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I went out today. Out to the little court yard they have here. I can see it from my window but I am never allowed out. The sun was really bright, my eyes hurt because of it.
I wore one of my masks to hide my uglyness. It was the one with red lips, my bunny was with me. No one bothered me when we sat out side. She gave me a pad and paper telling me to draw what I wanted. Though she said she wanted to talk to me about why this all happened. I dont want to talk about it, its my pain, what I desver. She doesnt understand this.
We where out a long time. She got out a tea set for us to play with, we played tea all afternoon. Bunny had some tea too, I got tea on my jammies though. She said it was okay they would wash. I am going to be in trouble for it I know it!
I dont want to be in trouble anymore. I want to go back to Tatsuya, its where I belong. I dont tell her anything about what happened to me why I did it. She walked me back to my room after that, got me something clean to wear. Then she was gone again. She will be back shes always come back.
I sat in my room, on my bed looking out the window. It was already dark, then.. the door opened. He came, he finally came. He talked to me, petting my hair as I curled up next to him. He said I was very good for not talking, for not speaking.
He came back, I wasnt scared of him. He told me not to tell anyone he was here to see me. He was proud though, I didnt let them take the collar. He said when it comes off it will be unlocked. He reminded me that someone will never love me. I know this, it still hurts but I know it. Thats why I dont want to ever leave, I want to stay where I am.
He was grinning at me, I knew the look before. I moved taking off my jammies and folding them. This was he wanted, moving I laid on the bed from him where he took me. It was painful, but my mask was still on he didnt mind. He reminded me that I am just a doll to be fucked. Thats all I am good for. He took me hard, it hurt alot. I think I was bleeding. He told me he met someone that was going to fully replace me. His name is Hitsugi, and he loves Hitsugi.
I am being replaced. He told me that I dont have a home anymore, he got rid of it. But he has all my stuff at his appartment. When I leave here I am suppose to go there untill he says other wise. These are orders from him, I follow them. He leaves after making sure nothing shows he was there. I crawl into my bed and wait for sleep. I can feel the pain seeping through my body. The pain I started to forget, I am not allowed to die.
I will follow my orders.. Tatsuya.. he knows I am still alive.
I wore one of my masks to hide my uglyness. It was the one with red lips, my bunny was with me. No one bothered me when we sat out side. She gave me a pad and paper telling me to draw what I wanted. Though she said she wanted to talk to me about why this all happened. I dont want to talk about it, its my pain, what I desver. She doesnt understand this.
We where out a long time. She got out a tea set for us to play with, we played tea all afternoon. Bunny had some tea too, I got tea on my jammies though. She said it was okay they would wash. I am going to be in trouble for it I know it!
I dont want to be in trouble anymore. I want to go back to Tatsuya, its where I belong. I dont tell her anything about what happened to me why I did it. She walked me back to my room after that, got me something clean to wear. Then she was gone again. She will be back shes always come back.
I sat in my room, on my bed looking out the window. It was already dark, then.. the door opened. He came, he finally came. He talked to me, petting my hair as I curled up next to him. He said I was very good for not talking, for not speaking.
He came back, I wasnt scared of him. He told me not to tell anyone he was here to see me. He was proud though, I didnt let them take the collar. He said when it comes off it will be unlocked. He reminded me that someone will never love me. I know this, it still hurts but I know it. Thats why I dont want to ever leave, I want to stay where I am.
He was grinning at me, I knew the look before. I moved taking off my jammies and folding them. This was he wanted, moving I laid on the bed from him where he took me. It was painful, but my mask was still on he didnt mind. He reminded me that I am just a doll to be fucked. Thats all I am good for. He took me hard, it hurt alot. I think I was bleeding. He told me he met someone that was going to fully replace me. His name is Hitsugi, and he loves Hitsugi.
I am being replaced. He told me that I dont have a home anymore, he got rid of it. But he has all my stuff at his appartment. When I leave here I am suppose to go there untill he says other wise. These are orders from him, I follow them. He leaves after making sure nothing shows he was there. I crawl into my bed and wait for sleep. I can feel the pain seeping through my body. The pain I started to forget, I am not allowed to die.
I will follow my orders.. Tatsuya.. he knows I am still alive.