well a lot is going on right now and im learning to take life as it is. im not worried about the next day or what its going to bring because i know that either way im going to get through it. and sometimes when my life feels like it's spinning out of orbit and i think that i dont have the strength to stop it, i take a deep breath and realize that i ( Read more... )

what a wonderful weekend<3 things are starting to look up ( Read more... )

i think today was one of the hardest days of my life. it has finally hit me that ted, tj, isnt here anymore and i cant help but feel like im a bit partially responsible, as dumb as it may seem. only months ago this was the boy i would chat with and the boy who would spill out his heart to me and would tell me that he was trying, really trying, to ( Read more... )

sometimes, well most times i just want to explode on certain people and tell them in unkind words that shall remain nameless that they are dumb and that their lives are going nowhere. but something, probably the grace of God, holds me back and says to tells me to keep being a friend and let them learn by mistake. but my patience is thin and this ( Read more... )

         {rest in peace}

Ted Bright.

October 12, 2005

you dont know how much you care about people until something like this happens. i remember the days when ted used to call me and ask me to call jewel three way just so he could talk to her because his number ( Read more... )

I lift up my eyes to the hills ( Read more... )

a lot is going on right now and im finding out who really cares and who doesnt. its funny how the people you most expect to be there are the ones who arent. common. im just taking it day by day and trying not to worry about tomorrow.

im way stressed out and im tired of trying to be what everyone thinks i should be. im trying very hard to balance 12 million things and still maintain a life when really all i want to do is quit everything and just have fun. and to make things worse i have to miss two classes twice a week for 8 weeks for physical therapy for my hips which is going ( Read more... )

ed intern= wonderful. i love my kids ( Read more... )

this week has not been a good week.