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i'm so shit that he just cut me right out.
like, fuck you, khadija.
you're shit.
i know this is hormones and angry uterus and pain and frustration talking right now, but it doesn't make it any less true.
i was shit tonight.
and he completely cut me out.
and that's that.
like, fuck you, khadija.
that hurts.
it hurts me to see and have to admit that i'm shit.
but it hurts even more that he'd do that.
because he's not like that, so i know it must have been a very conscious decision.
and that fucking hurts my feelings.
because, while i know he's only trying to help me,
that's such an extreme,
which means that he thinks i was extremely shitty.
which hurts to see and have to admit.
WHERE AM I???
WHO IS THIS GIRL?
and, i know i could have been considered,
chosen,
but i wasn't.
because i was shit tonight.
not that i am shit,
but i was total shit tonight.