blah pop day

he still hasn't said anything. i can't do this by myself. i need his help, to know how he feels. this is fucked!!!

why does every thing have to be so god damn hard?!i like joey i realy do but i want to have a real and serious relationship. i don't think that is what he wants. :(( this is much too hard. i wish i knew what he wanted. i know i'm part of it somewhere. i just wish i knew where and what. i know what vicki wants. FUCK! well coment if you want but i ( Read more... )

i did spend the night at vicki's but i did NOT sleep with her. rose you don't need to be like that.i was just mad at you cause you were being really cranky and only twared me. this is rediculous. i didn;t sleep w/ here you know me better than that i don't sleep w/ people i just barely meet. that was fucked for you to say. well joey never called me ( Read more... )

you guys are the best. and i love you. joey i need you to call me before ten tonight. it's important! k. love you guys thought i should mention that to joey. i miss you guys if you want to know what's going on go to   
(   http://profiles.myspace.com/users/14488031  ) okay bye.

rose is bringing up past fears. butt sex is yucky and i love amba's pictures. well that pretty much sums up the updates of the friendlike people.well let's hear about today:    joey was tiered in fifth today. um ceerten persons were hitting on me in eighth (yucky, but i can handle them). ;) i got quite the work out in seventh. and sixth was okay . ( Read more... )

once again i had this whole big thing typed. and i really need some advise so give me a call.

so it's 12:31am, and i cant sleep. for some reason i'm afraid of something. but i don't know what it is. i have a REALLY bad fealing, there for i am afraid of something unknown. wierd how things work. how you can be afraid of something and not even know why or what it is... this totally suck. i'm totaly thrashed (tiered) and i can't fuckin sleep. i ( Read more... )

well thank you rose, that means alot to  me. well needless to say i woke up this morning and i was automatically  alone. everyone was gone... no one to call that would ven bother calling me back (hint, hint) i don't see why he doesn't pick up the phone and call me. i shouldn't have to be the one to call all the time. it's not fair. some how i'm ( Read more... )

this is such crap. kris thinks she right about everything. it the night before new years eve and i'm still alone. rose has invited me to her group thing for new years. but i wish that i had some one to hang out with. she's right though, i just sit there saying nothing and doing nothing. just a waist of space. i guess i should be used to this by now ( Read more... )