why does it seem like everything is going wrong and that everything that is wrong is all my fault? i dont get it.. nate seems pissed at me all the time because im so insecure and who wouldnt though, he goes to a girls house in the middle of the night to see her fish and she has admitted to him that she likes him and that makes me worry. i trust him ( Read more... )

I don't like family gatherings. There is never a family gathering where there is not some kind of fight or disagreement. families are so dumb and they dont realize it..

I HATE JUSTINE! I HATE JUSTINE! I HATE JUSTINE! I HATE JUSTINE! I HATE JUSTINE! I HATE JUSTINE! I HATE JUSTINE! I HATE JUSTINE! I HATE JUSTINE! I HATE JUSTINE! I HATE JUSTINE! I HATE JUSTINE! I HATE JUSTINE! I HATE JUSTINE! I HATE JUSTINE! I HATE JUSTINE! I HATE JUSTINE! I HATE JUSTINE! I HATE JUSTINE! I HATE JUSTINE! I HATE JUSTINE! I HATE JUSTINE ( Read more... )

ive decided that i am not allowed to listen to angry music when i go to bed.. its puts me in a pissy mood the next day and i take it out on people and i feel bad about it ( Read more... )

i hate getting jealous. i have nothing to be jealous about. his affection is for me but yet i still get jealous when hes with another girl. i think its because i dont trust the other girls and having one of my good friends tell me that they dont trust him and he is the cheating type to them makes me a little worried..

err what to do what to do..

it's really weird when i know i shouldn't care but i do and i hate how you say you care so much because it makes it that much harder to try and not to care. i never knew that you really meant that and i still dont know if i should believe it or not. and it sucks how you dont want to talk to me anymore ( Read more... )

Today I was informed by Danny Burr that he is going to try and hook Nate back up with Alli and a couple of other girls and I can just be there as the extra.. for when the other girls don't work out. Amazing how a retard can make you feel like shit and like you aren't good enough for people.

today has been so tiring. to start things off, i got like 4 hours of sleep and then i ended up having to walk a mile in the mud that was freezing in bare feet! oh what a day.. then i had to go to work and now im here, barely awake. oh man

STUPID FEDERAL LAWS!!! since i am not 18 i am not allowed to go skydiving! not fair!!!!

i was just looking at past entries in my journal..

wow.. im pathetic!!!! haha i wrote about stupid shit and i let the dumbest things bother me!!! wow..