fuck fuck fuck

[keesha]

these last couple of days have been surreal..i havent really been alive so to speak..ive been really out of it..saturday nick told me that i was hurting him with the whole dating thing..and made me feel like an ass..i rethought everything and realized that ive been a heartless ass by dragging him along..keeping him there as a sort of backup..not

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[livingdeadgyrl]

Although it to you it doesnt seem so, you did the right thing.. either he's going to get hurt. I can understand why he would be upset , I would be upset too, but he hasto realize that you just need time for yourself..wes and i call it a "break". You shouldnt feel selfish or bad about this situation, it's justifed, I assure you, babe. This will be difficult for him to get over, but if he truely loves you, he'll try to understand, give it time, pain fades.. and understanding comes in. With all hysterics aside, he'll figure out that maybe it's the best for both of you for now..it just takes time.
You're a wonderful person, hon.. dont forget that.
Love ya!
*Hugs & kisses *
~Tasia

[keesha]

thank you hun..i love you too..and miss you and hope to get to talk to you soon..

[joie]

I remember when Jason broke up with me

OOh boy. I asked the exact same question Nick asked you, but the thing was, it wasnt just a switch over night. Your decision didnt just happen over night, like the the snap of a finger, its been there for a while. for how long I dunno.

nobody said break ups were easy and after I broke up with Jason I tried to stop hurting him by inviting him over and hugging him alot, and in the end that just made him more frustrated and hurt.

anyway, none of that probably helps.

ah well

[keesha]

thats why i said that the whole friend thing was just not going to work..because i knew that if he saw me and couldnt hold my hand that it would bother him..so in the longrun i would be hurting him both ways..so i figured this was the way to do it..btw..something happened with brock..alot of something happened with brock but i would much rather tell you on the phone or in a letter..just cause i know that nick might read this..

I'm Callin you...

[joie]

I'll call you Friday or Saturday. And i'm sendin you a package in the mail.

-hugs-

-joie

[ex_omgwtf181]

Whoa

[nnythedark]

I think you need to put yerself first in this....just once. Trust me, it'll hurt. But he has to cope with his pain, and you with yers.

And I think that's all I have to say...I had more to say...but it kinda just faded. Durn train of thoughts' been derailed for awhile now. Sorry.

[keesha]

thank you..i tend to agree but it is freaking hard..gah!!!but anyways..i was wondering if you wanted to do anything later..i only get sundays and mondays off..but this week is special and i get friday off..so if you want to do something give me a hollar..my # is still the same..

[nnythedark]

I'll call you tomorrow night...or maybe stop by and see you art work. I need to stop by greenville anyway. I'll let you know.

[keesha]

works not a good idea cause im upstairs tomorrow and cant come down..its a new rule..blah..but yeah give ma a call..