Fanfic: It's not possible to leave you.
Title: It's not possible to leave you.
Pairing: Daiki/OC
Genre: Romance, Slight angst, Fluff?
Rating: PG to be safe.
Summary: She thought it was the best thing to do, but it brought much pain than she had expected.
Disclaimer: Only if my plans to take over JE come true one day, then probably I will own Daiki.
“We’re not meant to be.” Staring into his eyes, I could already feel tears forming in mine. It was hard, for me to say those words. As much as they’ve hurt him, they hurt me much, much more.
I resisted the tears, telling myself that I’m going to be strong, convincing myself that it was for his good.
I knew, that saying goodbye wasn’t easy at all. I only hope that time would fix everything.
Everything up till now, everything that has happened, felt like a dream. A good dream. A sweet dream. I thank him for that, but from today onwards, I’ve made up my mind; I’m going to wake up from this dream of mine, going back into the reality where I belong.
He shall continue to be Arioka Daiki, the idol that is far from my reach. And I shall continue being a normal girl, a fan that supports him quietly, like I was before. We’ll have this clear line that separates us.
“Don’t you love me anymore?” He asked with a slight tremble in his voice.
My answer? I was never going to stop loving him. But I’m not going to say that.
“My love for you has gone, a long time ago.” Lies, lies and more lies. I hate myself. I hate myself for lying. I hate myself for hurting the one I loved like this.
Forgive me, Daiki. The best thing I could do for you, is to let you go.
Seeing him turned and walked away without saying anything else didn’t make me feel any better, even though it was finally over between us. We shall keep each other away, in the small corner of our memories. That’s what I thought he would do, and that’s what I would try and do too.
Walking into the opposite direction, I could not held back my tears. After days of keeping my emotions within, this was the final breaking point. I crumpled to the ground, and sobbed. The more I tried stopping my tears, the more I realise I couldn’t.
“I’m sorry…” I whispered with a choked voice, although I knew that he couldn’t hear me anymore.
It hurts. My heart hurts. I thought distancing myself from him for a few days before this would lessen the pain, but it didn’t.
Then, two strong arms enveloped me, taking me by surprise. I looked up, to see that it was him. My eyes widen, and I remained there, shocked.
I shoved him away when my senses returned, wiping my tears frantically. “Why did you came back again? I told you I didn’t love you already, didn’t I?”
He once again wrap his arms around me. “Liar.” Though in a firm voice he said, his tone was soft. “You’re a really bad liar you know that?” This time, I didn’t pull myself away from him. The façade that had took me days to build up, broken down by him within seconds.
My arms went around his waist, grabbing onto him tightly. “I’m sorry. I’m sorry, Dai-chan.” I hid my face in his chest, crying my heart out.
“It’s okay now.” He whispered against my hair, soothing me with his voice. It was the kind of comfort that I’ve longed for. Everything felt right, being in his arms. I want to be selfish, and keep him to myself, the both of us running to a place where we are away from the preying eyes of the media. But I know, that it’s not possible. We have to face the world one day, but for now, I just want to hide from the reality and indulged in this moment that only belongs to the both of us.
It was after a long time, that I had finally settled down.
“Promise me something?” He was the first one to speak.
“Hmm?” My throat was dry, voice a little raspy from all the crying.
He pulled away, eyes staring into mine. “Promise that you’ll not leave my side again. No matter what comes between us, I’ll never let you go. So you should do the same too, ne?” He flashed his trademark grin, and it made me smile.
“I promise.” I said, embracing him again.
Maybe… we can face this together after all.
-End-
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Pairing: Daiki/OC
Genre: Romance, Slight angst, Fluff?
Rating: PG to be safe.
Summary: She thought it was the best thing to do, but it brought much pain than she had expected.
Disclaimer: Only if my plans to take over JE come true one day, then probably I will own Daiki.
“We’re not meant to be.” Staring into his eyes, I could already feel tears forming in mine. It was hard, for me to say those words. As much as they’ve hurt him, they hurt me much, much more.
I resisted the tears, telling myself that I’m going to be strong, convincing myself that it was for his good.
I knew, that saying goodbye wasn’t easy at all. I only hope that time would fix everything.
Everything up till now, everything that has happened, felt like a dream. A good dream. A sweet dream. I thank him for that, but from today onwards, I’ve made up my mind; I’m going to wake up from this dream of mine, going back into the reality where I belong.
He shall continue to be Arioka Daiki, the idol that is far from my reach. And I shall continue being a normal girl, a fan that supports him quietly, like I was before. We’ll have this clear line that separates us.
“Don’t you love me anymore?” He asked with a slight tremble in his voice.
My answer? I was never going to stop loving him. But I’m not going to say that.
“My love for you has gone, a long time ago.” Lies, lies and more lies. I hate myself. I hate myself for lying. I hate myself for hurting the one I loved like this.
Forgive me, Daiki. The best thing I could do for you, is to let you go.
Seeing him turned and walked away without saying anything else didn’t make me feel any better, even though it was finally over between us. We shall keep each other away, in the small corner of our memories. That’s what I thought he would do, and that’s what I would try and do too.
Walking into the opposite direction, I could not held back my tears. After days of keeping my emotions within, this was the final breaking point. I crumpled to the ground, and sobbed. The more I tried stopping my tears, the more I realise I couldn’t.
“I’m sorry…” I whispered with a choked voice, although I knew that he couldn’t hear me anymore.
It hurts. My heart hurts. I thought distancing myself from him for a few days before this would lessen the pain, but it didn’t.
Then, two strong arms enveloped me, taking me by surprise. I looked up, to see that it was him. My eyes widen, and I remained there, shocked.
I shoved him away when my senses returned, wiping my tears frantically. “Why did you came back again? I told you I didn’t love you already, didn’t I?”
He once again wrap his arms around me. “Liar.” Though in a firm voice he said, his tone was soft. “You’re a really bad liar you know that?” This time, I didn’t pull myself away from him. The façade that had took me days to build up, broken down by him within seconds.
My arms went around his waist, grabbing onto him tightly. “I’m sorry. I’m sorry, Dai-chan.” I hid my face in his chest, crying my heart out.
“It’s okay now.” He whispered against my hair, soothing me with his voice. It was the kind of comfort that I’ve longed for. Everything felt right, being in his arms. I want to be selfish, and keep him to myself, the both of us running to a place where we are away from the preying eyes of the media. But I know, that it’s not possible. We have to face the world one day, but for now, I just want to hide from the reality and indulged in this moment that only belongs to the both of us.
It was after a long time, that I had finally settled down.
“Promise me something?” He was the first one to speak.
“Hmm?” My throat was dry, voice a little raspy from all the crying.
He pulled away, eyes staring into mine. “Promise that you’ll not leave my side again. No matter what comes between us, I’ll never let you go. So you should do the same too, ne?” He flashed his trademark grin, and it made me smile.
“I promise.” I said, embracing him again.
Maybe… we can face this together after all.
-End-
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