Blah.  Im feeling sad....

My words dont matter to him.  My hugs dont make him smile.  My I love you's dont seem to mean much.  I'm a pest.  I'm annoying because i dont want him to drink or smoke and I nag him about it.  He gets angry at me for caring so much about him.  I'm sad because he's sad.  I'm sad because he has no self worth and no self ( Read more... )

Yay!  Prom is tonight :) i'm so excited!!  I had to get up and be ready to have my hair done by 10am lol that kinda sucked but it looks really pretty.  I'm getting my makeup done by clinque hehe i've never had my make up done before so that should be exciting/interesting.  We're gonna be riding in a excursion stretch limo!  Whahahahaha.  Fits 7 ( Read more... )

Wow! So... High School is officially over! Crazy stuff. I'll miss a lot of people and teachers, but theres definitely people i wont miss lol. Yesterday i was excited but kinda sad at the same time. I took a lot of great pictures at the picnic and stuff so that was cool ( Read more... )

Matthew's in California right now with Aaron, Mitch, Austin and Milan. I really miss him. He doesnt get home till sunday!! What am i going to do with myself?! Ahhh! lol School is keeping me busy, thats for sure. I have to make up a lot of work and study for my finals. It will all be over soon! 3 days! whahahahahaha ( Read more... )

A. D .D everybody! WAH! Anime Central trip tomorrow for shizzle. Scatterbrained idoit is what i am, and freaking bull shit body failing coma sugar trips. Crashing, flailing, trippin shit. FUCKIN shit man. Bah ( Read more... )

So here it goes. I decided that i wanted to crash and burn with Matt, and get my body back on track so i can get organized and do my work and stuff. So last night after the Prom fashion show, my mom is Driving me NUTS! She kept hovering around me, and like fricken being obnoxious and i really was on the verge of just strangling her! There are ( Read more... )

um, im feeling insecure, im feeling like a failure... but im happy at the same time. A little sad for neglecting myself. I guess i just felt like no one was listening anymore and fell into the shadows, which is sometimes where i need to be, but i didnt want people to forget about me either.... im feeling a little shaky (metaphorically and ( Read more... )

People i have Learned a lot from. People i have had problems with. and of course, the friends and people i REALLY love! Hell ya ( Read more... )

Battle of the bands was AWESOME!! The best experience of my life! I did well, and all the other bands did sweet! I didnt place but thats okay because just getting that opportunity was sweet. i would like to thank EVERYONE who came to support me even if it was the first time i was meeting you. You all rock my socks!! It meant a lot to me to ( Read more... )

Yeah thats me! I got accepted to MSU. Isnt that exciting. Kinda surprised me to see a big envelope from MSU saying i was accepted because i just applied a week ago haha. So thats the only school i have applied for, and now im in so i've pretty much have decided thats where im going and im fine with that ( Read more... )