thanks for coming up to see me.

thanks for dinner.

thanks for 116...

i'm never aware of how much people influence one another until some one i know has just explained how influential i supposedly was on them. it's flattering and somewhat scary. if i have the power to sway some one's decisions/feelings/thoughts, don't i then have the power to mess up their being in general? and as much as i enjoy thinking i have ( Read more... )

i made a big decision a little while ago ( Read more... )

i am not a racist person. i am not prejudice. i don't pick and choose who i will and will not speak to based on skin color. but could some one please explain to me what a "minority" is anymore? it's not black people. it's not chinese, mexican, indian people. i honestly think that a white male is more of a "minority" now than any other person ( Read more... )

i started thinking while i was driving home tonight that no one does anything without ulterior motives. nothing you say or do is completely for some one else. easy examples: you call me, it's not to see how i am. it's for me to see how you are. you come to see me. it's not to make me feel nice, it's to lighten your day. you fuck me. it's ( Read more... )

i don't know what i'm going to say.

but i know what i'm going to say. I'm going to say that I have an amazing woman sitting next to me. A beautiful, amazing woman... who doesn't always know her way, but damn how she tries. She tries so hard to be the woman she can be, if she would stop trying. She's got an amazing heart, an amazing soul... a ( Read more... )

boring night, as usual, made even more so by knowing everyone was out drinking. new year's eve and i got to work. fun, fun. at one point, i had happened to glance up from a book to see her pulling up. i can't remember what she wore, i can't remember how big my smile was, but god i remember the look on her face. almost... shy. *her*, shy? and ( Read more... )

there's a certain way to go about certain things, and certainly i've done it all wrong. i've tripped and i'm stumbled upon nothing interesting and it's trapped me in the cycle. the top of my dresser cluttered with phone numbers of people i can't remember and pictures of when that was me. old notes from eighth grade that meant so much at the time ( Read more... )

purely unadulterated emotion. that's what that was. it was something i've never expected, yet knew i wanted without realizing it. tension is the best for those kinds of situations and holy shit was there tension. the tension that starts in your stomach and works it's way out to your fingertips and toes and your scalp tingles. it fizzles and ( Read more... )