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why do i find myself wishing for someone to mention valentine's day to me...
knowing that he's interested and acknowledging that there is some level of interest on my part...
then immediately shutting him down when he DOES ask me to be his valentine...
then wishing he brings it up again so i can tactfully take back my rejection?
why do i know, clearly, that what he wants is not exactly what i want...
but still want him to want it anyway?
i want us to be together on valentine's day.
i don't want to be his valentine...
but i want us to be together.
he doesn't want us to be together...
unless it is as valentines.
why do i know that i'm better than "valentine's day drama"
yet still find myself agonizing over something so stupid?
it's just another day.
it's a good opportunity, if given, to spend time with someone you love...
regardless of what type of relationship you currently have.
and if that doesn't work, then...
so be it.
right?