So...

As long as everyone else hates me, I admit that I hate myself. I can't make anybody happy. I try to fix burned bridges but alls I do is create more problems..

Lacey why don't you save the world some trouble and just die.

I just want to cry. I always want to cry. Why am I not happy? What happened in my life that made me like this? I hate school, ( Read more... )

I can't even take this anymore. I am so fucked up.

So, I was sitting there this one day, at lunch in the cafeteria. Jake was there and we were talking and I teasingly was going to say, "Hey, this was my spot first, go find your own spot" You know, to sit at lunch.. and then it hit me! I was like.. Nick. Nick used to sit at this spot where I sit, with Jake and me and we used to chat with me. Used to ( Read more... )

I haet words that start or end with a vowel. They need to be closed in.

I want to scream
I want to cry until I'm hollow
I want to bleed until my body colapses into a heap on the ground
I want to JUMP up and down until all of my energy is gone
I JUST DONT WANT TO BE ALONE

I want to be a friend
a BEST friend
Why am I never the first?
I want to have someone feel about me like I do them

I want to die
Can I be fixed?
What's wrong ( Read more... )

What has changed? Does anything noticably ever change? Besides my continuous disappearing acts and the possibility of going to Japan nothing has changed! Oh well ( Read more... )

My whole world is messed up by this. Yeah, I didn't know him that well but get this, he treated me better than most of my friends did. He was so sweet and he was beautiful. He never sang to me but I heard he had an angels voice. He was smart with great lyrics and he was amazing in everywhere. He always came to me in study hall and lunch and talked ( Read more... )

I am so stressed out, I'm feeling pain and I can't stop crying. I am so annoyed at the world and school and life in itself and ofcourse I have nobody that I can talk to. I spent until late last night with my mom in the hospital but it turns out luckily she's okay.And I have nearly a whole month before I can see Tim again and I miss him so much! ( Read more... )

I was tagged by Zelly ( Read more... )

Are even your tears artificial
Like every other part of you

Is the pain ever real
Did I even mean anything to you

Is your soul so decieving
That even you have lost track of yourself

Is the past forgotton
Like a doll on the shelf

and did you see me cry
When I thought I was alone

Did you hear whisper
and shake in my tone

Have you forgotton
The meaning of life and ( Read more... )