It'd be nice to be able to trust or rely on anyone ( Read more... )

So far, college sucks.

"You can have it all, my empire of dirt. I will let you down. I will make you hurt."

Jon is making me feel the way Joel used to make me feel lately.
But, I can't really blame it on him or on anyone else because I am feeling the way I'm feeling because I am losing grips with myself. I am in a rough patch.I'm not in an appropriate place to be ( Read more... )

I'm overwhelmed
I'm disconnected
and I don't. trust. anyone.

i'm in college. holy fuck ( Read more... )

I leave for school in about 10 days.
I have so much to do.

And now he wants me back and suddenly wants what i thought i wanted but don't actually want except maybe I'm thinking about what I want now and maybe it's what he wants?

:(:(:(:(:(

I don't feel better yet, so here's a list of things to remind myself ( Read more... )

this hurts more than it would in august
this is horrible
im hurting and crying and thank fucking god i see Dr.Nikki tomorrow.
i cant breathe and i cant handle this.
fuckfuckfuckfuckfuck
timing of everything is always horrible.

Why does it feel like everyone's mad at me?