*sigh*

[kekahe]

Life is just being generally weird right now. And no, it's not just me being on my period. I'm starting to lose interest in a lot of things. And as much as I normally dislike being a girl on a daily basis, I'm really starting to fucking hate it. Girls assume that since I'm a girl, I should like shopping and texting and pink stuff and little kittens

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[kekahe]

Yes, I suppose you're right. I know I'm just making excuses, but... I feel like I just can't accept it right now. When I learn to ignore others' perceptions of me, I hope I can fully accept myself.

*sigh* Until then, I'm just going to have to settle with trying. Stuff like this takes time; I'll learn eventually.

[zelos22]

amen

some differences in story but the result is still the same: resenting being female.

ugh, its almost painful to admit that i am. i feel like im lying when i say im female :/ but im not really a male, either, so its also a lie...

at least in real life i am mistaken for male 50% of the time ;;>_> im not sure what internet people think i am. gender is always the number one thing i avoid sharing on my profiles on all the sites i go to.

[kekahe]

In truth, I've never really felt like I was female. I feel like I'm supposed to be male, but I know I'm not, so it just feels.... weird.

I don't even know what my name is anymore. It's not Rachel, in my mind, but I'm lying in more than one way when I say my name is Luke. It's disorienting.

Let's just hope that one day there'll be no genders, a day where people of all sexes and sexualities can sit back and have a toast to good times.

[zelos22]

definitely... its like a constant identity crisis since you never know what to call yourself or how to see yourself. saying one thing is a lie and then the opposite is also a lie.

conversations with people online go so well until the other person asks "so are you a girl or a guy"? me: "uhhhhh.... idk :/"

[kekahe]

In my case people just usually assume one or the other. On subeta.net, my gender is set as male and my Human Avatars are usually all male. The people on my friends list that don't know me personally or comment me often assume I'm a guy (one of them even flirts with me a little, strangely), and the others know I'm female.

[kekahe]

Seriously... Humanity is so close-minded. Not only in regards to gender, but other races and religions and sexualities... No matter what you decide to do there's always going to be controversy. Always that one person or group of people who disagree.

...People just need to be more accepting of each other.

[ratatoskcore]

i hear you on that "adorable shy short girl" thing

that was me too

..... still is
i basically just got use to not having too many irl friends all through my public school years

i made some small friends here or there
just by being my weeaboo "I CARRY MANGA 2 SCHOOL AND DRAW IN RECESS" self

(though at one point doing that actually made me a good friend who i miss to this day)

and geez you'd think by now people would stop stereotyping boys and girls by now
god whenever i hear about it or see it happen i still want to punch someone's face in

[ratatoskcore]

.....ROFL I SAID BY NOW TWICE
this what happens when i try to maintain some kind of serious composure!!!

[kekahe]

Rofl yes that is still you.

I think you've told me about that before. I just wish that kind of stuff worked for me instead of making people laugh at me.

Seriously. With all the hype about boys and girls being equal and shit now, it really doesn't stand up to any real truth in some areas. Sort of like racism.

[ratatoskcore]

o u no mi
NOT BEIN ABLE TO BE SERIOUS FOR MORE THAN 5 SECONDS

probably
I TELL PEOPLE THINGS OVER AND OVER AGAIN because i forget.....

i know right
the day i work at gamestop or something is the day i somewhat expect to be bombarded by
"Y IS A GRL WORKIN HERE?????????????? WHAT IF SHE BREAKS A NAIL D: d: D: d; XDDDDDDDDD;;;;;;"

[intothewolves]

There's not much I can say that I already haven't said.
I can't say much else that's not cliche... I was going to give you a Shel Silverstien poem, but I know that's not your thing...
anyways. I can't really tell you much else other than to follow your heart or w/e people say nowadays.

[kekahe]

I have to laugh about how that sounded like something an old man would say.

I sorta feel better even though the muscles in my throat are choking me from being depressed (was looking for a better word but there isn't one I guess).