A Moment before Midnight (Super Junior fic)
Title: A Moment Before Midnight
Pairings: SUPER JUNIOR
Genre: Drama, Friendship
Rating: G
Summary: Super Junior reunites for a short moment before midnight....
Disclaimer: I own nothing. Except the plot and the story ><.
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In the dark room, only candle lights could be seen. It was dark in the evening, and the clock showed that it was 10:30 in the evening.
The dorm of Super Junior seems to be a ghost town as an eerie silence filled the once chaotic and nuisance of a room room.
Everyone in the room, Leeteuk, Yesung, Shindong, Sungmin, Eunhyuk, Donghae, Ryeowook, and Kyuhyun,were each holding their own candle. And everyone was in utter silence.
No one dared to break the peaceful silence occuring at the moment. It wasn't an awkward silence, no.... It was a comforting one. Something everyone wanted, something everyone longed for. At which, Only the sound of their breathing can be heard.
Of course, their lives for the past years were nothing but schedules, noise, loud sounds and everything in speed. Flashes, cameras, mics, blinding lights, balloons, lightsticks. Only these were found in their lives for the past years.
But, they never complained.. No... NEVER. This is what they wanted. What they dreamed of. What they worked hard for... What they loved. They will do anything for this.. They did train half of their lives for this.
But of course, a little break from the lime light wouldn't hurt. They were humans too. They also needed a break. And nothing but a comforting silence, with the people you love and cherish, can compare to a good break.
Everyone in the room had their eyes on their own candle, except for one. Their leader instead, Leeteuk, looked at the faces of each of his members. Stopping for a second or more on one member before turning to the next. When he was done looking at each of them, a single tear was shed from his eyes. Followed by another, then another. But he managed to wipe it away without being noticed.
Yes he cried but it was not out of sadness. Well, not only sadness. He heaved a sigh and was about to talk, when their doorbell chimed signaling someone has arrived, breaking the silence in the room.
Once they heard the bell, everyone looked up from their candles and looked at the direction of their front door. Everyone waited for another ring, if in case the person was still there.
Ding! Came the second bell. And the person nearest the door, Shindong got up, left his candle and went to the front door, with everyone's gazes following his retreating back, to see who has arrived at their door.
And once Shindong opened the door, everyone's worried faces turned into bright and smiling ones. As familiar faces greeted them.
"Glad you guys came." Leeteuk said, while still in his previous position in the living room.
"Glad to be here hyung.... I missed you" said the person who was infront of everyone else who just arrived.
"We missed you too Kibum" Leeteuk said with a welcoming smile.
And that was when Kibum fully entered the dorm and directly went to his favorite hyung, and only leader. He hugged Leeteuk tight and Leeteuk responded to the hug with a contented smile on his lips. As soon as they let go of the tight hug, Leeteuk welcomed the other guests who came.
"Siwon, Heechul, Henry, Zhoumi, come inside. Shindong please close the door." Lreteuk said with a calm voice.
And everyone mentioned did as what they were told. Everyone had a smile on their faces that can only be found or can only be seen in events like this. Only in times if they're together.
Once everyone had their welcome --or most longed for-- hug, everyone sat at their places. Forming a circle, from Leeteuk to Henry, everyone with their candles.
Everyone dove into a comforting silence once again, but this time, Leader Leeteuk will have none of that for now. He looked at the clock and saw it was already 10:56. '4 minutes before 11' he thinks. He sighs and decides to break the silence but was unable to do so as he heard a chuckle, and that chuckle could only belong to..
"This is the longest time I've stayed silent with you guys" Heechul says and then starts to laugh heartily, causing everyone to laugh with him. If people happen to come across them they might have thought they were crazy cause one moment they were silent, and the next they were lauging like the idiots they are.
As soon as everyone returned to their senses, Leeteuk decides to start this for real.
"Alright, now everyone..*sigh* I don't even know where to start," Leeteuk says while eyeing his members carefully while wearing a goofy grin.
Everyone sported the same look, agreeing to what their leader said. And silence again.
"I missed this." spoke Ryeowook, and everyone nodded in agreement.
"We used to do this very often when one had a problem, and everyone would just have eye bags in the morning." Donghae said, reminiscing the memories.
"The make-up noona would always scold us for the heavy eye bags the concealer can't hide" Siwon added and everyone just chuckled at the memory of their scary noona who cried in the end.
"Yup, and she was devastated knowing that she had to do all 13 of us." Sungmin said, and the goofy smile turned into a sad one as he said the last part.
"Yes, when we were 13." Ryeowook said, and sadness hinted his voice.
"Hey, remember we are still here you know?" Henry joked trying to light up the atmosphere for everyone, even if he was hurting too.
"Yea... We would never forget you, even if everyone said we should. Your Super Junior and you know that." Their Leader said looking right into the eyes of Henry and Zhoumi.
"Thanks Gege. I'm happy you guys were there for us." Zhoumi said with shining eyes to everyone.
"Yea. Thanks Hyungs," Henry said while looking at all of his hyungs.
"It wasn't only us right? ELFs were there too.. maybe some but majority now are on our side. They're here for you too. Don't forget" Eunhyuk says with a smile saying to never forget.
"Of course, what would we be without them? ELFs who were there even before the start," Yesung said while amusing himself with the candle in his hand.
"ELFs who never left our sides" Henry said.
"ELFs who assured us that we were the best" Heechul continued.
"ELFs who sacrificed instead of us" Donghae said.
"ELFs who cared for us more than ourselves" Kyuhyun said.
"ELFs who continued to believe in us" Leeteuk finished.
And everyone had a knowing smile on their faces.
Everyone sighed and Heechul continued to talk, "ELFs even believed in us more than ourselves. Remember the time we doubted one another?" Heechul asked while looking at each of his members.
"Yes.. The time when Donghae hyung called me to ask whether I'm coming back or not. And I knew then that he doubted If I would still continue as a member or not, But ELFs reassured all of us that I will surely do. Which In time I will... I just need a little more time I guess." Kibum said with a sad smile, It hurts knowing one of your favorite hyungs doubted you for your faithfulness. And it hurts that you yourself once doubted yourself, and still needed the reassurance of people who are far away from you to know the real answer you're looking for.
Donghae looked apologetic to Kibum before saying, "I'm a bad liar and all of you know that... So I admit, I did one day question Kibum.... I regretted doing so afterwards... But I guess we are still humans. We need the assurance in things we doubt. But, ever since that phone call, I made sure to never ask again. You said yes and that was all i needed. I had questioned but I immediately removed that thought, because all I need was your answer and it didn't fail my expectations." Donghae said while smiling a toothless smile to everyone, particularly at Kibum.
"Has anyone questioned Kangin?" Yesung asked to everyone.
"Actually, I never questioned hyung even once. He made the decision of the military to make up for his mistakes. And we all know that was something all of us will do in the future too. He comes back sometimes too, so there was never really any doubt. Maybe impatience I guess.... Yes there is a fixed time, but having a strong 'appa' gone for a long time is kinda making me impatient. I still need guidance you know," Siwon said with a small smile after ending what he said.
"Military is coming up. Heechul hyung already started though he is just a personnel who can still stay with us. But being on one stage is different. Leeteuk hyung will soon be following. Kangin hyung will come back on April, and some of us will go soon too. Its like a movie in fast forward. I feel its too fast." Sungmin said while a sad expression took over his aegyo face.
"Well, I will be last" Kyuhyun said, and this earned smacks from Ryeowook and Kibum, and a small laugh from everyone.
"Well, Me and Zhoumi hyung will not enter, cause we're Chinese" Henry said to Kyuhyun while sticking his tongue out. Causing everyone to chuckle at their mochi maknae's childishness.
"And Hangeng hyung was Chinese too." And with those words of Eunhyuk, everyone became silent as sadness once again was seen on each of the members faces.
"He was a strong man. He faced through so much, and yet I didn't get how he could not stand to fight for more. He knows we'll be here for him right? I'm his bestfriend. He should have at least told me. I couldn't get his feelings why he thought leaving us would be better than having all of us fight for him," Heechul said with a tinge of anger in his voice.
"We should just understand him. We all feel empty without him. Me and Henry even felt scared because our guardian left us alone, though we still had all of you. He had our backs in China. He understood us more than anyone because he was treated the same in the past. Its different having to talk about it with someone who had the same experience. So his departure was really heartbreaking" Zhoumi said, saying all that he was feeling for his Hangeng gege.
"I feel guilty. He was my chingu, yet I didn't know what he was feeling. I haven't noticed his change. I guess the saying will always be right. You will never know the worth of a person, if only that person is already gone from you. Only we thought about that before." Yesung said, he was a quiet boy yet when it comes to things like this he opens up to all.
"Because we never thought things like this will ever happen. We never thought of Hae's appa's death, we never thought of the accidents, we never thought of Kibum and Hangeng's departure. We could have never guessed back then what was in store for us. Like what will be in store for us now" Eunhyuk said.
It was true.. no one could predict the future. No one at that time, would have figured that things would end up like this.
"Things never end up the way we thought it would be. God has many things in store for us, and what happened may be in his own will. But, God is good. I know all this was just His test for us to be stronger. Everything will be good in the end. We will unite together." Siwon said optimistic, with shining eyes.
"Though I don't believe in Siwon's God, or your God, I know what he's saying is right. Obstacles will always come our way, so we should just prepare for it. We can stand until here, is it impossible for more? All things good happen in the end right?" Heechul says with a smile.
"Justice will always prevail. We will get paid for all our hard work. It always goes that way. I know all that we worked hard for will pay-off. Just like trainee days. We trained to be the people who we are now, and this time, We train to be better for the people who love us and look up to us. This should be our thought," Shindong says joining the conversation again.
Everyone nodded to Shindong's words. He was right, they should be the idols of their ELFs. They should be the humblest of idols for all that is happening to them is through hard work which other people helped in. Their passion should never waver, it should stay the same. they all have one dream and they will fight for it altogether.
"Its funny as to how much we've changed since we debuted," Sungmin said.
"Yup, from that blonde long-haired small boy, comes a man with six-pack abs" Donghae joked and everyone seemed to laugh at both Donghae's arrogance and his words. It was true, he did have abs now, who would've thought about it back then? A crybaby of their training days would come to have abs in the future?
"Arrogant now are we?" Zhoumi joked. And everyone laughed at this, but earning a mehrong from Donghae.
"Well sorry Donghae, but you're still childish and a crybaby. So you haven't changed," Heechul said and everyone just had to agree with their hyung.
"But really, Sungmin's right. We HAVE changed. All of us. Each of us has something we changed in. In looks, personality, way of thinking. Something must have changed. " Kibum said, being the serious one he is.
"Yup you also changed Kibum, from that one boy who always stayed at a corner from America, you became the Killer smile of Super Junior. You are now loved and known by many. And that's a change." Sungmin said, with a smile saying that nothing in his words are wrong so you better believe it. And the others just nodded in agreement, earning another killer smile from the killer smile himself.
"Yeah, back then Kyuhyun was still an innocent boy asking for our approval of his membership as a Super Junior member. And now, he bullies his hyungs like we're the slaves." Eunhyuk said, and everyone laughed, even Kyuhyun. No one can deny what Eunhyuk said anyway. It was true. But deep down everyone knew what their maknae had to face just to be accepted. And everyone regretted not accepting him earlier. So everyone just let him bully the hyungs for the hyungs deserve it. Except probably for Heechul for he's still the master in the house, and Donghae, who accepted him right away unlike the others.
"And Eunhyuk changed from a countrified-anchovy to the dancing machine of our company," Siwon said, and everyone reminisced the time when Shindong broadcasted Eunhyuk's nickname of being old-fashioned
"Though I'm still handsomer and he still stinks," Ryeowook piped and everyone just had to laugh for the topic of Eunhyuk's smelly feet was brought up again.
"And Ryeowook has gotten his head bigger. And he still doesn't have abs," Kyuhyun joked, and Ryeowook just had to punck Kyuhyun's arm.
"See the infromalities?" Ryeowook said. And everyone just had to agree but laugh at the same time.
"Ryeowook has gotten better with his cooking I must say!" Shindong said to save Ryeowook from Kyuhyun's words.
"Of course you know, YOU EAT IT ALL! Though I must say you did well in dieting. You've changed in weight dude. You're still fat but not the ever so chubby Shindong. Your face became more refined! So different from when we first debuted," Heechul complimented Shindong for his ability to trim down alot of weight. He himself tried, but gave up immediately as he was not the type to sweat.
"Yea, Shindong hyung changed alot. I compared pictures but it was so amazing to see your transformation. Heechul hyung also changed. Before you only stick with the people you liked. Not even bothering about the other trainees. Just you and your friends. But now, just like Teukie hyung, you care about the members and seem like a true sub-leader and a true hyung to all. You became open to many more people, even to the world," Donghae said amazed by his hyung's transformation. Ofcourse he was one of those 'friends' of Heechul whom he was always with. Being the friendly nature Hae has, he goes out with other friends, and sometimes seeing his other favorite hyung(other than Leeteuk), Heechul, with no companion. thus resulting in him hanging around Heechul more in the trainee days.
Everyone nodded in agreement for everyone saw that transformation of their hyung, from the cold diva in the trainee days, deep inside lives a kind heart caring for all.
"Sungmin hyung changed a lot too. From the boy who was always known for his aegyo, though you are still now, you became manlier and showed to everyone that you're not just cute. You proved alot to all of us. Your determination in learning new things. It was always a fascinating aspect of yours hyung, how you always manage to try and learn a new thing despite your busy schedule," Siwon said as he looked admiringly at his Sungmin hyung. Someone who has tried more than anything among all of them. Yes Siwon tried and mastered alot of stuff, but nothing compared to what Sungmin knows.
Sungmin smiled at the compliments, but then caught the sight of his Yesung hyung who was beautifully lighted by his candle light.
"Yesung hyung changed alot too. He was never caught by the camera even once before in our first 3 weeks of debut. Even if he was the main vocal of our group. His voice was there but he wasn't. Even then he had the most angelic voice, he still had minimal parts. But look at him now, he's one of those who are loved by many. He gets much screen time, and almost in every song we have, you will be able to hear his voice. Hyung changed alot from the past years," Sungmin said as he remembered the time when Yesung would always complain about that on variety shows wherein he had the opportunity to say it.
"Sungmin Hyung is right! But Siwon hyung changed too! When you guys first debuted he didn't have abs right? But now he is the main look of Super Junior! Even in Super Junior M! Before he was never much of an actor, just up to CFs and stuff. But now he has his own drama! Even going far away of Korea to do it! Plus the Extravagant Challenge with Donghae hyung. Hyung really changed alot," Henry said with pure amazement at his hyung who always had God first in his life, family next and super junior included.
"Zhoumi and Henry changed a lot too... From being too reserved in SJM, they finally open up to the whole SJ. Thus having a real family of 15. Henry back then was just a guest violinist in Don't Don, and suddenly a mochi favorite by all in SJM. Zhoumi then was still unable to open up to us for the language, but everyone helped and he became closer to all of us," Yesung said while darting his eyes to the two SJM members.
Everyone had their eyes on their two foreign members and remembered the time when everything was different from everything right now... Everyone pointed out the changes in each but still it didn't justify the WHOLE change that has happened between all of them.
"But I'm glad we still haven't changed some points about us. As an individual and as Super Junior," Leeteuk finally said. After being quiet just observing his members, he felt like talking now. He was happiest seeing his members being together and talking open-heatedly to each other. It was like a beautiful scenery to the Leader's eyes. If only they were really 15 that time.
"Yea..." everyone chorused, eyes all glued to their leader. All of them knowing that the next words of their leader will be pure wisdom... or just really heartwarming to their ears.
"We all still have the same dream. And I'm proud that we haven't changed on that aspect. We're all still hardworking, still striving, still doing the best we can. I'm proud that our love for each other never changed.
Even if Kibum left momentarily, he always reassured us of his love for us. Even if Siwon had to stop 5jib promotions, to continue Poseidon, he constantly called or even tweeted us saying he misses us and he wishes to be with us. But we can't stop both of them from their dream to be actors right?
We should be happy that the love is still there with each other. No matter how far we go, we still have in our hearts Super Junior. And we also mustn't forget the people responsible for our success right? ELFs. Even if we reach the highest award in the world, we mustn't forget the people who made all that happen. ELFs. We must stay humble and thank them with all our heart. ELFs were there from the start, and I know they will be there until the end. Even if they aren't we mustn't change. We must stay the same. Our mistakes we will correct, our lacking? We will fill it for each other. Whatever happens, we must remember where we started. No matter where destiny takes us, remember where we started. Remember ELFs. Remember one another. Remember Super Junior. Remember November 6, 2005," And Leeteuk looked at each of his member's eyes. Showing all the sincerity and love in his words.
And after Leeteuk said his most inspiring speech, both the doorbell and their clock chimed. No one looked at the clock yet, for the door was more intriguing. Who could have been here to disturb their most heartwarming moment in the middle of the night? Now, the closest to the door was Leeteuk. So when the doorbell chimed again he wasted no time in checking who was at their door.
And to all their surprise, though it was a beautiful one, the people they least expected arrived. The faces of the ones inside and the ones outside broke into one identical smile. As they were all feeling the same thing.
"Happy 6th Anniversary Everyone" Said the people outside, and that was when everyone inside, even Leeteuk at the door looked at their clock. And there it was, the clock struck exactly 12:00. Signaling their 6 years being together, 6 years being Super Junior.
"Happy Anniversary to you too, Hankyung, Kangin" Leeteuk said with the biggest smile he has ever had in years.
And once Hankyung and Kangin entered the dorm, and closed the door. No one outside could see anything behind that door. No one would ever know the feeling being shared inside. No one could know what was happening. For what's inside, stays inside.
No person besides them will ever know what will truly happen in the years to come.
But one thing is rest assured. The love inside is felt by anyone trying to come across their doorstep. Because their love is bigger then their number. Bigger than anyone could think.
Only one thing can be heard outside.
'Happy 6th Anniversary, Super Junior, Saranghae~'
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A/n: First fanfic that I ever finished. And this one actually contains my heart as an ELF. I started this fic Nov. 6, 1pm but ended Nov. 7, 2am... I guess I was too absorbed in my fic that I forgot the time...
Its really my first time finishing a story, i've made ones in the past but never really manage to finish them. This might be crappy because it was on pure instinct. I just wrote what I felt.
Hope someone reads and comments~^^ (hoping for too much? :P)
imperfectlyevil here is one one-shot.. read alright? I promise to post one, so here it is.. tell me what you think okay? :D saranghae aegi~
Pairings: SUPER JUNIOR
Genre: Drama, Friendship
Rating: G
Summary: Super Junior reunites for a short moment before midnight....
Disclaimer: I own nothing. Except the plot and the story ><.
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In the dark room, only candle lights could be seen. It was dark in the evening, and the clock showed that it was 10:30 in the evening.
The dorm of Super Junior seems to be a ghost town as an eerie silence filled the once chaotic and nuisance of a room room.
Everyone in the room, Leeteuk, Yesung, Shindong, Sungmin, Eunhyuk, Donghae, Ryeowook, and Kyuhyun,were each holding their own candle. And everyone was in utter silence.
No one dared to break the peaceful silence occuring at the moment. It wasn't an awkward silence, no.... It was a comforting one. Something everyone wanted, something everyone longed for. At which, Only the sound of their breathing can be heard.
Of course, their lives for the past years were nothing but schedules, noise, loud sounds and everything in speed. Flashes, cameras, mics, blinding lights, balloons, lightsticks. Only these were found in their lives for the past years.
But, they never complained.. No... NEVER. This is what they wanted. What they dreamed of. What they worked hard for... What they loved. They will do anything for this.. They did train half of their lives for this.
But of course, a little break from the lime light wouldn't hurt. They were humans too. They also needed a break. And nothing but a comforting silence, with the people you love and cherish, can compare to a good break.
Everyone in the room had their eyes on their own candle, except for one. Their leader instead, Leeteuk, looked at the faces of each of his members. Stopping for a second or more on one member before turning to the next. When he was done looking at each of them, a single tear was shed from his eyes. Followed by another, then another. But he managed to wipe it away without being noticed.
Yes he cried but it was not out of sadness. Well, not only sadness. He heaved a sigh and was about to talk, when their doorbell chimed signaling someone has arrived, breaking the silence in the room.
Once they heard the bell, everyone looked up from their candles and looked at the direction of their front door. Everyone waited for another ring, if in case the person was still there.
Ding! Came the second bell. And the person nearest the door, Shindong got up, left his candle and went to the front door, with everyone's gazes following his retreating back, to see who has arrived at their door.
And once Shindong opened the door, everyone's worried faces turned into bright and smiling ones. As familiar faces greeted them.
"Glad you guys came." Leeteuk said, while still in his previous position in the living room.
"Glad to be here hyung.... I missed you" said the person who was infront of everyone else who just arrived.
"We missed you too Kibum" Leeteuk said with a welcoming smile.
And that was when Kibum fully entered the dorm and directly went to his favorite hyung, and only leader. He hugged Leeteuk tight and Leeteuk responded to the hug with a contented smile on his lips. As soon as they let go of the tight hug, Leeteuk welcomed the other guests who came.
"Siwon, Heechul, Henry, Zhoumi, come inside. Shindong please close the door." Lreteuk said with a calm voice.
And everyone mentioned did as what they were told. Everyone had a smile on their faces that can only be found or can only be seen in events like this. Only in times if they're together.
Once everyone had their welcome --or most longed for-- hug, everyone sat at their places. Forming a circle, from Leeteuk to Henry, everyone with their candles.
Everyone dove into a comforting silence once again, but this time, Leader Leeteuk will have none of that for now. He looked at the clock and saw it was already 10:56. '4 minutes before 11' he thinks. He sighs and decides to break the silence but was unable to do so as he heard a chuckle, and that chuckle could only belong to..
"This is the longest time I've stayed silent with you guys" Heechul says and then starts to laugh heartily, causing everyone to laugh with him. If people happen to come across them they might have thought they were crazy cause one moment they were silent, and the next they were lauging like the idiots they are.
As soon as everyone returned to their senses, Leeteuk decides to start this for real.
"Alright, now everyone..*sigh* I don't even know where to start," Leeteuk says while eyeing his members carefully while wearing a goofy grin.
Everyone sported the same look, agreeing to what their leader said. And silence again.
"I missed this." spoke Ryeowook, and everyone nodded in agreement.
"We used to do this very often when one had a problem, and everyone would just have eye bags in the morning." Donghae said, reminiscing the memories.
"The make-up noona would always scold us for the heavy eye bags the concealer can't hide" Siwon added and everyone just chuckled at the memory of their scary noona who cried in the end.
"Yup, and she was devastated knowing that she had to do all 13 of us." Sungmin said, and the goofy smile turned into a sad one as he said the last part.
"Yes, when we were 13." Ryeowook said, and sadness hinted his voice.
"Hey, remember we are still here you know?" Henry joked trying to light up the atmosphere for everyone, even if he was hurting too.
"Yea... We would never forget you, even if everyone said we should. Your Super Junior and you know that." Their Leader said looking right into the eyes of Henry and Zhoumi.
"Thanks Gege. I'm happy you guys were there for us." Zhoumi said with shining eyes to everyone.
"Yea. Thanks Hyungs," Henry said while looking at all of his hyungs.
"It wasn't only us right? ELFs were there too.. maybe some but majority now are on our side. They're here for you too. Don't forget" Eunhyuk says with a smile saying to never forget.
"Of course, what would we be without them? ELFs who were there even before the start," Yesung said while amusing himself with the candle in his hand.
"ELFs who never left our sides" Henry said.
"ELFs who assured us that we were the best" Heechul continued.
"ELFs who sacrificed instead of us" Donghae said.
"ELFs who cared for us more than ourselves" Kyuhyun said.
"ELFs who continued to believe in us" Leeteuk finished.
And everyone had a knowing smile on their faces.
Everyone sighed and Heechul continued to talk, "ELFs even believed in us more than ourselves. Remember the time we doubted one another?" Heechul asked while looking at each of his members.
"Yes.. The time when Donghae hyung called me to ask whether I'm coming back or not. And I knew then that he doubted If I would still continue as a member or not, But ELFs reassured all of us that I will surely do. Which In time I will... I just need a little more time I guess." Kibum said with a sad smile, It hurts knowing one of your favorite hyungs doubted you for your faithfulness. And it hurts that you yourself once doubted yourself, and still needed the reassurance of people who are far away from you to know the real answer you're looking for.
Donghae looked apologetic to Kibum before saying, "I'm a bad liar and all of you know that... So I admit, I did one day question Kibum.... I regretted doing so afterwards... But I guess we are still humans. We need the assurance in things we doubt. But, ever since that phone call, I made sure to never ask again. You said yes and that was all i needed. I had questioned but I immediately removed that thought, because all I need was your answer and it didn't fail my expectations." Donghae said while smiling a toothless smile to everyone, particularly at Kibum.
"Has anyone questioned Kangin?" Yesung asked to everyone.
"Actually, I never questioned hyung even once. He made the decision of the military to make up for his mistakes. And we all know that was something all of us will do in the future too. He comes back sometimes too, so there was never really any doubt. Maybe impatience I guess.... Yes there is a fixed time, but having a strong 'appa' gone for a long time is kinda making me impatient. I still need guidance you know," Siwon said with a small smile after ending what he said.
"Military is coming up. Heechul hyung already started though he is just a personnel who can still stay with us. But being on one stage is different. Leeteuk hyung will soon be following. Kangin hyung will come back on April, and some of us will go soon too. Its like a movie in fast forward. I feel its too fast." Sungmin said while a sad expression took over his aegyo face.
"Well, I will be last" Kyuhyun said, and this earned smacks from Ryeowook and Kibum, and a small laugh from everyone.
"Well, Me and Zhoumi hyung will not enter, cause we're Chinese" Henry said to Kyuhyun while sticking his tongue out. Causing everyone to chuckle at their mochi maknae's childishness.
"And Hangeng hyung was Chinese too." And with those words of Eunhyuk, everyone became silent as sadness once again was seen on each of the members faces.
"He was a strong man. He faced through so much, and yet I didn't get how he could not stand to fight for more. He knows we'll be here for him right? I'm his bestfriend. He should have at least told me. I couldn't get his feelings why he thought leaving us would be better than having all of us fight for him," Heechul said with a tinge of anger in his voice.
"We should just understand him. We all feel empty without him. Me and Henry even felt scared because our guardian left us alone, though we still had all of you. He had our backs in China. He understood us more than anyone because he was treated the same in the past. Its different having to talk about it with someone who had the same experience. So his departure was really heartbreaking" Zhoumi said, saying all that he was feeling for his Hangeng gege.
"I feel guilty. He was my chingu, yet I didn't know what he was feeling. I haven't noticed his change. I guess the saying will always be right. You will never know the worth of a person, if only that person is already gone from you. Only we thought about that before." Yesung said, he was a quiet boy yet when it comes to things like this he opens up to all.
"Because we never thought things like this will ever happen. We never thought of Hae's appa's death, we never thought of the accidents, we never thought of Kibum and Hangeng's departure. We could have never guessed back then what was in store for us. Like what will be in store for us now" Eunhyuk said.
It was true.. no one could predict the future. No one at that time, would have figured that things would end up like this.
"Things never end up the way we thought it would be. God has many things in store for us, and what happened may be in his own will. But, God is good. I know all this was just His test for us to be stronger. Everything will be good in the end. We will unite together." Siwon said optimistic, with shining eyes.
"Though I don't believe in Siwon's God, or your God, I know what he's saying is right. Obstacles will always come our way, so we should just prepare for it. We can stand until here, is it impossible for more? All things good happen in the end right?" Heechul says with a smile.
"Justice will always prevail. We will get paid for all our hard work. It always goes that way. I know all that we worked hard for will pay-off. Just like trainee days. We trained to be the people who we are now, and this time, We train to be better for the people who love us and look up to us. This should be our thought," Shindong says joining the conversation again.
Everyone nodded to Shindong's words. He was right, they should be the idols of their ELFs. They should be the humblest of idols for all that is happening to them is through hard work which other people helped in. Their passion should never waver, it should stay the same. they all have one dream and they will fight for it altogether.
"Its funny as to how much we've changed since we debuted," Sungmin said.
"Yup, from that blonde long-haired small boy, comes a man with six-pack abs" Donghae joked and everyone seemed to laugh at both Donghae's arrogance and his words. It was true, he did have abs now, who would've thought about it back then? A crybaby of their training days would come to have abs in the future?
"Arrogant now are we?" Zhoumi joked. And everyone laughed at this, but earning a mehrong from Donghae.
"Well sorry Donghae, but you're still childish and a crybaby. So you haven't changed," Heechul said and everyone just had to agree with their hyung.
"But really, Sungmin's right. We HAVE changed. All of us. Each of us has something we changed in. In looks, personality, way of thinking. Something must have changed. " Kibum said, being the serious one he is.
"Yup you also changed Kibum, from that one boy who always stayed at a corner from America, you became the Killer smile of Super Junior. You are now loved and known by many. And that's a change." Sungmin said, with a smile saying that nothing in his words are wrong so you better believe it. And the others just nodded in agreement, earning another killer smile from the killer smile himself.
"Yeah, back then Kyuhyun was still an innocent boy asking for our approval of his membership as a Super Junior member. And now, he bullies his hyungs like we're the slaves." Eunhyuk said, and everyone laughed, even Kyuhyun. No one can deny what Eunhyuk said anyway. It was true. But deep down everyone knew what their maknae had to face just to be accepted. And everyone regretted not accepting him earlier. So everyone just let him bully the hyungs for the hyungs deserve it. Except probably for Heechul for he's still the master in the house, and Donghae, who accepted him right away unlike the others.
"And Eunhyuk changed from a countrified-anchovy to the dancing machine of our company," Siwon said, and everyone reminisced the time when Shindong broadcasted Eunhyuk's nickname of being old-fashioned
"Though I'm still handsomer and he still stinks," Ryeowook piped and everyone just had to laugh for the topic of Eunhyuk's smelly feet was brought up again.
"And Ryeowook has gotten his head bigger. And he still doesn't have abs," Kyuhyun joked, and Ryeowook just had to punck Kyuhyun's arm.
"See the infromalities?" Ryeowook said. And everyone just had to agree but laugh at the same time.
"Ryeowook has gotten better with his cooking I must say!" Shindong said to save Ryeowook from Kyuhyun's words.
"Of course you know, YOU EAT IT ALL! Though I must say you did well in dieting. You've changed in weight dude. You're still fat but not the ever so chubby Shindong. Your face became more refined! So different from when we first debuted," Heechul complimented Shindong for his ability to trim down alot of weight. He himself tried, but gave up immediately as he was not the type to sweat.
"Yea, Shindong hyung changed alot. I compared pictures but it was so amazing to see your transformation. Heechul hyung also changed. Before you only stick with the people you liked. Not even bothering about the other trainees. Just you and your friends. But now, just like Teukie hyung, you care about the members and seem like a true sub-leader and a true hyung to all. You became open to many more people, even to the world," Donghae said amazed by his hyung's transformation. Ofcourse he was one of those 'friends' of Heechul whom he was always with. Being the friendly nature Hae has, he goes out with other friends, and sometimes seeing his other favorite hyung(other than Leeteuk), Heechul, with no companion. thus resulting in him hanging around Heechul more in the trainee days.
Everyone nodded in agreement for everyone saw that transformation of their hyung, from the cold diva in the trainee days, deep inside lives a kind heart caring for all.
"Sungmin hyung changed a lot too. From the boy who was always known for his aegyo, though you are still now, you became manlier and showed to everyone that you're not just cute. You proved alot to all of us. Your determination in learning new things. It was always a fascinating aspect of yours hyung, how you always manage to try and learn a new thing despite your busy schedule," Siwon said as he looked admiringly at his Sungmin hyung. Someone who has tried more than anything among all of them. Yes Siwon tried and mastered alot of stuff, but nothing compared to what Sungmin knows.
Sungmin smiled at the compliments, but then caught the sight of his Yesung hyung who was beautifully lighted by his candle light.
"Yesung hyung changed alot too. He was never caught by the camera even once before in our first 3 weeks of debut. Even if he was the main vocal of our group. His voice was there but he wasn't. Even then he had the most angelic voice, he still had minimal parts. But look at him now, he's one of those who are loved by many. He gets much screen time, and almost in every song we have, you will be able to hear his voice. Hyung changed alot from the past years," Sungmin said as he remembered the time when Yesung would always complain about that on variety shows wherein he had the opportunity to say it.
"Sungmin Hyung is right! But Siwon hyung changed too! When you guys first debuted he didn't have abs right? But now he is the main look of Super Junior! Even in Super Junior M! Before he was never much of an actor, just up to CFs and stuff. But now he has his own drama! Even going far away of Korea to do it! Plus the Extravagant Challenge with Donghae hyung. Hyung really changed alot," Henry said with pure amazement at his hyung who always had God first in his life, family next and super junior included.
"Zhoumi and Henry changed a lot too... From being too reserved in SJM, they finally open up to the whole SJ. Thus having a real family of 15. Henry back then was just a guest violinist in Don't Don, and suddenly a mochi favorite by all in SJM. Zhoumi then was still unable to open up to us for the language, but everyone helped and he became closer to all of us," Yesung said while darting his eyes to the two SJM members.
Everyone had their eyes on their two foreign members and remembered the time when everything was different from everything right now... Everyone pointed out the changes in each but still it didn't justify the WHOLE change that has happened between all of them.
"But I'm glad we still haven't changed some points about us. As an individual and as Super Junior," Leeteuk finally said. After being quiet just observing his members, he felt like talking now. He was happiest seeing his members being together and talking open-heatedly to each other. It was like a beautiful scenery to the Leader's eyes. If only they were really 15 that time.
"Yea..." everyone chorused, eyes all glued to their leader. All of them knowing that the next words of their leader will be pure wisdom... or just really heartwarming to their ears.
"We all still have the same dream. And I'm proud that we haven't changed on that aspect. We're all still hardworking, still striving, still doing the best we can. I'm proud that our love for each other never changed.
Even if Kibum left momentarily, he always reassured us of his love for us. Even if Siwon had to stop 5jib promotions, to continue Poseidon, he constantly called or even tweeted us saying he misses us and he wishes to be with us. But we can't stop both of them from their dream to be actors right?
We should be happy that the love is still there with each other. No matter how far we go, we still have in our hearts Super Junior. And we also mustn't forget the people responsible for our success right? ELFs. Even if we reach the highest award in the world, we mustn't forget the people who made all that happen. ELFs. We must stay humble and thank them with all our heart. ELFs were there from the start, and I know they will be there until the end. Even if they aren't we mustn't change. We must stay the same. Our mistakes we will correct, our lacking? We will fill it for each other. Whatever happens, we must remember where we started. No matter where destiny takes us, remember where we started. Remember ELFs. Remember one another. Remember Super Junior. Remember November 6, 2005," And Leeteuk looked at each of his member's eyes. Showing all the sincerity and love in his words.
And after Leeteuk said his most inspiring speech, both the doorbell and their clock chimed. No one looked at the clock yet, for the door was more intriguing. Who could have been here to disturb their most heartwarming moment in the middle of the night? Now, the closest to the door was Leeteuk. So when the doorbell chimed again he wasted no time in checking who was at their door.
And to all their surprise, though it was a beautiful one, the people they least expected arrived. The faces of the ones inside and the ones outside broke into one identical smile. As they were all feeling the same thing.
"Happy 6th Anniversary Everyone" Said the people outside, and that was when everyone inside, even Leeteuk at the door looked at their clock. And there it was, the clock struck exactly 12:00. Signaling their 6 years being together, 6 years being Super Junior.
"Happy Anniversary to you too, Hankyung, Kangin" Leeteuk said with the biggest smile he has ever had in years.
And once Hankyung and Kangin entered the dorm, and closed the door. No one outside could see anything behind that door. No one would ever know the feeling being shared inside. No one could know what was happening. For what's inside, stays inside.
No person besides them will ever know what will truly happen in the years to come.
But one thing is rest assured. The love inside is felt by anyone trying to come across their doorstep. Because their love is bigger then their number. Bigger than anyone could think.
Only one thing can be heard outside.
'Happy 6th Anniversary, Super Junior, Saranghae~'
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A/n: First fanfic that I ever finished. And this one actually contains my heart as an ELF. I started this fic Nov. 6, 1pm but ended Nov. 7, 2am... I guess I was too absorbed in my fic that I forgot the time...
Its really my first time finishing a story, i've made ones in the past but never really manage to finish them. This might be crappy because it was on pure instinct. I just wrote what I felt.
Hope someone reads and comments~^^ (hoping for too much? :P)
imperfectlyevil here is one one-shot.. read alright? I promise to post one, so here it is.. tell me what you think okay? :D saranghae aegi~