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[kaweeba]

It's not, and never has been, the not drinking which is really truly horrible about the last year. In some ways I wonder if I should drink again, just to stop all the crippling insecurity I experience whenever my life connects with Girls Who Drink

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[joshdahl]

YOu are right in doing what you are doing

[bayfm]

So, this topic is very interesting to me, because I think this is my #1 flaw. I'm not really so open about it as you, but you are generally a better person than I am in most every way. Looking externally, instead of internally, and that exact kind of jealousy/resentment/something is such a problem for me. I feel like this is often more of a problem for women than men. It's like this indirect competition or something. And we're feminists and smart and we know better, but it's hard to fight maybe. And this attitude for me completely only exists for strangers too. The fake laughing drunken party girls that I know I would find annoying if I was standing next to, but judging only by pictures or a distance, they just seem like more fun and more flirt and more skin and I don't really wish I was like them, I just want to make sure I'm more liked than them.

[loud_and_proud]

I can't think of anything I'd rather do than watch The Daily Show in PJs with you! The fact that you are aware of how absurd these feelings are, despite how strongly you're feeling them, is a good sign and can only help you rise above. I feel like most people aren't so lucky.