If I could convert this riff into something conveyable in text, I would put it here.
"You're very pretty, sweet, adorable, and seem to be a fun and caring person in general."
"I was a bit distracted by you today, so that kept me from focusing too much on the conversations."
It's been a long few days. Wednesday night was painful, I will freely admit. For my ex-boyfriend to be so full of PDA with his new girlfriend of not-even-three weeks when he was NEVER like that with me... that hurt like hell, to put it simply. For it to be in front of a fairly large number of my friends was both a help and a hindrance. It was embarrassing, but it did help a bit to have someone there to whom I could freely say, "If I give him his clothes myself, I will cry, so can you please do that for me?" was so... helpful. I have no idea if he actually GOT the clothes, but I have a hard enough time trying to be impartial in public, I'm not going to walk up to them and start talking like nothing happened. Something did happen, and there are actually consequences this time.
Wow, I'm impressed at the amount of anger I can still manage to build up over this. It's probably not healthy, but oh well.
So I slept at Jackie's, since I had to stay in town to give the University my confirmation deposit. I didn't end up with enough time to go home between dropping the money off and going to work, so I sat in the Wok Box across the street from my Chapters and ate and read while waiting for it to be time for me to head into the store. Worked until close, went home to change and grab some clothes and hygiene-things for sleeping at Juliet's last night, then got dropped off at the Catalyst for "Nik and Stu: Counting Leaves", which made me excessively happy. I didn't say hi to Elena or Stu because I wasn't sure sticking around after the show to say hi to my ex-boyfriend's friends was an entirely good idea, but I really wanted a Stu hug. Sigh. At least they played some awesome songs, such as "Hacknied and Contrived," which I have on my computer and ipod because Elena posted it a long time ago and I'm a musical pack rat.
Slept at Juliet's, ranted at her about Michael and his painful PDA, listened to her rant about needing a bigger bubble when it comes to certain people. Sleep, waking up in the morning only to go back to sleep for an hour and a half while she did things on her laptop. We eventually had pita chips and hummus for breakfast, then headed out to meet up with Simon and Raafi, then grab water and sun screen (which is still in my back pack... perhaps I'll use it in Vancouver?) before meeting Maclain. Juliet wandered off to purple her hair (which turned out quite hot, I must admit) while Simon, Raafi, Maclain and I went to "Trashcan Duet". The guy was super cute, in that slightly awkward way, and the dialogue vaguely reminded me of Joss Whedon, but it wasn't that good, really. Sad. Maclain then wandered off to meet Graschuk, while Simon, Raafi and I picked up some curry and sat down to watch Shawn the Bike Boy for the second of three times that evening, followed by Jimbo the magician (hilarious, if not a fantastic magician).
Tom eventually showed up, followed by Remi and Juliet. We all watched Bike Boy (whose name always makes me think of Jordan Mann, because I'm like that) for the third time (first for them), and then another guy who wasn't as good, but he did manage some pretty cool things involving balance. Then David showed up, and he seemed to get along with everyone pretty well, which is awesome since he only knew me and I was on the phone half the evening. Also had to let Kevin down when he asked me to help him photograph a wedding tomorrow because I work eight hours (all afternoon into the evening) and there's pretty much no way I'll find someone to cover for me. I feel like a horrible friend, but I honestly can't get out of work tomorrow. (Yes, I'm telling myself moreso than anyone who might read this. What of it?)
We then watched Apokalypse Kow (hurray!) before wandering over to Scratch. Arlen and Kevin rocked it tonight, which made me happy because then I felt less like a bossy jerk-face for making everyone go to see them with me. After that, everyone ended up leaving except David and me. Simon eventually came back with Steph, and we wandered the mostly-closed festival for about an hour before I finally gave up on waiting for my parents and asked David to drive me home.
It turns out he thought I thought he was an annoying hanger-on, whereas I was trying to be a bit distant so I wouldn't lead him on when I don't even know what I want from myself, let alone anyone else. So we discussed it a bit once we were both home, and hopefully that's straighened out.
The quotes at the top are from him. Other people have also been complimenting me an awful lot in the past few days. I almost wish it would go to my head, since then I would at least be able to prove that I was listening. As it is, I'm so immensely flattered, and I love my friends and how nice they are to me. Even if they do have contests to see how many weird sounds they can get out of me. Poofaces.
And now that that's mostly out of my system, I should probably head for bed so I can wake up in time to shower the sun screen off. Ew.
"I was a bit distracted by you today, so that kept me from focusing too much on the conversations."
It's been a long few days. Wednesday night was painful, I will freely admit. For my ex-boyfriend to be so full of PDA with his new girlfriend of not-even-three weeks when he was NEVER like that with me... that hurt like hell, to put it simply. For it to be in front of a fairly large number of my friends was both a help and a hindrance. It was embarrassing, but it did help a bit to have someone there to whom I could freely say, "If I give him his clothes myself, I will cry, so can you please do that for me?" was so... helpful. I have no idea if he actually GOT the clothes, but I have a hard enough time trying to be impartial in public, I'm not going to walk up to them and start talking like nothing happened. Something did happen, and there are actually consequences this time.
Wow, I'm impressed at the amount of anger I can still manage to build up over this. It's probably not healthy, but oh well.
So I slept at Jackie's, since I had to stay in town to give the University my confirmation deposit. I didn't end up with enough time to go home between dropping the money off and going to work, so I sat in the Wok Box across the street from my Chapters and ate and read while waiting for it to be time for me to head into the store. Worked until close, went home to change and grab some clothes and hygiene-things for sleeping at Juliet's last night, then got dropped off at the Catalyst for "Nik and Stu: Counting Leaves", which made me excessively happy. I didn't say hi to Elena or Stu because I wasn't sure sticking around after the show to say hi to my ex-boyfriend's friends was an entirely good idea, but I really wanted a Stu hug. Sigh. At least they played some awesome songs, such as "Hacknied and Contrived," which I have on my computer and ipod because Elena posted it a long time ago and I'm a musical pack rat.
Slept at Juliet's, ranted at her about Michael and his painful PDA, listened to her rant about needing a bigger bubble when it comes to certain people. Sleep, waking up in the morning only to go back to sleep for an hour and a half while she did things on her laptop. We eventually had pita chips and hummus for breakfast, then headed out to meet up with Simon and Raafi, then grab water and sun screen (which is still in my back pack... perhaps I'll use it in Vancouver?) before meeting Maclain. Juliet wandered off to purple her hair (which turned out quite hot, I must admit) while Simon, Raafi, Maclain and I went to "Trashcan Duet". The guy was super cute, in that slightly awkward way, and the dialogue vaguely reminded me of Joss Whedon, but it wasn't that good, really. Sad. Maclain then wandered off to meet Graschuk, while Simon, Raafi and I picked up some curry and sat down to watch Shawn the Bike Boy for the second of three times that evening, followed by Jimbo the magician (hilarious, if not a fantastic magician).
Tom eventually showed up, followed by Remi and Juliet. We all watched Bike Boy (whose name always makes me think of Jordan Mann, because I'm like that) for the third time (first for them), and then another guy who wasn't as good, but he did manage some pretty cool things involving balance. Then David showed up, and he seemed to get along with everyone pretty well, which is awesome since he only knew me and I was on the phone half the evening. Also had to let Kevin down when he asked me to help him photograph a wedding tomorrow because I work eight hours (all afternoon into the evening) and there's pretty much no way I'll find someone to cover for me. I feel like a horrible friend, but I honestly can't get out of work tomorrow. (Yes, I'm telling myself moreso than anyone who might read this. What of it?)
We then watched Apokalypse Kow (hurray!) before wandering over to Scratch. Arlen and Kevin rocked it tonight, which made me happy because then I felt less like a bossy jerk-face for making everyone go to see them with me. After that, everyone ended up leaving except David and me. Simon eventually came back with Steph, and we wandered the mostly-closed festival for about an hour before I finally gave up on waiting for my parents and asked David to drive me home.
It turns out he thought I thought he was an annoying hanger-on, whereas I was trying to be a bit distant so I wouldn't lead him on when I don't even know what I want from myself, let alone anyone else. So we discussed it a bit once we were both home, and hopefully that's straighened out.
The quotes at the top are from him. Other people have also been complimenting me an awful lot in the past few days. I almost wish it would go to my head, since then I would at least be able to prove that I was listening. As it is, I'm so immensely flattered, and I love my friends and how nice they are to me. Even if they do have contests to see how many weird sounds they can get out of me. Poofaces.
And now that that's mostly out of my system, I should probably head for bed so I can wake up in time to shower the sun screen off. Ew.