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i registered for classes today. three of them. i stopped being scared and i just did it. and i'm actually a little bit excited about it. not that i like school any more, but i like new media and i like film and i like analysing society and i definitely like rhythm and blues, soul, funk and rap. definitely. so it should be a good year. not easy, but good.
and i'm glad i'm not being left behind.
i don't think i'll ever out with this guy. it's just not meant to be. not tonight, not tomorrow, not wednesday. maybe thursday, maybe not. but, i think after this week, it's over. i stop. so, if not thursday, i let go.
i had a conversation with nathan tonight. a good conversation. i think this is the first time since he left that i've had a conversation with him and ended thinking "yeah. he IS my friend." or, i guess it would be more accurate to say that i am his friend. or, something like that. but, contrary to popular belief, i like that guy. and i like that he said the things he said to me tonight. 'cause, though i partially didn't think he HAD comments like that in him to make, i definitely never thought he'd be willing to share those comments with me. we've transcended, which i didn't think was possible with us.
i feel good about life right now. and that's... good.
it's funny that i see myself continuously growing and changing. it's even funnier that i see it happening so drastically from one week to another. like, WOW.