I still keep checking f-book and shit and I don't know why. I'm never getting what I want from him, I just wish I'd grow up ( Read more... )

I've blocked his facebook, twitter, and IM. Hopefully I'l stop secretly waiting for the opportunity to bitch him out and just move on. It might help if Mandy weren't out fucking him as I speak though. Am I crazy for wanted her to be stop talkng to him? He told me that he wanted to punch me, called me an ass, a bitch, and a cunt. I'm not one for ' ( Read more... )

Soooo Jordan is way off the friend list. Way off. Good bye, psycho man period man.

Dan might be moving in. I'm pretty damn excited about this whole 'where I am going to be' thing will be on solid ground soonish ( Read more... )

Time to be more positive? Yes. I think so. I get upset and feel hurt so easily, I really want to learn to let things go, even IF I have the right to be angry. I guess I tend to stand up for myself when hings aren't that big of a deal because it's easier than standing up for myself when it is important. I worry constantly that people will walk all ( Read more... )

Sooo Jordan and Mandy are pretty much bf/gf now. And I'm feeling Jordan and I growing apart. He likes Mandy more now, I guess. Which kinda makes me sad, but he didn't need to be crushing on some girl he had no chance with. I did the right thing. But I miss him. But I'm growing closer again with Justin, so maybe it's balancing itself out ( Read more... )

I'm scared because things are changing. There are good things and there are bad things to it, but I'm just scared....gotta keep moving forward. This is all do or die, and while the latter is very enticing, the former is the 'proper' response. I can keep it up for a while longer...it's only temporary suffering. All this adjustment and change will ( Read more... )

Conflict resolved. Temporarily at least.

Now I'm just sick. But I stole soooo much food from work last night that i won't have to worry about leaving the house for a while. I'm just going to skip class and rest for the day.

I told Justin I was going to go work at Hooters. He got pissed and said guys only go there to look at girls. He has been to Hooters. I said, 'Well, you don't. You said they have good wings.' He said, 'I had a cheeseburger.' I said, 'You mean...you went there to check out chicks...and you ended up with the waitresses phone number.' He says it was ( Read more... )

Justin's getting rid of the cat tonight. I really hope she gets adopted. I feel like such a traitor.