Loss and Emptiness

[kazeno_taka]

Five days since Stolen Cat passed on, and it's actually getting harder to cope than easier.

The worst times are at night, when I lay in bed unable to sleep, just thinking about the enormous absence of his presence. He didn't even sleep next to me every night, I'd say most nights he didn't, but it's more the knowledge that he'll never be there next

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[charreed]

I wish I had more to say that could properly express how sorry I am about your situation.

If I wasn't pet sitting this week, then i don't think i would have related as much to some of the things you said. I spent 5 days with these dogs, slooooowly gaining their trust and now they are sleeping on my legs in the bed. Rocko spent an hour between me and my tablet tonight, just staring at my face, pressed up against my side. It's weird too, because this week I've been craving affection more and here are these little furballs, giving me the adoration and affection my pets at home don't even do. I just have one more day with them, then Friday I leave. I imagine then I will feel a (much lesser) form of what you do now.

<3 *e-hugs*

[enjis]

I'm so sorry for your loss. You made me cry, for you and for the pets I've lost over the years. As I was typing this, Gary came into my office, carrying Muon, one of our two cats. I had tears, so I had to explain what was wrong. Gary said 'that's why I'm spending time with my kitty right now, while I can.' Always, always, at the back of our minds, is the knowledge that our pets will not be with us forever, so we must love them as much as we can, while we can. Really, this is true of humans too, but we seldom think that way about the people we love.
Stolen Cat knew he was loved, don't doubt it. That's why he always came to see you. He chose to be with you, and you should take comfort in that.

[corvus_animus]

*hugs*