right after rob and i met and fell in love in 1999, his foreign exchange term ended and after 3 months of us being together, he had to go back to south africa. i didn't know if i would ever SEE him again, let alone how long it would be. oh my gosh, i can't even describe my depression. how do you say goodbye to someone you love for forever? we stood in o'hare for almost an hour crying and holding each other and then he got on the plane and was gone. it was the saddest love story ever...
My first real girlfriend I ever had died in a freak accident and I should have been there. But I wasn't. Her family was having a party on a Sunday afternoon and I had told her I couldn't be there (even though I probably could have) because I selfishly didn't feel like going. So not thinking anything of it I blew it off. And then I get a call much later that night from her Mom that she was helping her brother get a ball off the roof of their two story house and the ladder fell backwards, with her on it, and the extension lock plunged into her heart. She died within minutes. If I had gone to her house that night I would have probably gone up that ladder to get the ball. I always think back to that. Because if I had gone then: A.) I would have been able to get the ball without falling and all would have been fine. or B.) the ladder would have fallen anyway and I'd be dead instead of her. There is no doubt in my mind that she was the one I would be with forever. No question. True, we were in our mid-teens but we had known each other
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You really need to forgive yourself. I know it is not easy or you'd have done it by now. It isn't your fault. How could you have possibly have known that would happen? Hundreds of people have avoided family parties and will continue to do so with no serious consequences. You were just very very very incredibly unlucky. Glad you have found love again now.
It's been awhile since I've talked about it, but I thought it might add some perspective to your situation. Basically I was trying to say as bad as it seems, it will get better.
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