i cant fuckign take this.. i jsut cant. give me a gun. and i will fuckign blow my fuckign skull off. give me some pills and i'll fucking down them. jsut give me somethign. give em somethign to get you out of my head. all the things ive fucked up between us. i cant fucking take this anymore. i cant take thinkign about you. or anything. i cant take ( Read more... )

Fairytalehero: no man, i don't want to see you

i hate when good highs get ruined.

i did teh hardest thing in my life that i have ever done this morning.. regret? some. alot, actually. i moaped around. till 4. just staying in my room.. cuddling with jade, and curious george, and sock monkey.. just layign there.. thinking about what i jsut did.. why the fuck did i do that.. i just really really needed to get out of the house. and ( Read more... )

the one chance i would have gotten to talk to sammy today. i didnt even get. im never going to get to see that boy. ever. we talked for like 5 secconds yesterday. we wont even talk tonight prolly. i dont even know whats going on tomorrow. band pratice? it was talked about. but im not sure if thats still happening. are we even a band guys? i dont ( Read more... )

well i have alot to talk about.. but i dont think im going to do it jsut yet. i really need to get some more sleep. eventho i slept all day, after a really bad first day of work. god i feel horrible about that. and in general. i hope that doesnt give me a bad rep. god i feel lik sheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeiot!! after mike took me home. i went inside, got out ( Read more... )

banes tonight. thats exciting. everyone is going. its gonan rule. im done.

i had alot of fun today. like alot alot. i always have fun with those kids. especially crystal. and it was so nice. just the seccond everyone leaves. adn the nights over. and im alone. i get really sad. and just cant stop thinking. and think to deep about things. whitch makes myself even more upset ( Read more... )

well.. sofar today has been kinda boring. ive been cleaning the living/dining room. its so dirty. and i had to go clean to balcony. ewwwwwwwwww! cigarette buts. beer cans/broken bottles. they killed my moms plant! they like put there buts in it. and beer spilt in it. so i just threw it away. adn there is so much shit laying around the house. i jsut ( Read more... )

ahhhhhhhhhhh i am sooooooooooooooo HYPERRRRRRRR so.. this si what happened.. lastnight, after james and i got home. we watched trick!! aww that movie was so cute!!!!! then we watched a walk to remember.. and it was really sad.. it made me cry.. but jsut a tiny bit. so wait guys.. have you ever noticed that.. the little hot dog dogs are really horny ( Read more... )