what have you learned(?) she asked. i have no idea(.) the other responded. thats how it goes. you spend all this time trying to built yourself and then you turn around and crash into the nearest building. good one retard. now pick up the pieces and start all over. with time god will forgive you, but you have to forgive yourself first and you have ( Read more... )

i waited a few days so i wouldn't cry when i wrote this (forgive misspellings and grammar i dont care much for that right now ( Read more... )

ill keep you my dirty little secret...


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i had a battle today in my english class with a river of tears that wanted to flow while we were discussing this poem...fortunately i won and the tears did not ( Read more... )

in a relationship. those words make me want to hurl all over the computer. its not real. i have to work everyday this week until sunday. stupid, stupid girl for taking all those hours when finals are next week. sometimes you make me feel worse when i talk to you. i always remember why i dont like drinking after im already drunk. people who have ( Read more... )

why am i crying? i shouldnt care and i dont even know for sure, but its pretty damn obvious. i had another dream last night and then checked up on it today and i just dont know. i dont expect any of you to read this or even care cuz this is just me ranting on about things that i shouldnt care about but fuck you i do. and yeah its the same thing ( Read more... )

whered you go? i miss you so. seems like its been forever since youve been gone.

i drove 7 hours yesterday with 2 bathroom breaks. in ohio and penn there is a whole lot of nothing so its pretty much just you, the open road, and whatever goes through your head. this mini-vaca i spent A LOT of time thinking. too much thinking may not be so wonderful because i am thoroughly convinced that im more than slightly over the edge. ( Read more... )

on my way home from an adventure to wal-mart with my sister i took the same short cut i always take and as i turned the corner i thought of you. we had a conversation in my head about what happened and i apologized, and explained my reasoning for being heartless (even though i have an enourmous heart or at least like to think i do). after our ( Read more... )

the way in which god works is amazing. having faith is essential and if you have faith then your prayers will be answered. the other night i was s'pose to hang out with this guy and it was getting to be 6:30 and he hadnt called yet. i prayed and the moment i said amen, literally the exact moment, my phone rang. later that night i prayed and asked ( Read more... )