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I sit here writing this because I can't sleep, even though I have to be up in less than 6 hours. I never sleep when I have too much to think about.
You see, I have a problem. The problem is that for the first time in ever I have found someone that I truly "like". Everything about her is perfect. When she is around nothing else matters. I could be having the worst day of my life and her smile would make me forget it all. But things can't be easy, there had to be a catch. Now we can only type to each other. My greatest fear right now is that we will slowly drift away and stop caring. I may not want to admit it, but things will not always stay as they are when put under these conditions. For all I know she's already moved on. I hope not, but you never know.
I feel like I've told you alot lately about how much I enjoy being with you, but maybe even that pushes you away. Maybe these are all unfounded fears that will go away in the morning, it won't be the first time either. Maybe I'm making a big deal out of nothing, that too wouldn't be new. Wouldn't it be great if everything just magically worked out in the end like it does in the movies? I don't know what to do with myself.