066 - Notions
This isn't very important. But I thought I'd write stuff down here, anyway.
Looks like one of those days that when I try to fix stuff that I've done in the past, something else makes you look at it and makes you feel like shit. It may not be the case, but it feels like all I've done was out of nothing, especially when they call you a liar.
I do not lie to my own emotions.
I act upon my emotions, and stick to them. I don't regret what I've done as long as I've acted as my emotions dictate.
If people don't like that, they can deal or die.
You've forgiven me. Okay. You believe that you'd be the better man by forgiving me. You're not any better than me by calling me a liar.
How can you tell me that you love me from meeting me for the first time in person? Don't you think I'd have more credibility for knowing about things like that? You know the shit I've been through.
At this point, it might have felt like I led you on. I don't blame you for feeling that way and I'm sorry for ever doing that to you.
I've been listening to songs with powerful lyrics just to help me get by the day. And the people around me at the time were distracting so that helped as well.
You know what? Forget it. I don't think you'll ever understand how I feel. Just understand this. I did not lie to you. Not even once. I don't expect you to believe me because hey... I don't expect much from anyone. But yeah. I'm done. I'm done explaining myself and how I messed up and shit.
Looks like one of those days that when I try to fix stuff that I've done in the past, something else makes you look at it and makes you feel like shit. It may not be the case, but it feels like all I've done was out of nothing, especially when they call you a liar.
I do not lie to my own emotions.
I act upon my emotions, and stick to them. I don't regret what I've done as long as I've acted as my emotions dictate.
If people don't like that, they can deal or die.
You've forgiven me. Okay. You believe that you'd be the better man by forgiving me. You're not any better than me by calling me a liar.
How can you tell me that you love me from meeting me for the first time in person? Don't you think I'd have more credibility for knowing about things like that? You know the shit I've been through.
At this point, it might have felt like I led you on. I don't blame you for feeling that way and I'm sorry for ever doing that to you.
I've been listening to songs with powerful lyrics just to help me get by the day. And the people around me at the time were distracting so that helped as well.
You know what? Forget it. I don't think you'll ever understand how I feel. Just understand this. I did not lie to you. Not even once. I don't expect you to believe me because hey... I don't expect much from anyone. But yeah. I'm done. I'm done explaining myself and how I messed up and shit.