Aftermath 3/?
Title: Aftermath 3/?
Author: Kel_085
Pairing: Callie/Arizona
Rating: NC-17
Summary: The moments, days, and weeks following the shooting. How do the girls cope with whats happened?
disclaimer: All television shows, movies, books, and other copyrighted material referred to in this work, and the characters, settings, and events thereof, are the properties of their respective owners. As this work is an interpretation of the original material and not for-profit, it constitutes fair use. Reference to real persons, places, or events are made in a fictional context, and are not intended to be libelous, defamatory, or in any way factual.
Early the next morning Callie wakes to find the spot next to her cold and empty. Looking around the room, she hopes to find any sign of her girlfriend’s presence. Her eyes glance over the clock on the bed side table, seeing its only 4am. Callie sighs and hops out of bed, throwing on an old college shirt and some pajama shorts. Callie smiles when she walks out of her room to find Arizona sitting on the couch using her laptop.
“Hey beautiful.” Arizona greets hearing Callie walk into the room. “I hope you don’t mind, I’m using your laptop?” She asks.
Callie sits down next to Arizona and shakes her head, curling into her side. “Not at all, I do mind waking up alone though.” She pouts.
Arizona kisses her forehead. “I’m Sorry; I had a bad dream, about what happened. I couldn’t get back to sleep so came out here to distract myself. I started researching our holiday.” She mentions excitedly.
Callie wraps her arm around Arizona’s torso and snuggles in closer. “Why didn’t you wake me?” She asks hurt.
“I just needed to forget about it, think about something happy.” Arizona replies hoping Callie understands. “I didn’t want to disturb you.”
Callie untangles herself from Arizona’s side and stands up. “I get that, I do. But I’m here for you. This is what I was talking about earlier.” Callie rants pacing in front of Arizona, she sighs turning to directly face Arizona. “You don’t get to shut me out anymore.” Callie demands angrily.
Arizona doesn’t know what to say, she didn’t see this coming. “I didn’t want to disturb you. I just wanted to forget about the nightmare.” Arizona admits.
“When are you going to realized that you’re the most important person in my life? I want to be woken Arizona. When the woman I love is in pain or scared, I want to be there for her. Or do you still think that I’m not in love with you?”Callie blurts out harshly.
Not giving Arizona time to respond to her harsh words Callie continues her rant. “Tell me what I need to do to prove to you, that I’ve fallen completely head over heels in love with you? What do I have to do to prove, that I’m not just ‘visiting’ Lesbian land” Callie yells using air quotations.
“Okay, wow where did this come from?” Arizona asks in shock. “I think you’re channeling me Calliope.” Arizona giggles. “You’re scared so you’re starting an argument. I thought we went over this earlier though. I told you I was sorry, that I didn’t mean what I said. I trust you with my life Calliope. I wouldn’t be here if I didn’t.”
“You meant it Arizona.” Callie snaps. “To you, I’ve always been a newborn”
Arizona stands up slowly taking a step towards Callie. “Okay, yes, you ‘were’ a newborn to me. I learned quickly though, that I was wrong about you Callie. I did have some insecurity, about whether I was different to everyone else that you’ve be in love with. But today you showed me how wrong I was.” Arizona sighs. “Why are we fighting?” She asks confusion etched in her voice.
“I don’t know.” Callie sighs.
Arizona takes another hesitant step closer to Callie, just as she’s about to reach the brunette, Cristina steps out of her room. “Can you keep it down out here; Owen just managed to fall asleep.” She pleads.
“Sorry Cristina, we didn’t realize you were home.” Arizona says apologetically. Cristina nods accepting the apology, turning to Callie.
“Do you ever stop complaining Callie?” Cristina snaps.
“This is none of your business Cristina.” Callie spits out glaring at Cristina
Cristina walks to the couch and flops down on it. “Maybe not, but all you’ve done of late is complain. You complained when roller girl wasn’t here. You complained that you had to see her at work. Now she’s finally here, you have her back safe, uninjured and alive, and you’re complaining?” Cristina scoffs.
Cristina takes a second to compose herself. “Maybe you should be thankful instead? Allow yourself to be happy.” She says looking at Callie. “You got lucky today. I watched my best friend’s husband get shot, a gun held to my head while I operated on his heart. Alex Karev who I’ve worked with for 6 years, had to fight for his life. Not to mention the people who died today” She says recalling the day’s events, Cristina sighs, running her hand through her hair. “Owen got shot in front of me” She whispers looking down at the ground.
Callie demeanor instantly changes. “Look, I’m sorry Cristina-“ Callie got cut off by Cristina.
“Don’t be sorry. Just be thankful that you don’t have to close your eyes, and see images of the love of your life, with a bullet hole in them.” Cristina explains to her before getting up and returning to her room.
“I’m sorry, Cristina.” Callie whispers as the door closes. Callie stands staring at the door, she feels warm arms wrap around her waist. “She’s right you know?” Arizona says kissing Callie’s shoulder.
Callie instantly relaxes into Arizona’s arms. “I’m sorry.” Callie whispers.
“It’s ok, but Callie, you need to realise that I no longer see you as the newborn I once thought you were. I had insecurities about whether you had fallen in love with me, but as I told you, I’m here because I love you, and today I saw how much you love me.”Arizona explains gently. “Will you tell me what’s going on in that beautiful head of yours?” She asks softly resting her chin on Callie’s shoulder.
Callie turns her head looking at the blonde. “I over reacted.” Callie sighs trying to figure out how best to face this. “I woke up alone. I was scared, I thought you’d left, changed your mind. I just over reacted to all the emotions going through me.” Callie replies.
Arizona spins Callie around in her arms and looks into her big brown eyes. “Changed my mind about kids?” She inquires.
Callie shakes her head. “No, yes, I don’t know. About being with me, a newborn” Callie sighs. Arizona pulls Callie into a hug and kisses her neck.
“I’m not going to change my mind Calliope. I meant what I said; I’ll have kids with you. You’re going to make an amazing mother, don’t get me wrong I’m terrified, but I know we can do it together. I’m just really confused at how this just happened. You don’t just start an argument for no reason.” Arizona says.
“You shut me out.” Callie replies quietly, looking into Arizona’s eyes. “It’s the one thing I hate. I want you to feel like you can trust me, be able to tell me things, or even just wake me up after a bad dream. I know it’s stupid. I just over reacted that’s all, I woke up alone and it scared me.” She tells the blonde.
Arizona takes Callie’s hand in hers and laces their fingers together, walking herself and Callie towards the couch. Sitting down Arizona pulls Callie down next to her. “Okay, we’re going to talk.” Arizona declares looking at Callie giving her a small smile.
“I’m sorry for over reacting, Arizona.” Callie apologises again, running her fingers over the palm of Arizona’s hand. “I’m just tired and with everything that happened yesterday, things were said, they came back and took over my emotions. I just don’t know what I did, to make you think I wasn’t ‘in love’ with you?” Callie asks
Arizona thinks about Callie’s question carefully. “I can’t pin point exactly what it was Callie, I’ve never felt like this for anyone else before. Naturally I was a little nervous, especially since I’m only the second girl you’ve been with. I didn’t want to completely commit and then have you turn around and leave me. I know I was wrong; it’s just my way of protecting myself. I see now that my logic was way off.” Arizona sighs.
Callie sits listening to Arizona’s explanation. “Not once have I ever given you any indication that I would ever leave you. The night I was working on the cartilage, I basically told you that I want to spend the rest of my life with you. How did you not see that?” Callie questions her curiously.
Arizona sits in shock, she knew neither wants to live without the other but she hadn’t heard it out loud like that before. She smiles at Callie. “You want to spend the rest of your life with me?” She asks softly.
Callie laughs and shakes her head. “Sometimes Arizona you can be really slow. I want to have your babies, so yes, somewhere in-between now and then I was hoping for a wedding, legal or not.” She tells her smiling.
Before Arizona can respond Callie continues speaking. “Don’t take this as a proposal though… It will come, I promise you that, but it’s going perfect, not like this.” She smiles at Arizona cupping her cheek with her hand; she wipes a small tear away that was running down Arizona’s cheek.
“I just need you to know, I don’t see a future without you. My only wish is that you learn to open up to me. You know so much about me, I want to know more about you Arizona. I love you, I want to know everything. I want you to trust me enough to need me after a bad dream. Do you think you can do that?” Callie asks softly, running her thumb of Arizona’s cheek affectionately.
Arizona can’t find any words; she nods, leaning in and brushing her lips against Callie’s tenderly. “I love you.” Arizona sighs in between soft kisses.
Callie smirks into the gentle kisses; pulling back she looks at Arizona and moves a small strand of hair behind her ear. “I love you too.” Callie replies leaning back in and kissing her softly.
Callie pulls back, smiling at the blonde. “Will you tell me more about your past?” Callie asks eagerly.
Arizona contemplates the question, turning to sit Indian style on the couch facing Callie grinning at her. “Anything you want to know, I’ll tell you. I love you and I trust you. I didn’t mean to keep things from you Callie; it’s just my stupid coping mechanism.” Arizona replies taking Callie’s hands in hers.
Callie grins also moving to sit Indian style opposite Arizona. “Okay, where to start.” Callie thinks, playfully tapping her chin with her finger, causing the blonde to laugh at her. “What’s your most embarrassing moment?” Callie mischievously asks.
Arizona drops her head into her hands and can feel the blush starting to creep its way across her cheeks. “You seriously want to know?” Arizona asks. Callie nods and smirks. “If I answer, do I also get my turn to ask questions?” Arizona inquires.
“Nope, not today, this is about me learning more about you.” Callie states excitedly.
Arizona sighs looking down at her lap. “My most embarrassing moment would have to be getting caught going down on my first girlfriend, by my father and brother.” Arizona mumbles out. Callie lets out a laugh. Arizona huffs and hides her face in her hands again. Callie reaches up and pulls her hands away to look her in the eyes.
“How did you get caught?” Callie asks curiously.
Arizona shakes her head. “You know payback’s a bitch right Calliope?” Arizona mutters before continuing her story. “It was in the back of my car in the garage. My dad set the same rules for me as he did Danny; we weren’t allowed to have girls in our room with the door closed. I thought I’d be smart and go to the garage to make out in my car… well one thing led to another, and mid way through our love making session I heard a tap on the window.” Arizona pauses from recalling the events from many years ago.
“When I saw my dad there, I thought I was going to die.” Arizona giggles as she replays the memory in her head. “I can laugh about it now. But I couldn’t even look my dad in the eyes, for over a month after the incident. Danny on the other hand loved to use it against me; if he got into trouble, he would bring it up hoping to lessen his punishment. Acting like he was the innocent one out of the two of us.” Arizona informs Callie.
Callie listens intently to the story before laughing again. “Did that teach you not to have sex in your car Arizona?” Callie giggles.
“No, it didn’t, it just taught me not to have sex in my car parked in my parent’s garage.” Arizona laughs smirking.
Callie pretends to be shocked. “My, my Arizona, who would’ve thought Miss Perky and innocent, lived on the wild side?” Callie teases.
“I never said I was innocent.” Arizona smirks giving Callie a knowing look.
Callie smile. “Oh ‘I’ know you’re not innocent, but everyone else doesn’t.”
“What can I say? My hard ass ortho surgeon, rockstar of a girlfriend brings out the bad in me.” Arizona winks.
Callie grins and continues her questioning. “Well that answers most embarrassing sex story.” Callie tells her before thinking of another question. “How many serious relationships have you been in? And why did they end?” Callie asks hope Arizona doesn’t shut down at this question.
“Four, including you” Arizona simply answers, taking Callie’s hand in hers, squeezing it and speaking. “Joanne and I were together for 2 years through high school and then the first 2 years of college. We grew apart, had different goals and dreams.” Arizona explains. “I was devastated after the break up, she was my first love. I thought I’d never get over her. I suppose some part of me will almost love her, you always do when it comes to first loves.”
Arizona plays with Callie’s fingers. “I met Melissa almost a year after Joanne and I broke up. We were together for 2 years, we weren’t right for each other from the beginning. We knew it, but there was so much heat between us though; so we stayed together for the wrong reasons. She eventually cheated on me, it hurt, but looking back it was actually a relief.” Arizona looks into Callie’s eyes pausing and taking a deep breath.
Callie ran her free hand over Arizona’s knee comforting her; Callie can see a change in Arizona’s posture, she gives her a small encouraging smile.
Arizona smiles back before letting out a massive sigh. “My last relationship before you, was with Stacy. We were together for 6 years.” Arizona tells Callie stopping to look in her eyes, making sure she understands what she’s about to tell her. “I was her first girlfriend; we were friends that fell in love. I thought she was my forever, I was wrong. After 6 years together, she came to me and told me she wasn’t gay.” Arizona blurts out, a tear running down her cheek.
Callie immediately scoots closer to Arizona and wraps her arms around her securely. “That’s why you had doubts about me?” Callie asks softly. Arizona nods in Callie’s neck crying. Callie kisses the blonde’s hair and rubs her back trying to sooth her. She finally understands Arizona’s fears.
Callie pulls out of the hug and wipes the tears away from Arizona’s eyes, leaning in and kissing her soundly. “I understand your insecurities now Baby.” Callie whispers softly placing another kiss on her lips. “I want you to know, I’d never do that to you. You’re my forever. Do you understand that? I’m not letting you go, ever.” Callie reassures Arizona.
Arizona nods, she knows Callie means what she’s saying. She sees the concern in the big brown eyes in front of her; she allows a small smile to form on her lips. “You weren’t the only one that was broken coming into this relationship Callie.” Arizona simply states.
“You told me you weren’t broken, that you weren’t something that can be fixed.” Callie replies.
Arizona smiles, “Regarding having a baby, no I wasn’t broken; I thought I had everything I needed with just you. At least I thought I did until I saw you with Ruby. You’re a natural, the way you calmed her down, held her hand and reassured her. I saw something in your eyes yesterday I hadn’t seen before and the smile that was on your lips. You think I have a super magical smile. I can’t even find words to describe your smile; it’d have to be a super super magical smile.” Arizona jokes.
Callie beams at Arizona. “So if I give you one of my ‘Super super magical smiles’ will that stop your tears?” Callie asked lightheartedly.
Arizona giggles. “As much as it hurt, these tears are not tears of pain anymore Calliope. I no longer have feelings for Stacy; it was the best thing that could’ve happened to me.” Arizona tells Callie. “I wouldn’t have this.” She says gesturing between the two of them. “If she didn’t end it, I would be missing out on being with the most amazing person in the world.” She smiles at Callie, wiping the last of her tears away. “I was crying because I almost lost you due to insecurities caused by her.” Arizona tells Callie softly. “I almost let my own stupidity get in the way of a happy future.” Arizona sighs.
“I think I’m the one with the most amazing person.” Callie says smirking at Arizona, Callie leans in slowly, stopping just before her lips touch Arizona’s. “She’s an idiot for letting you go.” Callie tells the blonde, before closing the gap between their lips kissing Arizona. The kiss is full of love and passion. Callie wants Arizona to know that she’s not going anywhere; she wants her to feel it.
Callie slowly lifts Arizona into her lap; Arizona instantly wraps her legs around Callie’s waist, pressing their bodies closer together.
Callie massages Arizona’s tongue with hers, eliciting a moan from the blonde, making her smirk into the kiss. Callie slowly runs her hands down Arizona’s side pausing at the hem of her top, she leisurely pushes it up the blonde’s body and trails her fingers over the flesh she finds waiting under it. She pulls back from the kiss, and quickly removes Arizona’s top smirking when she notices Arizona isn’t wearing a bra.
Arizona smiles knowing exactly what Callie’s thinking. She leans in and kisses Callie softly on the lips before grabbing the bottom of Callie’s top and pulling it up over her head and throwing it on the floor with her shirt. Arizona’s breath catches in her throat at the sight in front of her. “I’ll never get sick of seeing you naked.” Arizona whispers in Callie’s ear, lightly flicking her tongue over it, before kissing down Callie’s neck.
Callie moans at the feeling of Arizona’s tongue on her ear and the kisses being placed on her neck. Callie snakes her hands around Arizona’s back, scratching her nails over the flesh as she moves her hands underneath the blondes shorts, squeezing her ass and pulling her closer, causing Arizona’s center to push hard against Callie’s stomach. Callie instantly feels the heat and wetness through the thin material separating Arizona’s core from the bare skin of her stomach, causing her own wetness to pool in her shorts.
Arizona arches and moans, rocking slightly against Callie stomach causing a small amount of friction against her wet core.
Callie leans forward placing kisses on the bare chest in front of her; she kisses her way towards one of Arizona’s nipples and flicks it with her tongue causing the blonde to arch further. Callie smirks before taking it in her mouth and sucking on it.
Arizona lets out a louder moan, as Callie sucks and bites on her nipple; she threads her finger through Callie’s hair and pushes her harder into her chest. Arizona continues to rock against Callie. She doesn’t know how much more she can take.
Callie pulls back from Arizona’s nipple and moves up to her mouth kissing her. She runs her tongue over her bottom lip teasing it, before dipping her tongue inside Arizona’s eagerly awaiting mouth, causing Arizona to moan as their tongues meet and battle for dominance.
Callie pulls back from the blonde’s lips, placing small kisses along her jaw; she shifts on the couch slightly and stands up carrying Arizona with her towards their bedroom. Callie kicks the door closed behind her. She carries Arizona over to the bed before placing her gently on the mattress.
Arizona untangles her legs from around Callie’s waist. She feels Callie run her hands softly over her exposed stomach before, trailing her fingers to the top of her shorts; she slightly lifts her hips off the bed allowing Callie to remove them.
Arizona watches Callie as she admires her now completely naked body, from her kneeling position at the edge of the bed. Arizona can feel her cheeks flush as Callie looks up at her and smirks; she gives Callie a quick nod of the head letting her know its okay.
Callie’s breathing increases at the sight in front of her. She looks deep into Arizona’s eyes and sees the want in them, she leans down and places light kisses on the inside of Arizona’s thigh, slowly moving up towards her destination. Callie feels Arizona thread her fingers in her hair trying to guide her faster to where she needs her. Callie lets her tongue trail over the wet folds teasingly, before sliding her tongue up the length of Arizona’s wet slit savoring the taste she’s missed out on for almost a month.
Arizona bucks her hips towards Callie’s awaiting mouth; she loves how her girlfriend teases her. She feels Callie’s hands on her hips pushing her back onto the bed holding her in place. Arizona whimpers in response looking down at Callie, begging her with her eyes to continue.
Callie loves it when she drives Arizona wild, she leans back in and lightly traces circles around Arizona’s clit with her tongue, flicking the bundle of nerves a couple of time, enjoying the response her actions are causing. Callie pulls the small bundle into mouth sucking it, and continues flicking it with her tongue. Arizona’s hands tighten their grip in Callie’s hair.
Callie knows Arizona isn’t far off her release, she removes her mouth from Arizona’s clit, running her tongue down between the wet folds one last time, she moves one of her hands from its position on Arizona’s hip, she slides her fingers down through the wet folds, circling Arizona’s dripping center teasingly.
Arizona moans louder when she feels Callie’s fingers at her opening, she moves her hips forward, hoping the action will push Callie’s fingers into her center. “Please Callie” She begs when her actions don’t get her desired response.
Callie lightly kisses the bundle of nerves again and slowly pushes two fingers inside of Arizona setting a steady pace. Arizona automatically matches her pace with her hips. Callie removes on of Arizona’s hands from her hair laces their fingers together.
Arizona squeezes Callie’s hand tightly, she can feel herself climbing closer and closer to her climax, she feels Callie take her clit back in her mouth one last time and enter her with a third finger, that’s all it takes sending Arizona over the edge. “Fuck..” Arizona screams as she feels the full extent of her orgasm hit her.
Callie lets go of Arizona’s clit and places soft kisses on her stomach, she slows her fingers, allowing Arizona to ride out every last second of pleasure. When she feels the walls around her fingers relax she gently removes her fingers and crawls up the bed to lie beside Arizona. Arizona’s eyes are closed and she has a small smile on her lips. Callie smiles pleased with herself.
Arizona can’t move it’s been weeks since she’s experienced an orgasm like this one. She slowly opens her eyes and sees Callie staring at her smirking. “Thank you, I love you.” Arizona manages to say.
Callie laughs and leans down and lightly kisses Arizona’s lips. “You’re welcome, I love you too.” Callie replies, pulling the blanket over them. “Sleep.” Callie whispers into Arizona’s ear, curling into Arizona’s side draping an arm and a leg over Arizona, resting her head on her shoulder.
“But you haven’t got off.” Arizona says groggily
Callie leans and kisses Arizona’s cheek. “It’s ok; you can make it up to me later.” Callie whispers.
Callie hears a soft murmur in response from the blonde, she feels Arizona’s breathing even out as the blonde falls asleep. Smiling Callie snuggles into Arizona’s shoulder closing her eyes allowing sleep to claim her.
Author: Kel_085
Pairing: Callie/Arizona
Rating: NC-17
Summary: The moments, days, and weeks following the shooting. How do the girls cope with whats happened?
disclaimer: All television shows, movies, books, and other copyrighted material referred to in this work, and the characters, settings, and events thereof, are the properties of their respective owners. As this work is an interpretation of the original material and not for-profit, it constitutes fair use. Reference to real persons, places, or events are made in a fictional context, and are not intended to be libelous, defamatory, or in any way factual.
Early the next morning Callie wakes to find the spot next to her cold and empty. Looking around the room, she hopes to find any sign of her girlfriend’s presence. Her eyes glance over the clock on the bed side table, seeing its only 4am. Callie sighs and hops out of bed, throwing on an old college shirt and some pajama shorts. Callie smiles when she walks out of her room to find Arizona sitting on the couch using her laptop.
“Hey beautiful.” Arizona greets hearing Callie walk into the room. “I hope you don’t mind, I’m using your laptop?” She asks.
Callie sits down next to Arizona and shakes her head, curling into her side. “Not at all, I do mind waking up alone though.” She pouts.
Arizona kisses her forehead. “I’m Sorry; I had a bad dream, about what happened. I couldn’t get back to sleep so came out here to distract myself. I started researching our holiday.” She mentions excitedly.
Callie wraps her arm around Arizona’s torso and snuggles in closer. “Why didn’t you wake me?” She asks hurt.
“I just needed to forget about it, think about something happy.” Arizona replies hoping Callie understands. “I didn’t want to disturb you.”
Callie untangles herself from Arizona’s side and stands up. “I get that, I do. But I’m here for you. This is what I was talking about earlier.” Callie rants pacing in front of Arizona, she sighs turning to directly face Arizona. “You don’t get to shut me out anymore.” Callie demands angrily.
Arizona doesn’t know what to say, she didn’t see this coming. “I didn’t want to disturb you. I just wanted to forget about the nightmare.” Arizona admits.
“When are you going to realized that you’re the most important person in my life? I want to be woken Arizona. When the woman I love is in pain or scared, I want to be there for her. Or do you still think that I’m not in love with you?”Callie blurts out harshly.
Not giving Arizona time to respond to her harsh words Callie continues her rant. “Tell me what I need to do to prove to you, that I’ve fallen completely head over heels in love with you? What do I have to do to prove, that I’m not just ‘visiting’ Lesbian land” Callie yells using air quotations.
“Okay, wow where did this come from?” Arizona asks in shock. “I think you’re channeling me Calliope.” Arizona giggles. “You’re scared so you’re starting an argument. I thought we went over this earlier though. I told you I was sorry, that I didn’t mean what I said. I trust you with my life Calliope. I wouldn’t be here if I didn’t.”
“You meant it Arizona.” Callie snaps. “To you, I’ve always been a newborn”
Arizona stands up slowly taking a step towards Callie. “Okay, yes, you ‘were’ a newborn to me. I learned quickly though, that I was wrong about you Callie. I did have some insecurity, about whether I was different to everyone else that you’ve be in love with. But today you showed me how wrong I was.” Arizona sighs. “Why are we fighting?” She asks confusion etched in her voice.
“I don’t know.” Callie sighs.
Arizona takes another hesitant step closer to Callie, just as she’s about to reach the brunette, Cristina steps out of her room. “Can you keep it down out here; Owen just managed to fall asleep.” She pleads.
“Sorry Cristina, we didn’t realize you were home.” Arizona says apologetically. Cristina nods accepting the apology, turning to Callie.
“Do you ever stop complaining Callie?” Cristina snaps.
“This is none of your business Cristina.” Callie spits out glaring at Cristina
Cristina walks to the couch and flops down on it. “Maybe not, but all you’ve done of late is complain. You complained when roller girl wasn’t here. You complained that you had to see her at work. Now she’s finally here, you have her back safe, uninjured and alive, and you’re complaining?” Cristina scoffs.
Cristina takes a second to compose herself. “Maybe you should be thankful instead? Allow yourself to be happy.” She says looking at Callie. “You got lucky today. I watched my best friend’s husband get shot, a gun held to my head while I operated on his heart. Alex Karev who I’ve worked with for 6 years, had to fight for his life. Not to mention the people who died today” She says recalling the day’s events, Cristina sighs, running her hand through her hair. “Owen got shot in front of me” She whispers looking down at the ground.
Callie demeanor instantly changes. “Look, I’m sorry Cristina-“ Callie got cut off by Cristina.
“Don’t be sorry. Just be thankful that you don’t have to close your eyes, and see images of the love of your life, with a bullet hole in them.” Cristina explains to her before getting up and returning to her room.
“I’m sorry, Cristina.” Callie whispers as the door closes. Callie stands staring at the door, she feels warm arms wrap around her waist. “She’s right you know?” Arizona says kissing Callie’s shoulder.
Callie instantly relaxes into Arizona’s arms. “I’m sorry.” Callie whispers.
“It’s ok, but Callie, you need to realise that I no longer see you as the newborn I once thought you were. I had insecurities about whether you had fallen in love with me, but as I told you, I’m here because I love you, and today I saw how much you love me.”Arizona explains gently. “Will you tell me what’s going on in that beautiful head of yours?” She asks softly resting her chin on Callie’s shoulder.
Callie turns her head looking at the blonde. “I over reacted.” Callie sighs trying to figure out how best to face this. “I woke up alone. I was scared, I thought you’d left, changed your mind. I just over reacted to all the emotions going through me.” Callie replies.
Arizona spins Callie around in her arms and looks into her big brown eyes. “Changed my mind about kids?” She inquires.
Callie shakes her head. “No, yes, I don’t know. About being with me, a newborn” Callie sighs. Arizona pulls Callie into a hug and kisses her neck.
“I’m not going to change my mind Calliope. I meant what I said; I’ll have kids with you. You’re going to make an amazing mother, don’t get me wrong I’m terrified, but I know we can do it together. I’m just really confused at how this just happened. You don’t just start an argument for no reason.” Arizona says.
“You shut me out.” Callie replies quietly, looking into Arizona’s eyes. “It’s the one thing I hate. I want you to feel like you can trust me, be able to tell me things, or even just wake me up after a bad dream. I know it’s stupid. I just over reacted that’s all, I woke up alone and it scared me.” She tells the blonde.
Arizona takes Callie’s hand in hers and laces their fingers together, walking herself and Callie towards the couch. Sitting down Arizona pulls Callie down next to her. “Okay, we’re going to talk.” Arizona declares looking at Callie giving her a small smile.
“I’m sorry for over reacting, Arizona.” Callie apologises again, running her fingers over the palm of Arizona’s hand. “I’m just tired and with everything that happened yesterday, things were said, they came back and took over my emotions. I just don’t know what I did, to make you think I wasn’t ‘in love’ with you?” Callie asks
Arizona thinks about Callie’s question carefully. “I can’t pin point exactly what it was Callie, I’ve never felt like this for anyone else before. Naturally I was a little nervous, especially since I’m only the second girl you’ve been with. I didn’t want to completely commit and then have you turn around and leave me. I know I was wrong; it’s just my way of protecting myself. I see now that my logic was way off.” Arizona sighs.
Callie sits listening to Arizona’s explanation. “Not once have I ever given you any indication that I would ever leave you. The night I was working on the cartilage, I basically told you that I want to spend the rest of my life with you. How did you not see that?” Callie questions her curiously.
Arizona sits in shock, she knew neither wants to live without the other but she hadn’t heard it out loud like that before. She smiles at Callie. “You want to spend the rest of your life with me?” She asks softly.
Callie laughs and shakes her head. “Sometimes Arizona you can be really slow. I want to have your babies, so yes, somewhere in-between now and then I was hoping for a wedding, legal or not.” She tells her smiling.
Before Arizona can respond Callie continues speaking. “Don’t take this as a proposal though… It will come, I promise you that, but it’s going perfect, not like this.” She smiles at Arizona cupping her cheek with her hand; she wipes a small tear away that was running down Arizona’s cheek.
“I just need you to know, I don’t see a future without you. My only wish is that you learn to open up to me. You know so much about me, I want to know more about you Arizona. I love you, I want to know everything. I want you to trust me enough to need me after a bad dream. Do you think you can do that?” Callie asks softly, running her thumb of Arizona’s cheek affectionately.
Arizona can’t find any words; she nods, leaning in and brushing her lips against Callie’s tenderly. “I love you.” Arizona sighs in between soft kisses.
Callie smirks into the gentle kisses; pulling back she looks at Arizona and moves a small strand of hair behind her ear. “I love you too.” Callie replies leaning back in and kissing her softly.
Callie pulls back, smiling at the blonde. “Will you tell me more about your past?” Callie asks eagerly.
Arizona contemplates the question, turning to sit Indian style on the couch facing Callie grinning at her. “Anything you want to know, I’ll tell you. I love you and I trust you. I didn’t mean to keep things from you Callie; it’s just my stupid coping mechanism.” Arizona replies taking Callie’s hands in hers.
Callie grins also moving to sit Indian style opposite Arizona. “Okay, where to start.” Callie thinks, playfully tapping her chin with her finger, causing the blonde to laugh at her. “What’s your most embarrassing moment?” Callie mischievously asks.
Arizona drops her head into her hands and can feel the blush starting to creep its way across her cheeks. “You seriously want to know?” Arizona asks. Callie nods and smirks. “If I answer, do I also get my turn to ask questions?” Arizona inquires.
“Nope, not today, this is about me learning more about you.” Callie states excitedly.
Arizona sighs looking down at her lap. “My most embarrassing moment would have to be getting caught going down on my first girlfriend, by my father and brother.” Arizona mumbles out. Callie lets out a laugh. Arizona huffs and hides her face in her hands again. Callie reaches up and pulls her hands away to look her in the eyes.
“How did you get caught?” Callie asks curiously.
Arizona shakes her head. “You know payback’s a bitch right Calliope?” Arizona mutters before continuing her story. “It was in the back of my car in the garage. My dad set the same rules for me as he did Danny; we weren’t allowed to have girls in our room with the door closed. I thought I’d be smart and go to the garage to make out in my car… well one thing led to another, and mid way through our love making session I heard a tap on the window.” Arizona pauses from recalling the events from many years ago.
“When I saw my dad there, I thought I was going to die.” Arizona giggles as she replays the memory in her head. “I can laugh about it now. But I couldn’t even look my dad in the eyes, for over a month after the incident. Danny on the other hand loved to use it against me; if he got into trouble, he would bring it up hoping to lessen his punishment. Acting like he was the innocent one out of the two of us.” Arizona informs Callie.
Callie listens intently to the story before laughing again. “Did that teach you not to have sex in your car Arizona?” Callie giggles.
“No, it didn’t, it just taught me not to have sex in my car parked in my parent’s garage.” Arizona laughs smirking.
Callie pretends to be shocked. “My, my Arizona, who would’ve thought Miss Perky and innocent, lived on the wild side?” Callie teases.
“I never said I was innocent.” Arizona smirks giving Callie a knowing look.
Callie smile. “Oh ‘I’ know you’re not innocent, but everyone else doesn’t.”
“What can I say? My hard ass ortho surgeon, rockstar of a girlfriend brings out the bad in me.” Arizona winks.
Callie grins and continues her questioning. “Well that answers most embarrassing sex story.” Callie tells her before thinking of another question. “How many serious relationships have you been in? And why did they end?” Callie asks hope Arizona doesn’t shut down at this question.
“Four, including you” Arizona simply answers, taking Callie’s hand in hers, squeezing it and speaking. “Joanne and I were together for 2 years through high school and then the first 2 years of college. We grew apart, had different goals and dreams.” Arizona explains. “I was devastated after the break up, she was my first love. I thought I’d never get over her. I suppose some part of me will almost love her, you always do when it comes to first loves.”
Arizona plays with Callie’s fingers. “I met Melissa almost a year after Joanne and I broke up. We were together for 2 years, we weren’t right for each other from the beginning. We knew it, but there was so much heat between us though; so we stayed together for the wrong reasons. She eventually cheated on me, it hurt, but looking back it was actually a relief.” Arizona looks into Callie’s eyes pausing and taking a deep breath.
Callie ran her free hand over Arizona’s knee comforting her; Callie can see a change in Arizona’s posture, she gives her a small encouraging smile.
Arizona smiles back before letting out a massive sigh. “My last relationship before you, was with Stacy. We were together for 6 years.” Arizona tells Callie stopping to look in her eyes, making sure she understands what she’s about to tell her. “I was her first girlfriend; we were friends that fell in love. I thought she was my forever, I was wrong. After 6 years together, she came to me and told me she wasn’t gay.” Arizona blurts out, a tear running down her cheek.
Callie immediately scoots closer to Arizona and wraps her arms around her securely. “That’s why you had doubts about me?” Callie asks softly. Arizona nods in Callie’s neck crying. Callie kisses the blonde’s hair and rubs her back trying to sooth her. She finally understands Arizona’s fears.
Callie pulls out of the hug and wipes the tears away from Arizona’s eyes, leaning in and kissing her soundly. “I understand your insecurities now Baby.” Callie whispers softly placing another kiss on her lips. “I want you to know, I’d never do that to you. You’re my forever. Do you understand that? I’m not letting you go, ever.” Callie reassures Arizona.
Arizona nods, she knows Callie means what she’s saying. She sees the concern in the big brown eyes in front of her; she allows a small smile to form on her lips. “You weren’t the only one that was broken coming into this relationship Callie.” Arizona simply states.
“You told me you weren’t broken, that you weren’t something that can be fixed.” Callie replies.
Arizona smiles, “Regarding having a baby, no I wasn’t broken; I thought I had everything I needed with just you. At least I thought I did until I saw you with Ruby. You’re a natural, the way you calmed her down, held her hand and reassured her. I saw something in your eyes yesterday I hadn’t seen before and the smile that was on your lips. You think I have a super magical smile. I can’t even find words to describe your smile; it’d have to be a super super magical smile.” Arizona jokes.
Callie beams at Arizona. “So if I give you one of my ‘Super super magical smiles’ will that stop your tears?” Callie asked lightheartedly.
Arizona giggles. “As much as it hurt, these tears are not tears of pain anymore Calliope. I no longer have feelings for Stacy; it was the best thing that could’ve happened to me.” Arizona tells Callie. “I wouldn’t have this.” She says gesturing between the two of them. “If she didn’t end it, I would be missing out on being with the most amazing person in the world.” She smiles at Callie, wiping the last of her tears away. “I was crying because I almost lost you due to insecurities caused by her.” Arizona tells Callie softly. “I almost let my own stupidity get in the way of a happy future.” Arizona sighs.
“I think I’m the one with the most amazing person.” Callie says smirking at Arizona, Callie leans in slowly, stopping just before her lips touch Arizona’s. “She’s an idiot for letting you go.” Callie tells the blonde, before closing the gap between their lips kissing Arizona. The kiss is full of love and passion. Callie wants Arizona to know that she’s not going anywhere; she wants her to feel it.
Callie slowly lifts Arizona into her lap; Arizona instantly wraps her legs around Callie’s waist, pressing their bodies closer together.
Callie massages Arizona’s tongue with hers, eliciting a moan from the blonde, making her smirk into the kiss. Callie slowly runs her hands down Arizona’s side pausing at the hem of her top, she leisurely pushes it up the blonde’s body and trails her fingers over the flesh she finds waiting under it. She pulls back from the kiss, and quickly removes Arizona’s top smirking when she notices Arizona isn’t wearing a bra.
Arizona smiles knowing exactly what Callie’s thinking. She leans in and kisses Callie softly on the lips before grabbing the bottom of Callie’s top and pulling it up over her head and throwing it on the floor with her shirt. Arizona’s breath catches in her throat at the sight in front of her. “I’ll never get sick of seeing you naked.” Arizona whispers in Callie’s ear, lightly flicking her tongue over it, before kissing down Callie’s neck.
Callie moans at the feeling of Arizona’s tongue on her ear and the kisses being placed on her neck. Callie snakes her hands around Arizona’s back, scratching her nails over the flesh as she moves her hands underneath the blondes shorts, squeezing her ass and pulling her closer, causing Arizona’s center to push hard against Callie’s stomach. Callie instantly feels the heat and wetness through the thin material separating Arizona’s core from the bare skin of her stomach, causing her own wetness to pool in her shorts.
Arizona arches and moans, rocking slightly against Callie stomach causing a small amount of friction against her wet core.
Callie leans forward placing kisses on the bare chest in front of her; she kisses her way towards one of Arizona’s nipples and flicks it with her tongue causing the blonde to arch further. Callie smirks before taking it in her mouth and sucking on it.
Arizona lets out a louder moan, as Callie sucks and bites on her nipple; she threads her finger through Callie’s hair and pushes her harder into her chest. Arizona continues to rock against Callie. She doesn’t know how much more she can take.
Callie pulls back from Arizona’s nipple and moves up to her mouth kissing her. She runs her tongue over her bottom lip teasing it, before dipping her tongue inside Arizona’s eagerly awaiting mouth, causing Arizona to moan as their tongues meet and battle for dominance.
Callie pulls back from the blonde’s lips, placing small kisses along her jaw; she shifts on the couch slightly and stands up carrying Arizona with her towards their bedroom. Callie kicks the door closed behind her. She carries Arizona over to the bed before placing her gently on the mattress.
Arizona untangles her legs from around Callie’s waist. She feels Callie run her hands softly over her exposed stomach before, trailing her fingers to the top of her shorts; she slightly lifts her hips off the bed allowing Callie to remove them.
Arizona watches Callie as she admires her now completely naked body, from her kneeling position at the edge of the bed. Arizona can feel her cheeks flush as Callie looks up at her and smirks; she gives Callie a quick nod of the head letting her know its okay.
Callie’s breathing increases at the sight in front of her. She looks deep into Arizona’s eyes and sees the want in them, she leans down and places light kisses on the inside of Arizona’s thigh, slowly moving up towards her destination. Callie feels Arizona thread her fingers in her hair trying to guide her faster to where she needs her. Callie lets her tongue trail over the wet folds teasingly, before sliding her tongue up the length of Arizona’s wet slit savoring the taste she’s missed out on for almost a month.
Arizona bucks her hips towards Callie’s awaiting mouth; she loves how her girlfriend teases her. She feels Callie’s hands on her hips pushing her back onto the bed holding her in place. Arizona whimpers in response looking down at Callie, begging her with her eyes to continue.
Callie loves it when she drives Arizona wild, she leans back in and lightly traces circles around Arizona’s clit with her tongue, flicking the bundle of nerves a couple of time, enjoying the response her actions are causing. Callie pulls the small bundle into mouth sucking it, and continues flicking it with her tongue. Arizona’s hands tighten their grip in Callie’s hair.
Callie knows Arizona isn’t far off her release, she removes her mouth from Arizona’s clit, running her tongue down between the wet folds one last time, she moves one of her hands from its position on Arizona’s hip, she slides her fingers down through the wet folds, circling Arizona’s dripping center teasingly.
Arizona moans louder when she feels Callie’s fingers at her opening, she moves her hips forward, hoping the action will push Callie’s fingers into her center. “Please Callie” She begs when her actions don’t get her desired response.
Callie lightly kisses the bundle of nerves again and slowly pushes two fingers inside of Arizona setting a steady pace. Arizona automatically matches her pace with her hips. Callie removes on of Arizona’s hands from her hair laces their fingers together.
Arizona squeezes Callie’s hand tightly, she can feel herself climbing closer and closer to her climax, she feels Callie take her clit back in her mouth one last time and enter her with a third finger, that’s all it takes sending Arizona over the edge. “Fuck..” Arizona screams as she feels the full extent of her orgasm hit her.
Callie lets go of Arizona’s clit and places soft kisses on her stomach, she slows her fingers, allowing Arizona to ride out every last second of pleasure. When she feels the walls around her fingers relax she gently removes her fingers and crawls up the bed to lie beside Arizona. Arizona’s eyes are closed and she has a small smile on her lips. Callie smiles pleased with herself.
Arizona can’t move it’s been weeks since she’s experienced an orgasm like this one. She slowly opens her eyes and sees Callie staring at her smirking. “Thank you, I love you.” Arizona manages to say.
Callie laughs and leans down and lightly kisses Arizona’s lips. “You’re welcome, I love you too.” Callie replies, pulling the blanket over them. “Sleep.” Callie whispers into Arizona’s ear, curling into Arizona’s side draping an arm and a leg over Arizona, resting her head on her shoulder.
“But you haven’t got off.” Arizona says groggily
Callie leans and kisses Arizona’s cheek. “It’s ok; you can make it up to me later.” Callie whispers.
Callie hears a soft murmur in response from the blonde, she feels Arizona’s breathing even out as the blonde falls asleep. Smiling Callie snuggles into Arizona’s shoulder closing her eyes allowing sleep to claim her.