Yeah...

[kelsey_ww4]

So,I had to write to him in 2nd period asking if he'd read the letter I wrote to him yesterday. Here is the note we wrote back and forth and what I think of it(I'll put it under a cut,it's angsty and has a wee bit of bad language,you are warned)

Jacob,
So,did you read the note?

Yes, but I think of you as that cool friend I can party with and talk to

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[clockworkcallie]

No, no, no.
Now that you know, you can start to move forward.
You can start letting go now, no regrets. ^^
And when you're fully over him, you'll be friends again, with no awkwardness at all.
And there shouldn't be much right now anyways.

*hugs*
Good luck. ^^

[kelsey_ww4]

I know,I know I should move on. But it's just so hard for me after it's taken all this time to finally tell him. Hell,it's taken me over two years to get over the last time I did this with another guy. And I still don't really think I'm over him.

But I do hope I get over this soon.Being friends with him is better than nothing I guess.I'm just so sick of getting hurt by all this shit.

Oh,there's still the awkwardness!And there will be for a little while.

Thanks for the good luck! *Hugs!*

[clockworkcallie]

...I'm not saying move on right now, that's waaaaay too difficult. I'm saying not that you've told him, you can start to move forward. Little steps. They'll be small, but there. Like, tiny, one week crushes on various boys and such. ^^ That'll happen in a month or so hopefully. <3

And it is better than nothing.
Hell, when Brendon barely talked to me after we broke up, I was wishing we had never started going out in the first place, I just wanted his friendship back.
And you know what?
Friends last longer. ^^

[kelsey_ww4]

Actually,I've already got those tiny crushes in some boys already. There were four boys at the begining of the year. I just thought to go for it with him because I had known him longer and he was really sweet. Well,on to the next boy I guess

[stare_at_walls]

It'll blow over, ignore the awkwardeness, acty like nothing's wrong, act like you're still friensds with him (remember to say hi like you usually do, okay?) and give it time.

Seriously.
It'll slip back into place.

That's what happpened with me the last time I got turned down. :D

[kelsey_ww4]

Yeah,I'm doing a bit better on the ignoring everything and acting like everythings fine.Actually acting like everything is fine is something I do best in my life so I should succeed majourly in that. Surprisingly he actually talked to me yesterday so maybe everything will be okay again.

Your 'Cupid is a complete bastard' icon is perfect for this! Haha!

I think from now on I'm just going to ignore my feelings for people. I'll get through the day better that way.

After the weekend I should be okay.I just need a break from all of that shit.

Thanks for the advice!