came around.
speaking of december, i'm almost 21! which is somewhat exciting but more sad. i'm afraid i won't have anyone to go out with and drink in public. more than that, i'm afraid i'll make all new friends and be sad that i have to leave them and that i've already left my current friends when i go away next year. i'm afraid i'll spend all of next year missing my friends instead of making new ones.
i miss people so much. i wish i didn't neglect difficult friendships.
i wish my friendships weren't so difficult.