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so today hasn't been all too much fun. Woke up, didn't really want to go to class, but that turned out not to be so bad. after astronomy, I had to go to the bookstore. which meant I had to cross the street. there was a biker who crossed at the same time I did. and a bus that decided to turn. the biker was long gone when the bus came around the ( Read more... ) -
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well, I moved back into the dorm. or, I'm moving back into the dorm. my clothes and shoes are unpacked. everything else.. well... haven't gotten there yet. my clothes and shoes were a big enough task because I have so many to cram into a teeny tiny space. its depressing me. it doesn't smell like home. it doesn't smell like anything familiar. and I' ( Read more... ) -
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There are just some days that suck. all the way through. I hate those days. usually full of disappointments taking on many different forms, like disappointment from people, circumstances, or other things. I hate feeling unimportant to people, like they don't really care about me. for once I just want someone who wants to be with me as much as I ( Read more... ) -
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HAPPINESS!!!!! things are going really good now! the thing I cried about in my last post... well.. its all changed. I'm all happy now. I got christmas presents from Jeremy the other night. :) Hello Kitty tank top and undies that are bright pink with poka dots, really cool film strip picture frames, a Kelly Clarkson DVD, and... a ring! a really ( Read more... ) -
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I really don't remember the last time I ever felt so upset and hurt in my life. I cried tonight for the first time since school started. -
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so, I just bought my plane tickets to leave Eugene!! I leave Thursday December 8 at 1:05pm. :) I'm so excited! I get to Spokane at 4:55pm, depending on delays. I'm so excited! I get to spend like, 4 days with my sister!! My flight home leaves at 6am.. which sorta sucks that its so early, but it works out well cuz jen works early in the morning ( Read more... ) -
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I love the feeling of finding someone who truly makes me happy and who I want to be with, and who wants to be with me too. It just makes the whole world seem brighter and more cheerful. I just had a really good day today. classes weren't too bad at all, had fun in between classes hanging out with friends or texting with a certain someone :) got a ( Read more... ) -
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I've been feeling a bit down lately. I'm not entirely sure why, but it feels as though my life is ripping apart at the seams. I feel completely unfocused with no direction or purpose in my life. I don't feel loved. In the past week, things have happened in my life that had never happened before. I've never felt so rejected and unwanted.my brain is ( Read more... ) -
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So, I went through a good portion of today feeling quite down. I have no idea what I want to do with my life, and with my regular routine, I don't feel like I have time to even think about it. I've been living my life day to day just trying to get through everything that I need to. I've felt stuck in this cycle of hardly sleeping, going to classes ( Read more... ) -
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so, I've decided that I'm done with boys for now. I'll be friends with boys, but nothing more. at least for now. I need to recover from recent letdowns and self-esteem crushers. I just need a break from boys. I can't handle another disappointment, which is about all I seem to get from guys. I'm tired of feeling like a physical object. plus, I ( Read more... )