no where to go

[kellysears]

The sweetest man in my entire extended family is dying right now. Everything in his body is failing and he is still all the nurses favorite patient and a delight to everyone who visits him. He is in so much pain, but he doesn't look at it that way. But all around him, hopefully without his knowing, his family is fighting and falling apart. his wife

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Sorry!

[davidsmith1855]

Hey, I've been wanting to reply to this, but just couldn't. The death of a grandparent is something that hits very close to home at the Smith household. We've lost 3 since May 23rd, 2003. And it doesn't seem to get any easier

Re: Sorry!

[kellysears]

thanks david, seriously. I didn't really expect anyone to reply, and I certainly didn't want any witty remarks or new problem solving approaches.

It does suck and I am trying to cool with the fact that I am upset and hurting and that is ok. you must understand that since you mentioned it and you've already been through this several times. This is my first.

I just wanted to get some of it off my chest because I really only tell Andrew about it. he's a great listener. I wanted to just divert a little steam into the LJ.

I feel like its such a complex story of wrecked lives that I hate spilling all the details to people, even friends. it makes me tired.

prayer is a weird concept for me. To me its like thinking..which is weird too. But i think everyone has their own way to go about it. but i feel your sincerity and I dont think you were cheesy when you said it.

Re: Sorry!

[susancloud]

I love you, Kelly.