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its a sad sad world we live in. Not really. I feel like that sometimes. Most of the time i wish i could kick my ass for being so shy. Im so stupid. I act like guys dont like me at all but when one comes around i dont act on it. I get cold feet and avoid the situation completely. It really sucks. I dont know what to do though. I am really shy and i ( Read more... )

These past few weeks have been really crazy and fucked up. Some days are good....some days are bad. Cant i just have some consecutive good days in there? Something always happens. This weekend was pretty cool.Me and Ryan went to the club friday and saturday. Saturday we had to find 20 worht of change to get in...we found it all in the trusty 4- ( Read more... )

Its times like that that i wish i had the power to just erase everything bad thats going on. I just sit here and think about things when im alone. It gets me depressed.I dont know how much more i can take. I try to keep myself busy so that i wont have to think. MY grandma is dying and she gets less and less time to live every day. I dont know how ( Read more... )

Death is one of my biggest fears in life. Do people really want us to mourn at their death? or do they want us to just remember all the good times of the past? I truly believe that god has a purpose for everything and that when somebody dies, its for a certain reason. Why do so many people have to die at once? Why do people have to suffer so bad ( Read more... )

This guy who i gave my number to a long time ago has been calling me. I think i kind of like him. He has a fiance though. That really sucks. He said hes trying to get rid of her but its not working. She wont get the hint that he doesnt want her anymore....or so he says. People keep telling me to watch out because he could just be telling stories. I ( Read more... )

I HATE DRAMA. People tell stories and leave out shit that is important and it gets other people into trouble. On top of being pissed about that somebody hacked our AOL account and now i cant even check my mail.

I really think its fucked up how people tell you they are going to do one thing. Then they do another. So you just get left out to hang. And they cant even have the balls to call and tell you something. And they have to put dicks before chicks

I havent written in a while. I have just been a little busy. I remember when i couldnt wait until i was 18. I shouldnt have a curfew or anything. For some reason my mom is being a total witch about things. Giving me a curfew...telling me i can go places. Its killing me. I feel like shes smothering me. She never did this to my brother and sister. ( Read more... )