Maybe I don't mind having a place to call home where I am greeted with open arms and forehead kisses. Also, maybe its ok that I eat breakfast in bed, hold hands in parking lots, and take showers while he plays the guitar. And if I am told I am loved all the time then what's so bad about that And if it isn't you...so what. And if sometimes I come ( Read more... )

"I bet its hazy in there" I'll tell him one morning over egg whites and banana. "In where?" He'll ask but only after he finishes staring just slightly left of eye contact. "That head of yours." I smile. "Stop being a bitch." He'll snap bitterly, assuming I'm judging him again.  I am judging him (again) so I immeditally change the subject to silence ( Read more... )

So I obviously need medication.

Okay maybe it's only obvious to me and a few other people who know me really well but I do, lets just fact it I do, I really do. I am that percentage of women that are depressed, big deal there are thousands of us (statistics claim). I'm not embarassed or even upset at the fact that I'm so upset that I need meds I'm ( Read more... )

I let my emotions overstep themeleves more often then I'd like to admit or ever will actually admit. I will always love you. Love the way you represent your world, the way you preach lessons of vitlity and the pursuit of peace. I was never more right when I told you I'd never stop lusting for your words because in this day in loveless age I wont. ( Read more... )

       He keeps "thin to full for Men" in his shower just in case his parents are wrong about how young he is. He won't be having coffee this morning or picking up his shirt from the dry cleaners. He doesn't race the clock or sit in traffic and most days he leaves his apartment in shorts unless it's winter. He is ground level acumulous, living in a ( Read more... )

im not surving very well these days

so i guess this is some kind of outcry

i dont know what i mean by it

i guess i just need to let someone...anyone know i need help

So my concluding entry was a bit too ummm angry? lol So I figured I'd politley sign off live journal land by just saying thank you for reading and goodbye =) I still check updates but I'm back to pen and paper for now.

<3333Kelbye

The Fucking End.

I came to some awful realizations last night

I feel really sad about most of them

And feel really terrible about the rest

I'm not sure whats to come of me now....

So lonley and so l o s t

I'm just looking for some kind of comfort

Right now I feel insane

I feel really lonley