what is love? [2/2]

[kei17]

Title: what is love?
Pairing: Sehun/Luhan, side!Kai/Kyungsoo
Rating: g



CHAPTER 6 - In which we learn love just happens

Luhan was missing Sehun so bad. It was his fault, he knew, but that doesn't make missing him any easier. When he's off to school, he finds himself craning his neck down Sehun's road just to catch a glimpse of his friend. When going home, his eyes will scan the school grounds hoping to see a thatch of light brown hair atop flawless skin. He's gonna lose his mind one of these days.

Just yesterday when he passed by the tea shop they frequented, he had a strong urge to enter, which he did. He ordered 2 medium sized-chocolate-flavored bubble teas without knowing how he can possibly drink all of it by himself. As he sat down, he placed one in front of him and the other one at the other side of the table. Luhan realized how empty the table was without Sehun's constant chatter. "This is crazy." Luhan said to himself while he stood up and left, his drink barely sipped.

Today he walked to their hangout by the park swings. As he was enjoying the feel of the wind in his face, he remembered the first time he met Sehun after he rejected him the night before. He didn't expect to see him walking there. And from the look in Sehun's face he didn't expect to see Luhan either. It was awkward. It was tense. It was a scene straight from a movie he'll never want to watch.

But he tried to talk to Sehun, to explain why he said what he did, to explain again why they can't be together and get in an apology in between. He knew he hurt Sehun badly with his harsh words. But how can he possibly reason with him when he didn't even stay to listen? Sehun just mumbled something and left him there.

And truth be told Luhan would've made a mess of his explanation anyway.

He winced as he recalled every hurtful word he said. And as if that wasn't enough, he also recalled how Kyungsoo raised his eyebrow at him as they passed each other in the school corridors two days after. He started to say hi but he saw Kyungsoo's stiff expression. The smaller guy already went by him when he heard Kyungsoo say, "So much for grand gestures, he should've chosen someone who'll appreciate it."

Luhan turned to look at Kyungsoo, but he was already gone. Luhan sighed. He just realized he not only hurt Sehun but he also hurt their friends, too.

Luhan heard someone approach him. He looked and saw Jongin sit on the swing beside his. Jongin shot him a sideway glance before pushing himself backward to get the swing started. "I knew I'd find you here. Fine day, huh?"

Luhan was glad his friend was talking to him. "Yeah. I didn't expect to see you. Don't you have practice?"

"Well, I was supposed to have one but my dancing partner can't lift his butt off the practice room. Something about wallowing and being sorry for himself. That sorta stuff." Jongin said offhandedly.

Luhan felt as if a deadweight pulled his heart further down the hole he dug for himself. "Is he... Is Sehunnie okay?"

"Well, he's not eating well lately so he kinda lost weight. He's always staring off to god knows where and keeps on blabbering about heartache and sorrow. Pretty intense." Jongin said with a snort.

"I see." Luhan whispered, drowning in guilt.

"But enough about that puppy. I actually came here to ask for advice." Jongin started. "You see, I'm having a problem with a certain person. I need you to answer me honestly."

"Do I know the person?"

"Uh... Let's not be too honest then." Jongin said with a little laugh but he continued. "There's this guy I know... He's temperamental but he's also sweet in his own way. He takes care of me even as he scolds me for injuring myself. Most of the time he thinks I'm an idiot but he still puts up with me."

"From what you told me it's obvious that he cares about you." Luhan answered.

"Actually, I know he cares. But what I want to know is if I love him or if I just care for him. I'm so new at this. Are there certain guidelines? Are there rules?" Jongin asked seriously.

"There are no rules; I guess you just have to trust what you feel." Luhan shrugged.

"I'm still young. And this person thinks I'm immature. Can I really just trust my feelings?"

Luhan fell quiet.Why is this so familiar?

"Is it really love when all you could think about is spending time with that person? Is it love when a smile from him makes everything fade away? Is it... love when you look in each other's eyes and there's a sudden urge to look away because if you won't you'll probably drown in happiness?" Jongin eyes rounded. He looked as if he had been struck by lightning.

"I think you just realized the answer." Luhan said.

"Shoot... I didn't expect that." Jongin shook his head. "But do you believe it? Do you really think so? Even if I'm young, I'm stupid and I'm... me?"

"If he loves you, I think it won't matter to him anyway." Luhan answered.

"But it mattered to you, right? Was that why you didn't accept Sehunnie?"

"I...”Luhan couldn't think of anything to say.

"He really loves you, you know. Even if he's young, and stupid and he's... him." Jongin said with a smile and a wink.

Jongin stood and Luhan looked at up at him. Kyungsoo was lucky to have Jongin.

Jongin took a few steps away when Luhan called out to him.

"Actually, it mattered to me because I... I love him for it."

"That’s actually what I wanted to hear!" Jongin waved before walking away.

And it's true, isn't it? It mattered that Sehun was younger, that he was probably immature and that he may change his mind anytime. But everthing mattered to Luhan because he loves Sehun. So much that he was so afraid of the thought that his friend wouldn't really love him back. He made himself believe that it's better to stay friends than to risk his heart. Cause how will he ever recover if Sehun leaves him?

But isn't what love is about? Risking everything and giving yourself fully to the one you love? Didn't Sehun do just that?

He thought he was the one older and wiser between them. But he guessed he was wrong. How could he have been so stupid?

Now all his fears may come true. What if Sehun already gave up on him and found someone new? Luhan closed his eyes and prayed that he wasn't too late.

CHAPTER 7 - In which we learn what is love

His heart feels as if it would beat its way out of his chest. Sehun put his right hand over it and breathed deeply to calm himself. He decided that today was the day he'll approach Luhan and end this rift between them. Well, he decided that yesterday and the day before was the day but he somehow always loses his nerve every time he walks through the Voice Department's entrance.

But this time he'll do it. He couldn't take not being able to talk to Luhan anymore. Sehun walked slowly towards Luhan's practice room. He was at the door when he heard two people talking. He took a peek inside the room and what he saw, and heard, broke his heart.

Minseok's back was to Sehun. He was sitting on a stool and infront of him was Luhan.

"Do I have it say it out loud?" Luhan asked.

"Of course." Minseok answered.

"I love you!" Luhan half-shouted the confession. Then he smiled. "That kinda felt good."

Sehun heard Minseok laugh as he left the scene. He left because he couldn't take it.

He told Chanyeol its okay if Luhan didn't love him back but what a lie that was. Sehun ran and went to the park swings. He thought he could find some sort of comfort there in his favorite place but he was wrong. All he could think about as he sat there were the times Luhan and him were together, laughing about everything and nothing. He remembered how he would tie the front of Luhan's bushy hair with a rubber band so it won't go to his face when he rides the swings. He can still remember the feel of Luhan's hand in his own as they held hands as they swung higher and higher.

What he said was true. There was a never a time since they met that he wasn't in love with Luhan. And Sehun wanted to cry for the fact that there was never a time that Luhan was in love with him, too. "I'm a lothser..." His lisp returned but then again, who cares?

"Explain to me again why you won't come." Jongin asked Sehun. His friends were all there at the Dance practice room B - Jongin, Kyungsoo and Chanyeol- and two of them were asking him such a stupid question.

"That's such a stupid question." Kyungsoo told Jongin with a raised eyebrow.

"Thank you." Sehun told Kyungsoo.

Kyungsoo glared at him. "The right question is what are you doing here?"

"But isn't that the same thing?" Chanyeol asked the shorter guy.

"No, it isn't. We all know why Sehunnie won't come to the recital. But what I don't understand is why is he here? In this particular practice room. If he doesn't want to watch, why is he still in school? Why doesn't he get lost somewhere far away from here?"

Jongin and Chanyeol looked at Sehun. "He kind of makes sense." Chanyeol said pointing to Kyungsoo.

Sehun stopped his dancing and sighed. "I just came here to practice. That's all."

"No, you came here so you could listen to Luhan without anyone knowing it. It's no coincidence that the performance hall is just next door." Kyungsoo explained.

"How desperate does that make me?" Sehun said sadly.

"That doesn't make you desperate. That just shows how much you love the guy. No one's judging you." Jongin said. "But I'm sure Luhan will be happier if you'll be there to support him. You are his best friend after all."

Sehun just stood there, torn between going and not going. He really wanted to see Luhan in his final performance before he graduates. But it was just so painful.

"It's starting." Chanyeol said as he looked at his watch. "Well, if you ever change your mind just go there. We'll be near the front and we'll save a seat for you."

Before leaving, Kyungsoo said, "I was angry at Luhan at first because he rejected a great guy like you. I still believe that he'll regret it forever. But Jongin's right. We are his friends but no one's more special to him than you."

"I said something right? You hear that Chanyeol? Kyungsoo said I said something right!" Jongin laughed.

"That was a first and a last." Kyungsoo rolled his eyes at Jongin. But Jongin didn't mind as he put his arm around Kyungsoo's shoulder as they walked out of the room with Chanyeol.

Sehun slumped down the floor and sighed. He heard the musicians play and the people clap as the recital started. He stood up to change clothes. It really was no choice at all.

According to the program Sehun was holding, he was just in time for the main performance of the night. A duet between Luhan and a student named Jongdae. Sehun easily found his friends seating at the third row from the stage, he went to the empty seat but was dismayed to find who was seating at his left.

"Hello." Minseok greeted Sehun with a smile. "By the way, I'm Kim Minseok, Luhan's classmate."

"I'm Oh Sehun." Sehun said, smiling tightly. "You know me?"

"Of course. Luhan always talks about you."

"He never talked about you." Sehun lied, feeling a little petty. "Well, he did but not much." He couldn't really do it.

"I bet." Minseok smiled knowingly. Does he know how jealous Sehun feels?

"Aren't you supposed to sing too?"

"I was the first to sing. I just came here a bit to watch someone special perform. You're here because of that too, right?"

Sehun was saved from replying when the music started and the spotlight hit the two singers on the stage. One was a skinny guy, wearing a gray suit and what looked like a dead animal on his shoulder and the other was Luhan, looking all angelic in his white outfit. Sehun slid a glance at Minseok and he saw the other guy's eyes fixed on the stage and smiling lovingly.

He returned his gaze on the stage where it stayed as Luhan sang the first bars of the song.

I lost my mind, Noreul choeummannasseultte

I lost my mind, the moment I saw you

No hanappego modeungoseun Get in slow motion

Except you, everything gets in slow motion

Nege marhejwo ige sarangiramyon,

Tell me, if this is love

Meil geudewa, Sumaneun gamjong deureul lanwojugo bewogamyo

Sharing and learning countless emotions everyday with you

Ssaugo ulgo anajugo

Fighting, crying and hugging

Nege marhejwo ige sarangiramyon

Tell me, if this is love

Sehun felt the words of the song swirl in his head. When Luhan sang, everything really went in slow motion. But as the closing notes of the song was played, the spell was broken. Sehun prepared himself to stand up and leave when he saw Luhan go to the center of the stage and turned to his direction. Sehun couldn't move. What was Luhan doing?

Just then Luhan, who's blushing, put his arms up above his head and made a big heart shape. Then he said out loud: "I love you!"

The audience cheered and clapped. Sehun didn't hear them. Did Luhan just confess to him? But then he suddenly remembered who was sitting beside him. Sehun's heart broke all over again and he did what he should've done 30 seconds ago. He left.

CHAPTER 8 - In which we learn what is love pt. 2

Luhan panicked when he saw Sehun leave. He really didn't have the time to think of why he left. All he could think about is that he should follow him. Luhan half-ran and half-walked towards the backstage so he can go after Sehun. His classmates were cheering and clapping as he passed through them. He didn't care. He ran outside the building and looked but Sehun was nowhere to be found.

He run towards the street and was relieved to find Sehun walking.

"Sehun! Sehunnie!"

Sehun stopped and looked back.

Luhan reached his friend. "I thought you weren't gonna come. I kept looking for you in the audience, but your seat was empty. And then I saw you..."

"Of course I had to be there. I am your bestfriend right?" Sehun said, biting his lower lip.

"But why did you leave? Were you embarassed?" Luhan asked. It wasn't lost on him that they've had a conversation like this before. But this time... Was he being rejected?

"No. Why would I be? I just thought I wasn't needed there." Sehun explained. Clearly he was hurt. But why?

"Of course I needed you there. How else could I have confessed if you weren't?"

"You didn't have to do it in front of me. And it was not that original. I can't believe you made a heart just like the one I did for you."

Luhan wanted to cry. So this is what it felt to be rejected. "I thought you'd appreciate it...”

"Tell me how I could? It was painful enough that you'd confess to Minseok infront of me... but you used my Heart. It was like, I gave it to you and you gave it to someone else.”Sehun said dejectedly.

"I was actually giving it back... wait... what did you say? I confessed to Minseok?" Luhan asked in disbelief.

"Yes. And best friend or no, you broke my heart twice."

Luhan laughed in relief. Here he was so afraid of his love being rejected when it hasn't even been delivered. "Sehunnie..."

"What?" Sehun said with a pout. Clearly offended by Luhan's laugh.

"The heart? The I Love You... That wasn't for Minseok. That was for you."

Sehun looked shocked. "But the other day, I saw the two of you. You told him you loved him."

"What? When was this?"

"Thursday afternoon. I saw you and him alone in your practice room. You asked him if you have to say I Love You out loud and he said, of course." Sehun said.

"Sehun, we were actually practicing for tonight. I was depressed when we weren't speaking with each other. Minseok became a good friend. He helped me figure out how to tell you how much I love you. So we thought of a way for me to say it so it would wipe all the bad memories I've given you. I wanted to say it in a way that will let everybody know." Luhan explained.

"But you told me I was young and immature. You told me I didn't know anything about love."

"I still think you're young and maybe a little bit immature. And I'm still not sure if you know anything about love."

Sehun crossed his arms across his chest, offended. "Then what changed?"

"I did. I changed because I found out how hard it is to be without you. And I won't be so afraid anymore. I'll take this chance, this moment I have with you and try my best to make you love me so much that even when you grow older and become mature the person that you'll want someday will still be me."

Still holding Sehun's gaze, Luhan moved closer to reach for Sehun's hand.

But the moment was broken as Jongdae came upon them. "Luhan-ssi! The director's looking for you. They're about to end the recital, we have to go."

Luhan reluctantly stepped back. He didn't want to go with so many things still left unsaid.

"Luhan-ssi. Follow me back quickly, okay?" Jongdae ran back inside the university gates.

"I have to go. I need to tell you alot of things but..." Luhan walked away faster. But then he stopped for a second and looked back. "I love you."

CHAPTER 9 - In which we learn that there are things such as.. thinking caps?!

"I love you...”Sehun kept on repeating what Luhan said to him last night. He couldn't believe it. After thinking that Luhan was in love with someone else, he finds out that Luhan is actually in love with him!

His face is already hurting from smiling too much but he couldn't help it. He was actually waiting for Luhan to call him last night but he probably went home late because of the recital. Sehun can't wait to see him so he showered quickly and went to school in record time.

He burst into the practice room to spread the good news to his friends. He skipped towards Jongin, who was alone doing stretches, and pulled him to his feet.

"What are...?" But Sehun didn't give him the chance to finish as he twirled and spinned Jongin around the room. All the while humming a happy a tune and shaking his poor friend.

"Ssttop sh-shaking... mmee!" Jongin said. But Sehun didn't. "Th-that ccap you're we-wearing, I know th-that cap!"

Sehun took it off and placed it on Jongin's head and continued to twirled and spin Jongin around. Jongin, finally getting his bearings, stomped his feet firmly on the floor and was able to hold Sehun in place."Stop dancing like a sissy! This is major trouble you're bringing here... that cap, where did you get it?"

"It's..." Sehun started but was interrupted by a loud screech.

"SEHUN-AH!!! YOU!!!" Kyungsoo shouted from the doorway. "No one ever touches my cap! YOU SPAWN OF THE DEVIL! You..."

"You're in for it now." Jongin warned Sehun with a laugh.

"My cap was resting quietly on top of my head, minding it's own business. Then you run from nowhere snatch it from me and run off! ARE YOU CRAZY?!" Kyungsoo was livid.

"Come on, I was just happy." Sehun sobered a bit.

"Just happy?! I was writing a song! Now I would never finish it." Kyungsoo glared.

Finally, Jongin intervened. "I told you Sehun-ah. Never mess with Kyungsoo's thinking cap."

"Sorry." Sehun told Kyungsoo. Jongin went to the shorter guy's side and gently put the cap on his head.

"There, all better." Jongin smiled at Kyungsoo. He was relieved to see him calm down a bit.

"It's not all better..." Kyungsoo mumbled but didn't pursue his anger.

"That was entertaining." Chanyeol said. He was able to enter the room without anyone noticing. "What was all the commotion about?"

"Ask him." Jongin pointed at Sehun.

"From his grin, I think I already know." Chanyeol laughed.

"Luhan said he loved me!" Sehun said giddily.

"We know. We were all there." Jongin said.

"Yeah, but what he said in the park..." Sehun just finished the sentence with a wide smile.

"Sehun-ah, you shouldn't be so easy." Kyungsoo admonished.

"What do you mean?"

"I mean, you shouldn't make this so easy for Luhan." Kyungsoo said. "Remember how hurt you were when he rejected you? It was hard for us as your friends to see you so depressed. Luhan's our friend too but I didn't like how selfish he was when he trampled on your feelings."

"But he already told me he loved me, isn't that enough?"

"I think you should let him work a bit. You were always the one running around after him, maybe it's time he ran after you." Kyungsoo said with a shrug.

"I don't know why, but I kinda like it." Jongin looked at Kyungsoo.

"Well, in any case this should be fun!" Chanyeol added.

"What do I do?" Sehun asked reluctantly. Was it really right to let Luhan wait?

Kyungsoo saw the troubled look in Sehun's eyes. "If you don't want to do it, it's okay. It's just I saw how you became insecure of yourself when Luhan rejected you. I just want to give him the chance to show you that you're worth it."

"Thank you, mom." Sehun joked and smiled at Kyungsoo.

"Just call me okay?" Kyungsoo moved to pat Sehun's back before walking to the door. Jongin had his mouth open as he watched Kyungsoo leave the room. He shook his head and smiled. "I knew there was a reason..."

"A reason...?" Chanyeol asked.

"A reason why I’m doing this." Jongin followed Kyungsoo out the door.

"What's with them?" Sehun asked Chanyeol.

"Don't worry, we'll know their story soon. But for now, let's finish yours."

CHAPTER 10 - In which we learn chocolate can taste different

Luhan was getting anxious as he was waiting for Sehun to get out of class. Aside from the curious looks he was getting, he was worried that Sehun would refuse his invitation. Luhan has been on tenterhooks since he confessed to Sehun last week. For the first time he didn't know what's going on inside Sehun's mind. Because look what happened when he approached his bestfriend the day after his recital.

Sehun was in the park swings taking a selca of himself. Luhan felt a pang in his heart when he saw him. He misses how Sehun would take their picture together every day. Luckily, if this goes well, they'll have more pictures to share.

He approached Sehun from behind and just before he reaches him Luhan called his name. "Sehunnie."

Sehun turned his head a little. "Hey." He said and went back to taking a selca.

"About last night, before we were interrupted, I just want to say that everything I told you was... is true." Luhan looked at the back of Sehun's head, the younger guy still taking a picture of himself.

"Uh, huh." Sehun murmured.

Luhan was a little surprised about his friend's non-reaction. So he tried again. "Minseok is in love with Jongdae. He and I will never be." Luhan closed his eyes tightly before saying, "Because I, I'm in love with you."

Again, no reaction. Luhan opened his eyes and saw Sehun was still busy taking a shot of himself. Luhan was getting a little flustered. Sehun seems so uninterested. "I guess, I deserve this." Luhan told himself. But he won't give up that easily.

"Sehunnie, about what I said... what do you think?"

Finally, Sehun spoke. "Wait. Uh, can you move a little to the left? You're kind of blocking the light."

Luhan felt pretty sure that his mouth was hanging open but he moved nonetheless. "There." Sehun said and proceeded to get a a picture. He must have been satisfied because he stood up and faced Luhan. "Luhan, I'll think about it."

"O-okay." Luhan watched as Sehun put his cellphone in his ear and Luhan heard him say, "Can I see you now?" as he was walking away.

Luhan felt the worst sort of jealousy twisting in his gut. There he was baring his heart and Sehun couldn't wait to see somebody else? This is what he was afraid of before. Sehun's already changed his mind, he already moved on and... it really doesn't matter, does it? Because Luhan promised his friend and himself that he would make Sehun love him so much that he won't think of finding anyone else. Luhan felt more determined.

He came up with a series of tactics designed to make Sehun fall so much for Luhan that he'll never want to let go. Well, atleast that was Luhan's plan. Never did he thought that wooing Sehun could be so difficult.

And now here he was waiting by the door so he could start on winning Sehun back. The clock struck 4:30 and the students spilled into the corridors. Luhan spotted Sehun with Jongin and Kyungsoo, walking towards his direction.

He waited until some of the students left the lobby before stepping forward to get Sehun's attention. He started to call out Sehun's name but he noticed that they already saw him. Sehun slowed in his steps and shot a questioning look at kyungsoo. The smaller guy just shrugged and continued walking towards Luhan and the entrance.

But just before the three reached him, Jongin, who was walking beside Kyungsoo, winked at Luhan and promptly held on to Kyungsoo's shoulder which stopped him from moving forward.

"Wha-t?" Kyungsoo asked Jongin.

Jongin leaned down to whisper into Kyungsoo's ear. "I think we should be somewhere else."

Kyungsoo raised an eyebrow at Jongin but didn't argue. Sehun, noticing that his companions stopped walking, turned back to look at Jongin and Kyungsoo.

"Go on without us," Jongin said. "We need to do something." Then he pulled Kyungsoo away, leaving Sehun alone to talk to Luhan.

"Hey." Luhan greeted his bestfriend.

"Hey." Sehun said a little hesitantly.

Luhan was disheartened a little by Sehun's expression but he pushed on.

"You're free. right? Let's go to the bubble tea place. It's been ages since we went there and... and I heard they're adding a special mix to the old flavors... let's try it together, okay?"

Sehun looked longingly at the direction Jongin and Kyungsoo disappeared to before looking at Luhan. "Alright."

Luhan felt relieved when Sehun agreed, even reluctantly. Atleast they'll get to spend this afternoon together. And maybe this time, he'll get Sehun back.

They walked together towards the bubble tea place. Luhan tried to engage Sehunnie in conversation and sometimes he was able to coax a smile from him but it was still not the same as before. When they reached their usual table, Luhan surprised Sehun by offering to order the bubble teas himself.

"Just sit here. I'll get it."

"Okay. Mine's choco-"

"Chocolate. I know." Luhan smiled at Sehun and left to buy their drinks. After a few moments, Luhan returned with their teas. He placed one infront of Sehun and sat down to sip his. Sehun sipped from his drink and frowned a little.

"What is it?" Luhan asked.

"Uh, you said they've got a new special mix..."

"It tastes special to me."

Sehun sipped fron the straw again. "Nope, tastes pretty much the same to me."

"I don't know. Mine tastes... better?" Luhan looked at his drink. "But I got the same flavor."

He was surprised when Sehun grabbed Luhan's drink and sipped from it. Luhan flushed red. Isn't that like an indirect kiss? Luhan blushed some more. Sure they drank from each other's drinks before. But somehow this time was different for Luhan.

"Nothing special here, as well." Sehun saw Luhan's face and probably realized what he did because he turned a pretty shade of red, too. "Uh...”

He returned Luhan's drink and proceeded to drink his own, looking everywhere but Luhan.

"Maybe the drink's the same, but it's still special to me." Luhan said. "It's special because I'm sharing it with you. I missed this."

Sehun's mouth was hanging open and Luhan would've laughed at his expression if he wasn't as caught up with his emotion as he was right then. He really wanted to tell Sehun a lot of things. Starting with Luhan will gladly drink all the bubble teas in the world as long as Sehun will be there to drink them with him. And Luhan will swear to stop flicking Sehun's nose and place kisses on it instead.

Sehun shook his head, quickly closed his lips over the straw on his tea and sipped it all in one go that Luhan was worried he'll choke on it. The he abruptly stood up. "I forgot, I have to meet with... thssom... somebody. Thanks for this. Uh, see you around."

It was Luhan's turn to have his mouth hang open. How could Sehun just leave him? He thought things were going well. His eyes followed as Sehun left their table and took out his cellphone. He heard him say, "Can we talk now?" And Luhan felt jealousy twist his gut again. Was Sehun really seeing someone else? Was it really time for him to give up?

"But I love you too much." Luhan said to Sehun's retreating figure. He sighed. "No matter, there'a still tomorrow, right?"

But his confidence was a little weaker this time.

FINAL CHAPTER - In which we learn that there are worse poems than Milk

"But it's really getting harder and harder each time." Sehun complained to his friends. He was slumped on the sofa in Jongin and Kyungsoo's dorm room.

"What is?" Chanyeol asked. He just arrived from training. "I don't know what's going anymore."

Jongin answered his friend. "Kyungsoo and Sehun have this half baked plan of making Luhan work for Sehun's heart, right? Excuse me awhile while I gag." And Jongin proceeded to gag exaggeratedly which earned him a throw pillow in the head from Kyungsoo. He just laughed and continued. "But as we all know, Sehun is such a sissy he can't take it anymore."

Then Jongin directed his gaze at Sehun. "You know you can't resist Luhan for long. So stop it already."

Kyungsoo went into Sehun's defense. "It's just been three days, Jongin. Don't you think Sehun should hold out for a week atleast?"

"But can't you see the poor boy?" Jongin said while pointing at Sehun. "He's dying!"

"Stop exaggerating!" Kyungsoo looked at Sehun. "Although, you're right. He looks like a whipped puppy."

"I feel like a whipped puppy." Sehun said. "Can you imagine yourself being wooed by Luhan? Those eyes... Tell me, can you honestly resist them?"

"Yeah, Luhan's eyes are pretty." Chanyeol nodded.

"But it's not about the eyes, is it? It's about Sehunnie being sure of Luhan's feelings for him. I just don't want him to get hurt again." Kyungsoo reasoned.

"Are you in love with Sehun?" Jongin asked Kyungsoo, looking serious all of a sudden.

"Are you crazy? Do you think I'm crazy?"

"Well..." Jongin shrugged. "You always drop everything else when Sehun calls."

"I do not." Kyungsoo said.

"So what do you plan to do now?" Chanyeol asked Sehun.

"I don't know." Sehun sighed.

"In any case, you don't have to call me everytime Luhan makes your knees weak. I have a life too, you know." Kyungsoo told Sehun.

"But its the only way I can fight it." Sehun explained.

"Kyungsoo's nagging turns me off, too." Jongin laughed.

"Yeah, well, no dinner for you. Again." Kyungsoo threatened.

"You already cooked dinner." Jongin said confidently.

"Chanyeol, you're hungry right?" Kyungsoo asked his friend. "I have pasta in the kitchen."

"You said it!" Chanyeol stood up from the sofa to eat.

"Don't you dare!" Jongin stood up quickly and raced with Chanyeol to the kitchen.

Sehun can hear the two men squabbling. He turned his attention to Kyungsoo. "I really am in trouble. Like what I tell you everytime I call you, I can't resist him for longer."

"It's still your decision." Kyungsoo answered. "Do you feel that Luhan really loves you? Do you feel he's sincere?"

"What I'm afraid of is it doesn't really matter to me. Even if it's just temporary, even if Luhan isn't true, I still love him."

"Well, just to be sure, let's give him one more chance to show his love for you. Then after that, it's your call." Kyungsoo smiled at him.

"Okay. I know I've been bothering you alot lately, thanks for helping me out." Sehun held onto Kyungsoo's hand. "Don't mind Jongin too much. After everything else, you're still his..."

"Housekeeper. I know." Kyungsoo said but Sehun can see him blush.

Sehun felt his cellphone vibrate. He got a message from Luhan:

Can I talk to you? will you come by the swings?

Sehun answered:

i'll be there in 10 minutes.

"It's Luhan. I have to go." Sehun got up to leave.

"Hurry up then." Kyungsoo encouraged. "Goodluck."

Sehun reached the park. He slowed his steps as he saw Luhan pace back and forth infront of the swings. He felt overwhelmed enough with the sight of Luhan waiting for him and that was before he saw Luhan look in his direction, spot him and smile in greeting.

"That was fast."

"I just came from Jongin's dorm." Sehun said.

"Oh." Luhan answered. Sehun's not too sure but he can feel that Luhan was nervous. "Thanks for coming."

"Uh, no problem." Sehun noticed Luhan fidget with a piece of paper.

"Can you sit here?" Luhan pointed at a swing. "I just need to tell you something..."

Sehun sat down and waited expectantly for Luhan to begin. His friend stood in front of him fidgeting some more. Sehun became a little nervous himself.

"Three weeks ago," Luhan began. "everything was perfect. I was casted as the main performer in the recital, the dean told me I'll be graduating with honors, and my bestfriend was always with me. But then, you told the whole world that you loved me and everything changed."

Sehun's heart beat painfully in his chest. Did Luhan change his mind?

"What you did was so outrageous." Luhan continued. "I couldn't believe you'd do that. I was shocked and I was confused. So I panicked and ran. I ran away from the best thing that happened to me."

"Not being with you made me realize how stupid my fears were. And I can never tell you how sorry I am. So I don't really expect you to forgive me so soon after what I did. I hope you'll try... But just in case... I made something for you. Remember in middle school when I told you to write a poem about something interesting or something you love?"

Sehun nodded.

"Well, it's your turn to laugh. Cause I wrote about something interesting and it's also something I love." Luhan unfolded the paper he's holding and started to read:

MY SEHUN

Sehun of my heart

Top grade Sehun

When you are with him

Everything is great

In the winter

He will keep you warm

Sehunnie’s smile

A thousand times better

Than any smile that exists

My Sehun with his 8g Fat

Luhan looked expectantly at Sehun who sat there transfixed. He already laid all his feelings for his bestfriend to see. He was rather disappointed when Sehun took out his cellphone and called someone again. Really? Who was so important that Sehun has to call him at this moment?

Still holding Luhan's gaze, Sehun spoke into his cellphone. "Kyungsoo? Jongin, please give the phone to Kyungsoo. Yes! It's important. Well, fine. Just tell him... Tell him I give up."

Luhan didn't have the time to further think about the conversation because Sehun stood up, pulled him into his arms and repeated, "I give up."

"What do you mean?" Luhan asked against Sehun's shoulder.

"It means I'm yours."

Luhan felt a a sudden prick of tears. "Really?"

"It also means you're mine, too." Sehun said. He pulled Luhan tighter against him. "I'm still young but you're wrong, you know. Because I grow more in love with you everyday. Every single day.  Now I'm not great in math but I know that today times tomorrow times forever is a whole lot of love right?"

"Yeah, alot." Luhan said with a small sob and he hugged Sehun tighter, too.

"Just imagine how much I'll love you fifty years from now!"

"Yes, but I'm three years older so I'll always love you more than you love me." Luhan joked, feeling a lot lighter and happier.

"Oh, yeah? Well, I'm taller than you!"

Luhan straightened up a bit from Sehun's embrace. "What does it have to do with anything?"

Sehun just shrugged. "I am taller."

Luhan laughed and did what he had been longing to do everyday that they were apart. He raised his right hand and flicked Sehun squarely on the nose. Sehun yelped but quieted soon as Luhan touched his cheek. "I love you."

Sehun leaned closer. "I love you, too."

Luhan stood on his tiptoes and put his arms around Sehun's neck. But just before their lips met, Sehun stopped. "I'm sorry, I just have to do this."

He took out his cellphone as Luhan stared in disbelief. "You're doing this now?"

Sehun was busy focusing his phone's camera for a good shot. "I'll do this quick, I promise."

Luhan let out a short, exasperated laugh. "Forget it." And he let go of Sehun and started walking away.

"Hey, wait!" Sehun ran after him, slid his arm against Luhan's so they can walk holding hands. Sehun started to speak but Luhan beat him to it.

"The answer is no. The moment passed." Luhan said trying to look aloof but not quite managing it.

"Then let's make another moment." Sehun insisted.

"Sehunnie, you just can't make a moment... It should be spontaneous, something unplanned. Moments just happen when..." But he was silenced when Sehun leaned down and placed his lips on Luhan's. Luhan felt weak kneed so he hang on to Sehun for dear life.

"Was that spontaneous enough?" Sehun said with a smile as he broke the kiss.

"Uh. yes." Luhan was speechless.

"How about this?" Sehun leaned down for another kiss.

"Uh, huh." Luhan found it hard to think.

"I think we should be spontaneous more often." Sehun said with a tender smile.

Finally he let go of Luhan and they continued on their way.

"I think you're growing old too fast." Luhan said with a resigned sigh and held on tighter to Sehun's hand as they walked home.