Broken Heart, Fixed Heart [Daiki Arioka x Ryutaro Morimoto & Ryosuke Yamada x Ryutaro Morimoto]
Title: Broken Heart, Fixed Heart
Genre: Romance, Poetry, Angst
Pairing: DaiRyu [Main] - YamaChii - YabuHika - OkaJima
Rating: NC-15
Summary: He broke his heart. He left him not caring about his feelings. He took him away from him. Then he comes and fixes him
Author's Note: BACK FROM HAITUS !!!
Word Count: 2154
How come every time I see them together
I get a twinge of pain in my heart
I know he isn’t cheating….
Right?
Even though they have their own group together
That just means they are getting along nicely…..
Someone please tell me this is true
Yuri…
Give me give me give me one more chance….
Just one more chance if I hurt you in some kind of way
I am sorry…..very sorry....sigh...
I can’t keep having this feeling at all
This feeling of betrayal and lies
I will wait for him for now
I just want to see what is going on
I seen them together
He hasn’t been with me for one day for about a month now
He has been with him more and more
He has sat on his lap more
And he is sitting on his lap more
He laughs with him more too
And I swear I saw them kiss
But I won’t confront them
Because what happens if I was wrong
Now I know everything we have been through was a lie
I say that because…
I heard moans in Chii’s roomI heard Yama’s moans
I heard Chii’s moans
I slammed the door open and next thing I knew
Tears were rolling down my face
I was more sad than I knew
There were so many clues
That he was cheating
And then I still believed I loved him
I believed he loved me back
I believed we could’ve stayed together
I believed we could have had a steady relationship
I believed…..
I believed…..
I believed Yuri Chinen was the one for me….
I let him steal my heart
Steal my heart & then crush it
Smashed & cracked & broken into little pieces
Pieces that can never be put back together
The next few days after that
I just avoided everyone and everything
I just wanted to be alone
I felt stares when I turned my back
I heard whispers of concerns behind my back
But I pay no mind
Hikaru and Yabu
They asked me what’s wrong
I feel like I can trust them
I told them everything
I told them my feelings
I told them what I did
I told them about Yamada and Chinen
I told them all my thoughts
I showed my true and realest emotions in front of them
I broke down in front of them
Hikaru held me in his arms while I broke down
Yabu was just furious
“Yamada isn’t apart of this family anymore”
I didn’t do anything
Just silently agreed because I didn’t want to be near him anymore
I didn’t even want to confront him of anything
I didn’t even want to see his face at that moment
Or anytime soon
Not after what he did
He broke my heart
He isn’t my brother no more
Brothers would betray each other like he did
Brothers wouldn’t fuck their lovers
Brothers would not come in between each other’s relationship
Brothers aren’t selfish
Brothers shouldn’t have the need to make each other jealous or heartbroken
Brothers help each other when needed
Brothers make each other smile
Brothers tell each other they love one another
Brothers let each other live their own life
Brothers care for each other
Once Ryutaro Morimoto and Ryosuke Yamada were brothers….
Now they aren’t
They both actually came up to me during practice
Apologized
And said they noticed I changed
I couldn’t take it
They were fake smiling
They were acting fake
They were thinking I will forgive them
I couldn’t forgive them after everything they did to me
I yelled at them
Crying
Everybody except Yabu and Hikaru looked shocked
Yamada and Chinen because I said everything
About the affair and about the cheating
I even told them about the secret sates I saw before Chinen broke my heart
Before I found out my brother was betraying me
Before I knew they had a fuck session after every time they left Johnny’s Jimusho
They didn’t even realize that Hikaru and Yabu was barely talking them either
I felt glad yelling at them
It helped me release everything that was built up
I left them….I ran out the room but before that I heard
I heard Yabu and Hikaru say something
“You aren’t our child nor Ryu’s brother no more Ryo” Yabu…
“We cannot forgive you Ryo….You did this on yourself….” Hikaru…
I felt tears run down my face while running because I was so happy hearing that
I knocked into a few Johnny’s Juniors running
I heard footsteps behind me
I ran faster
I didn’t want to talk to nobody after this
He caught up to me
I was clearly shocked at who it was
It was somebody who also tried to make me smile in my time of need
He didn’t succeed at all
But at least he tried
Daiki…..
What did he want with me
I am useless to everyone
I cannot even keep a decent relationship
I am unwanted
The only one I truly loved cheated on me
What do you need Daiki?
I am unloved, unwanted, broken, and not useful to anyone
I cannot bring happiness
You tell me what’s on your mind
You love me?
Nani….?
That’s a lie Daiki !
You do not !
You don’t love me !
It’s all out of pity
Don’t do this to me Dai-chan
Don’t hurt me Daiki !
And Daiki….
Don’t pretend to love me
Because I think in the end
You will only be hurting yourself
Day by day I see you trying to make an effort
Why are you trying so hard?
Just trying to receive my love?
I think it’s truly a waste of time
You need to stop now Daiki
You will only hurt yourself in the end
Please just stop for me
Yabu and Hikaru
I need you
What can I do to make Daiki go away?
What can I do to make myself disappear from his life?
What can I do to make all of this just go away
“Maybe you should try and give him a chance” Hikaru why?
“He’s been asking me & Hikaru things on how to impress you” really Yabu??
Are you lying….
Daiki I may just give you a chance
The day where I was going to tell you something
My heart shatters yet again
Inoo and you
You too are kissing…..
So you also lied to me right Daiki……..?
I knew I couldn’t trust NOBODY
I hate Yamada
I hate Chinen
I hate Daiki
I hate Inoo
Almost half of JUMP I hate
You actually tried to apologize to me the next day
Can I truly believe you anymore Daiki?
You lied!
You kissed Inoo!
You don’t truly love me at all!
I cannot believe you love me
It was a lie
All a lie
You just wanted me to trust you so you can break me down even harder
Didn’t you !?
Yamada and Chinen
You came into my face
One at a time
And laughed at me saying I once again got my heart broken
Hikaru….
You protected Daiki
You said Inoo came up to him and kissed him
You said Inoo likes Daiki and confessed to him yesterday
But Daiki refused
You also said Yamada planned everything
You said Yamada was scheming
Yamada is acting like a bitch right now isn’t he?
Just because I told him off that one day?
Wow Yama wow
Inoo came up to me and told me everything
He told me Yamada and Chinen told him to do everything
He didn’t know why though
So he just did
He was truly and sincerely sorry
So Daiki…
You wasn’t lying to me at all……
You have no idea how this makes me feel at the moment
This makes me feel relieved
And sad at the same time
Because I didn’t believe you
I didn’t listen
I thought I lost you
Why don’t you just go to go to him…
Ryutaro Morimoto you can do it
Just go up to Daiki and tell him you love him
Tell him that you appreciate everything he did for you
Tell him that he hopes you two can have a steady relationship
Tell him everything !!!
Wait…
YamaChii….
Why now……
What do you two want ?
Why are you two there !!!
Are you trying to ruin this for me?
Do you want me to embarrass myself?
Do you really want me to be heartbroken?
Are you two that selfish ?
Please just leave me alone
Onegai…..
Daiki….
I love you
I am always happy near you
You made me believe that someone actually cared about me
You are there for me
I couldn’t help but smile every time I was with you
I just couldn’t stop my feelings
Please…
Love me back?
“You know I will Ryu…Don’t ever doubt yourself! I will forever love you….now lets become a way better couple that YamaChii”
Thump…..Thump….Thump
Blushes
Smiles
You have no idea Dai-chan….
You have no idea how happy you made me
You have no idea how I feel at the moment
You just have no idea at all Dai-chan
I really hope we will last
I hope we can stay together forever
I will pray that me and you will get through everything
“I am happy for you Ryu, I just hope Dai-chan won’t make the same mistake as Yuri…” Yabu…
“DaiRyu….Just too cute!!” Hikaru…
This will be the start of a new life right ??
I really hope so
Since Ryosuke Yamada and Yuri Chinen have their own personal life that doesn’t concern me
I should get on with my life
Hikaru Yaotome
Kota Yabu
Yuto Nakajima
Daiki Arioka
Me
Ahh !
Yuto!
I almost forgot….
He is a big part in this too
He has helped me where I had thoughts of suicide
Thoughts of killing Chinen
Thoughts of killing Yamada
Thoughts of just not being in JUMP no more
He was beside Daiki the entire time
Comforting me
Helping me
Carefully putting the pieces of my heart back together
He even disapproves of YamaChii
He doesn’t approve of Yamada being a brother
He has seen the glares Yamada gave me behind my back
He has seen everything
I didn’t even have to tell him what happened
Because Yuto was right there
Right beside me
He never left me
I appreciate it so much
I love you Yuto :D
Hikaru
He also helped me with my troubles
He let me lay on his shoulder to cry
He let me sleep in bed with him when I needed too
He was one of the only people I wanted to go to for anything
I never tried to take advantage
I like Hika-chan do what he wanted to do with me
He controlled the family’s anger toward each other
He succeeded in everything
He is a person who I envy
He is my mother of the group
Only mine and Yuto’s
We are his children
I love him with all my heart
Yabu
He is my father
I also go to him for things
He is the one who would fight my battles when they get intense
He is the one who rules over the family
He is the one who tries to settle all the difficulties
He is the one who tries to clear weird aura in the area with okaa-san
Yabu-chan….
I love you so much Yabu…
He is the one who tries to keep our okaa-san really happy
He helps set okaa-san’s mood for the day
Day after day I see Yamada and Chinen together
But not it doesn’t bother me like before
Maybe it’s because I have Daiki
I am not all that sure….
But in my mind there is a BIG thought saying
“Daiki is the one for you…He is way better than Yuri”
And I believe it
He hasn’t left me yet
He hasn’t once made me cry
He hasn’t once hit me or made my feelings hurt
He is the one who made me smile when I get yelled at
He helps me in singing and dancing
He takes me to the sweetest places for dates
He lets me tease him sometime
It’s never gets to intense though
We just call each other “Hamster” and “Pengu”
Cute right?
Everybody I care about is here for me
Shintaro, Yuto, Hikaru, Yabu
Even Yuto have his own love….
Keito
I always thought he was a good person
Now I just hope Keito won’t do anything stupid to Yuto
Or Yuto won’t do anything unbelievably stupid to Keito
Now….
Daiki and I are getting married
It’s been 2 years since the relationship started
2 years since I claimed Yamada isn’t my brother
2 years since I have stopped loving Yuri
2 years since my life has changed
2 years since my broken heart has been fixed